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I think I’ve been living in ungodliness and didn’t realise it. I don’t think I was living to honour God. This is the video I watched:- Because I think I was living to honour myself and not God I’m worried incase I used Gods grace as a lisence tk sin because I’ve complained a lot I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. The video I watched says that some Christians have their hearts surrendered to Jesus and they still struggle sometimes and then there’s their people who are ungodly and aren’t living to honour God but to themselves I’m scared so I am. I’ve complained in my head so much like every day and I spend all day on my phone and I didn’t think about living to honour God. I didn’t even think. The video said that some have the show of a Christian but it ungodly and fellowship with Christians. I fellowship with Christians online and I quote scriptures all the time and think about God. But I haven’t been living to honour Him. The video also said people twist the gospel to fit their own flesh. I have been angry in my head and complained in my head and lay in my bed all day. I haven’t really been acting the godliest and because of ocd thoghts always running through my head I find it hard to talk trying to tame my thoughts every second and sometimes I speak in a non gentle way and it looks really rude. I don’t think I’ve been serving God. Jesus scares me all the time so I find it hard to feel emotion and focus on Him. I go on my phone all day every day and stay in my bed all day and barley leave my room because idk what else to do. I have nowhere to go nothing to do. I have bad OCD intrusive thoughts so I haven’t prayed to God properly in like 2 weeks. I struggle with unwanted sinful thoughts. would Jesus even want me to pray to Him if I don’t feel emotion for Him. I don’t know how to surrender my heart to Hin and I don’t know how to deny myself or take up my cross and follow Him. I don’t know what Gods will is. I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. please help thank you for reading ?