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He never left me, no matter what I said to Him.

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On 4/8/2017 at 4:37 PM, Jacie said:

This is kind of difficult for me to write, because so much happened. But here goes. My mom left my dad when I was 2 and my sister was 3. To this day, I can still remember the abuse she went through.  It was difficult for her being a single mom, but she did the best she could. She saved up enough money to buy us children's Bibles when we were quite young. She read verses to us right before bedtime prayers. My sister prayed, but I didn't. I asked God why He was so mean. Why did He make my dad abuse my mom. Why was He making my mom's life so hard. I didn't get an answer. 

A few years later, my mom told me something that she had waited to tell me until she thought I would be old enough to understand. I'll never forget the day she told me that I had been born with epilepsy, and that she had it too. She explained what it meant. My anger boiled over with God. I asked God why He did this to me and my mom. Again, no answer. I asked God why life was so hard. I never got an answer. One day, I told God that if He was real, to prove it. Nothing happened. In my young mind I decided that this so-called God that my mom, sister and the Pastor talked about had abandoned me. Church meant nothing to me. I went through the motions of kneeling at my bed and pretended to pray. Pray? Who, me? Yeah, whatever. Pray to who?  

After school one day, I picked up that Bible and opened it up almost right to the middle and started reading. I was reading the Psalms. I came to the 23rd Psalm and reality kicked in. I re-read it, taking in every word. 
"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever." It was then that I started crying and told God how sorry I was that I ever doubted Him. 
As my sister and I got older, when something challenging happened, I turned to God. I prayed. I didn't always get an answer, sometimes I didn't get the answers I wanted, but I realized that God knows what was best for me and my family. He still does.
God hadn't abandoned me, I had abandoned Him.

Jacie
 

I never even knew that Jacie didn't believe until I read this. I was shocked, but very thankful when I realized that she turned her life around, with His help. I believe that it was Jesus who guided her to pick up that Bible after school that special day.

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19 minutes ago, Kate said:

I never even knew that Jacie didn't believe until I read this. I was shocked, but very thankful when I realized that she turned her life around, with His help. I believe that it was Jesus who guided her to pick up that Bible after school that special day.

Wonderful!

Our Lord God is amazing and He can't be compared with any other.

Praise the lord God my soul and give Him the whole Glory in Chridst Jesus.

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