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I grew up in a little town called Northumberland PA in a quaint little neighborhood where everyone new each other. Growing up, I attended church every week and our weekly prayer meetings. My church was my second family to me, and they were always praying for me and my sister. Growing up, I had to deal with a lot of health issues, that still go on today. As a girl I grew up going to a Christian school and for the most part I enjoyed it, one of the health problems I grew up with was hearing problems and it got harder when I entered 5-6th grade, I was laughed at alot because of my hearing, but God in his great faithfulness and love helped me get through it. When I was 14 yrs old, my dad got a new job and we ended up moving to NJ. It was here where I dealt with my first double health issue, I was diagnosed with scoliosis and the day after found out I needed my tonsils taken out. God really helped me get through all it through prayers of my church family, I thank God for both my church families, even though I don't get to PA often as I would like, my thoughts and prayers are always with everyone I know who lives in PA. I juxt turned 27 last week, and God has really blessed me this past year, I a. Now in a relationship with my childhood friend Sean and he is the love of my life, and I couldn't be more happy with where my life is now.

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Amen.

 

That's so good to read Ham. 

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Thanks for sharing ham, God bless you.

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Ham,

Blessings to you,

I so enjoyed reading your testimony..

In Christ(7Dove77)

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Awesome Hamsterfan!! You're special and loved by God and by us here at Worthy!!

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That is a nice testimony.

