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Hello everyone. I could really use some encouragement right now. I am recently married and both my husband and I are believers. However, we are struggling to have faith right now. We both have dead-end jobs, and according to my and my family's personal beliefs, I (as the wife and help-meet) am not really supposed to be working. However, it would be impossible for us to survive without both of our incomes. While I am grateful for my job, I absolutely hate it and dread going to work every day. The job is easy enough, but it's rough hours and extremely mind-numbing. Furthermore, it's only a temporary job, so I'll eventually have to find something else, but my very spirit rebels against finding another dead-end job that is not fruitful and has nothing to do with helping my faith to grow. I want to be a writer of Christian literature and I'm in college, but have changed my major multiple times because everyone tells me that the things I am passionate about won't pay the bills. My husband is discouraged about being a provider and is questioning whether he will ever be able to provide for us. I try to encourage him, but it isn't working. On top of all this, I'm having pregnancy symptoms and am extremely frustrated because every test so far has come up negative. I don't know what to do at this point, especially since my mother would look down upon the prospect of bringing a child into the equation, and I know that everyone around me (except my husband) would try to discourage me and tell me how hard everything will get instead of being supportive. We keep praying and reading and praying some more for answers, but nothing happens. Please, help.