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      This is a testimony of the Glory of God and is but an excerpt of an ongoing story as I am only 60 and I hope He is not done with me yet. It is He that has directed my life. It is He that has shown me truly that there really is nothing He can’t do. It is He that amazes me every single day with His Love, workings, and presence. He deserves the entire credit for this story, when I just simply follow, listen, and obey He does it all and leads my life into marvelous adventures. So this is His story, not mine. It is by His grace that I have learned that when you follow Him without hesitation, put your life in His hands - your heart surrendered, then by His strength He will sustain you – nothing will be able to stop you. You can be assured that this story is all true - every word. My hope is that it will motivate those of you exposed to it to have a greater faith in the One who is able, realize that God is alive and well, and that He is still The Great I Am. 
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          Spiritual warfare is real and hidden by only a veil which our enemy can breach at whim. I wrote this story when I was about 40.  Reliving that vision solidified my resolve to stay away from all spiritual things that I made so long ago, but God was preparing me. After all that time, He still did not turn His back to me and must have shown me through the veil for a reason. Well, I skipped ahead of myself – back to the story...
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          I was out of work for a total of one week and I got here with no prospects. That was God. Two weeks before leaving I fell from a 14 foot height onto a concrete floor and landed on my left hip and shoulder.  I bounced off the floor and kept working. That was yet another miracle from God in my life. By His grace, since February I have had many confirmations, prophesy spoken over me, words given through me for others, truth spoken that I believe has begun to open eyes, many lives have been touched by His love through me. I know that He is faithful to complete the work in my son He promised me so long ago and believe He is allowing me to witness and be a part of the transformation. Yep, all God. He has given me a boldness that I never thought possible. This is all God.
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          So I got an infection in my elbow and after about six days found myself in the hospital for a week. I’m now laid up for two more weeks plus as I have continue Daptomycin IV’s at home for 10-14 days. Joshua did not like me being sick like that. He took me to the ER and witnessed me passing out on the floor in the ER while getting an IV. I am confident that God is using this, and other things, to bring about the breakthrough. Wandering the halls I was able to, witness to, brought hope to, made friends with many people in the hospital. I also had a very special visitor who brought me a message of hope and peace.
          Josh and I are now moved in together. The first night was something. He had an allergic reaction to a new body wash to the point that his throat was closing at 2 am. Josh acknowledged that was happened was not from God. We will be marching the perimeter of this house seven times every evening praising God with every step. This is exactly what I ran from 40 years ago and now I’m in the midst of it. I have an feeling that something big that will change Josh’s heart is about to happen. I am asking God to pave the way, that He is welcome here, to give me wisdom, to touch Josh’s heart. To pave the way for His messenger. For Josh to regain his child-like faith.
          My home health nurse came by to change the dressing and get labs, etc. Well, she was messing with the dressing, tugging at it. I didn’t like that very much and with everything else going on I got overwhelmed and passed out on her with Josh standing there. She had to do CPR on me for like 30 seconds – my heart stopped and I stopped breathing. My chest is sore today from it. I literally died right there in front of Josh. This is not about me, but God’s way of getting Joshua’s attention. “Trust Me” is what I heard as I passed out. There is much peace in that. More breadcrumbs… I truly believe that something big is about to happen and that there will be no doubt it is from God. Spent another night at the hospital. There is no doubt that He is orchestrating all this, there are so many clues.
          God is alive and well. He has not changed. We are the ones who allow ourselves to become so deeply embedded into the world and ourselves that it directs our paths instead of the Holy Spirit. There seems to be no leeway for the Spirit to work in many people’s lives as they are so absorbed in their patterns and behaviors they will not deviate from the people they greet, the relationships they have, the moments they deny others to shine a light into their world – just too busy or too absorbed in themselves. Have you ever seen a light shine on someone? Go talk to them. Is God telling you to turn left here when the store is the other way? Turn left and look for the light. Have faith and He will direct your paths right to someone that needs love. Go take a few minutes and love on them. We are not given faith to seek after blessings for our own lives, but are given it to share with others to motivate them to follow Christ. Is He telling you to say something to a stranger – don’t be shy, do it. A few innocuous words you think are nothing might change someone’s life and you may never know. Words are powerful. I met a man and started talking with him. I found myself telling him that if God was telling him to do something, then he should do it, even if was to give his car or house away, and then proceeded to tell him why he should. When I finished, he asked me how he could be sure it was God. First and foremost He will confirm it like he did with my wife, I think I was his confirmation.  Second if it is out of sacrificial love, then that is God. I may never know what God was telling him to do. This kind of thing happens to me almost every day.
          I met a woman that was brokenhearted. I believe I spoke into her life – very personal, so no details. A few weeks later she came to mind so I started to pray for her. Then God revealed just a sliver – showed me it was just a sliver – of His love for us. Good thing it was just a little, I was overwhelmed. The front of my shirt was soaked as it went on for like 20 minutes. I had to ask Him to stop several times.  There are really no words to describe it. This was God as I do not have that kind of love and compassion personally, this was supernatural. The bible tries, but when you see the boundless, pure, unlimited Love He has for us it is staggering. It changed me. We can trust Him with our very lives.
          Jesus demonstrated faith to us. As a man, He had no possessions but the clothes on His back – not even a place to lay His head down at times. He gave it all away. The only time I remember in the scriptures that He prayed for himself was to ask the Father to take the cup away. Prosperity is good, but the resources you accumulate given away in love is better. Be more like Jesus. Pray the blessings fall on your neighbor, your co-worker, the single mom down the street – you may be asked to provide those blessings and I urge you to do so. Seek first the kingdom of God… Give up your jacket.
          Faith is a two way street. Just as we desire to have faith in Him, He has to have faith in you to obey. When you seek Him with a quiet spirit You will find Him. Then follow, you will know His voice. Once you begin to listen, there will be more. The lights will shine for you to see on the lost or for someone right in your midst that is lonely. You can have faith in that – but you have to be always looking and praying – knowing that He is faithful - to be able to see. This kind of love is sacrificial. Then exercise that faith and go love them, allow the Holy Spirit to speak life through you. That takes boldness and He will give it to you. In doing so you will see miracles and your faith will increase – look for the breadcrumbs. When you say wow, that is God. He has not changed. He is the same God that felled the walls of Jerico, tamed Daniel’s lions, made the furnace flames cool. He lives in you and believe me still works miracles. Come to Him not expecting Him to do something, but with an expectation that He is capable of doing anything. With an expectation of Him moving in our midst - letting go of the conviction that He withholds His hand. Believe that He will work wonders – we serve a miracle working God. Have some faith, take the leap. Who can we fear when God is our fortress, so Love God.  Love people. Follow Him wherever He leads. Stop turning your back and fall into His arms, they are reaching out for you. When you find that, then share it. Let your life be a model of following God and trusting Him with your very life. He really does hold it all in His hands, so there is nothing to fear. My life is His.
          Everyone God calls has their own personal calling. Some called to be the best mommy you can be for example. Whatever your calling is we are all to hold out our arms for our neighbors. That includes everyone on the planet. For you will be known by the love you show one another. That is an active thing to do. Bring someone along with you and lead them the way toward Christ. You can change the world by following God. A handful of men 2000 years ago did. They did it one person at a time – it is all about the relationship and the display of His Power and Love. God loves us all and does not want even one to perish. Love those people that you come into contact with with the end of having them experience the Love of God. Don’t forget that words are very powerful and that you may never know the impact a few words can have, so make them count for the Kingdom of God. Let Him guide your hands, feet, and tongue.
          Like I said way back in the beginning of the story, it is but an excerpt of an ongoing story and I have to stop writing sometime or I’ll never be done. I’ve tried to include enough to get the point across that we serve a miracle working God. He is alive and well. There is nothing He can’t do. Give your heart to Him and never look back. Your life will never be the same. What an incredible ride.
      Taken
      In a moment of quiet reflection
      In a far away place close to home
      Billions of people around me
      And yet I was all alone
      With eyes opened by unseen force
      Earth's inhabitants did I see
      They were struggling with the dilemma
      Of their mortality
      As they considered the way it could be
      From among the options presented
      All their wisdom applied realized
      That it boiled down to choices three
      The choice to many was obvious
      There isn't any God
      Life happened by chance, by a fluke,
      In a trance
      They were taken by the evil one
      If you've ever seen a baby born
      Or studied biology
      You would know deep inside,
      Way down beyond pride
      That all life comes from God alone
      Two choices left, which one to take
      Sadly many waited too long
      By not choosing many were lost
      Ushered away by the evil one
      So the number of those who are left
      Only a portion of those on the Earth
      Pondered the choice - the fork in the road
      Directing the life they lead
      But deception was strong, and desires played in
      Many swayed to and fro liking their sin
      For them the battle would never be won
      Taken prisoner by the evil one
      Out of the billions of people I first saw
      Only a few were still there
       A shimmering light shined down on them
      To show them the way to go
      The path was brightly lit
      So some of them chose to go
      Into the darkness where they could hide
      There they sat by the evil one’s side
      Very few left to ponder the choice
      How to pick not so simple
      For the powers beneath the paths are strong
      With promise of reward for life and beyond
      Some chose the darkness, for many a reason
      They were deceived by the father of lies
      Worldly things they got while they walked the Earth
      Proudly taken away by the evil one
      A precious few followed the path
      The light they let shine on their soul
      Narrow and rocky, it was hard to walk
      But Jesus encouraged them on
      Some not so determined to stay on the path
      Doubt, lust, and greed overtook them
      Lured by worldly things as their reward
      In the end taken by the evil one
      And God gathered up His army
      One day, it is written you see
      Against the evil one and all of his own
      For that is the way that it will be
      And the kingdom of darkness fell hard
      Deep in a pit they were placed
      The ultimate price they would pay for their choice
      They were sealed to go to the fiery lake
      This image I leave you, seek out the truth
      The answer is laid out in scripture
      Consider your choice in the most thoughtful way
      It is for all the rest of eternity
      There are those who will just not consider
      The truth in the Holy Word
      The instructions He gave us are ignored and brushed off
      Evil delights in their fall
      Time is precious, we will never know
      How long we have to ponder the choice
      God controls the time that we have left
      It is not for us to know
      Jesus is knocking on the door to your heart
      Will you join Him in Heaven with us
      For me and my house, we will serve the Lord
      In His love and eternal care
      For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son,
      that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life
      John 3:16.
      Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: 
      if any man hear my voice, and open the door,
      I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
      Revelation 3:20
      Tony Elliott
      johomato1@gmail.com
       
    • By JesusAngelPD777
      Praying for Protection
      Shalom Sisters and brothers!
      One of our sisters has been victim of witchcraft, and was almost killed.
      She just got released from the Hospital where God and his angels visited her.
      She met God for the first time and this event led her to an encounter with God.
      Many friends and family members have participated in demonic rituals to destroy her life and her sisters life.
      They both have been hospitalized and discharged.
      They are now recovering in a safe place.
      Please pray for spiritual deliverance, spiritual protection, enhanced and continued relationship with God, discernment, obedience,faith and wisdom
      For the 2 sisters.

      Thank you, be blessed
    • By East Sky
      Hey Saints! 
      I just had to share this testimony with you. One day my mother and I went to Southern Classic,which is a great chicken place. I was looking at the trees,and one particular leaf stuck out to me. This leaf was the smallest of it's branch. I simply asked the Lord, "What are you saying?" He replied, "Sometimes, the smallest have the greatest strength." This encouraged me so much. Loves, many times we may feel small, weak, and tired, but like Yeshua said, "sometimes the smallest have the greatest strength." Think of David. David killed a giant. The giant was WAY taller than David. Not only did he kill the giant, he killed him with a slingshot and a rock. So whenever you feel small, weak, or tired, remember that the smallest have the greatest strength. 
      Prayer
      Abba, thank you for this word on today. I pray that this touched the hearts of your people. Thank you that we have strength in you. I pray that you teach us to continue to be strong. This world is filled with hate, and there will be people who will only make us FEEL small. But we know, that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. And we know that just because we FEEL small, doesn't mean we ARE small. Lord, I speak victory over your people. Father I decree and declare that their needs will be met, and that we will triumph over the enemy. Thank you in Yeshua's MIGHTY name.
      Amen
      -East
    • By TempleofGod.
      Growing up.  I always believed that God was real. I couldn’t explain why, but it just made sense to me that God existed, and I knew that I believed in Him, not just because adults had told me about God.


       
      I thought of God as an authority figure, like my parents, except that God was bigger, a lot more powerful, and He could see whatever I did.


       
      I had to go to Sunday school every week.  I didn’t mind this, because I liked Bible stories. I thought that church was boring.


       
      To me, being a Christian was all about rules. I did my best to be a good person, and do all the right things. I used to get bullied a lot, so I didn’t see why I had to be nice to anyone who wasn’t going to treat me the same way.


       
      At school, one of my favourite things to do was writing. By the time I was twelve, I decided that I wanted to become a journalist when I grew up. I became very interested in news and current affairs.


       
      I would sit and watch the news every night. I saw lots of stories about bad things that people did to each other.


       
      I was a very curious kid, and I liked finding out answers to questions that I wondered about. I began to wonder why bad things happened in the world.


       
      It seemed to me that a lot of bad things happened because some people were trying to run things their own way, and people got hurt.


       
      I started going to church because I wanted to. When I began to listen to what was being said about Jesus, I realised that I’d been wrong about what being a Christian was. God didn’t expect me to be perfect, but I had been trying to live my life my way, and it was getting me nowhere.


       
       Just before I turned fifteen, I made a commitment to stop living life by my own rules.


       
      About four weeks after my fifteenth birthday, I went to bed one night with what I thought was a severe headache, and muscle cramps down the left side of my body.


       
      The next thing that I remember was waking up in hospital.


       
      I had bandages around my head, and I couldn’t move the left side of my body.


       
      Then , one of the doctors told me that I’d suffered a massive stroke, and that I could have died.


       

       
      When I could move again, I had to learn how to walk, and how to take care of myself all over again.


       
      In the rehabilitation hospital, there were other teenagers who had had strokes, but I remember feeling like a freak, because I thought that I was too young to have something like this happen to me.


       
      When I found out what had happened, I felt so scared, and angry. I would cry at night, and ask God,



      “Why me?”


       
      That was nearly thirty years ago, and I have made a good recovery since then.


       
      What happened to me when I was fifteen is going to affect me for the rest of my life.


       
      I’ve always wanted to know the answers to every question I have asked, but I accept that I will never know why I had to go through what I did.


       
      I do know that God loves me, because, even though I didn’t know it at the time, He has carried me through those times when life has seemed so unfair, and I felt like no one else understood me.


       
      I just want to leave you with this question. Who will you turn to when things go wrong for you?


       

       

       

       

       

       
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