I'm going to kill myself in 2 weeks

[Justin Adams]

In some small way I can understand part of what you say and feel. I just could never blame the Lord God for my situation though. I did cry out to Him in a very strange and scary mind-set. And yes, here in the NOT USA, it is more difficult to end it all. But I had a plan of sorts.

I had been totally rejected and all I had was taken - I am young no longer. It was a really terrible feeling to have done all I had done to end up like this on the scrap-heap. Now some of that may be pride - even in death I think pride may rear its ugly head. Well, this is something that WILL separate us from the Lord God. He does NOT favor pride one little bit.

It is pride that suggests to us it is God's fault and that He has denied us what we think we may deserve. So make sure before you end it all that you get rid of your pride. Pulling the trigger is easy - getting rid of pride is the hard bit.

If you do not know how to do that, then call the number someone posted and ask them how to do it. They will help ready you for the next world. So be prepared. Get yourself in order. It is good you asked for some kind of help because you really need it.

Edited February 28, 2018 by Justin Adams

[Blue Lulu]

17 hours ago, Worthlessloser said:

Like the title says. I put in the paperwork for a permit over the weekend, will buy a gun when it goes through, drive up to a mountain somewhere secluded, and blow my head off. Yes I know it's a terrible sin, but God is only watching when I do something bad, waiting to punish me. When I try to do good, He doesn't care. The essence of being a Christian is that there's no relief to suffering, but you can suffer more and more; you never get better, only worse. So I've had enough of a life that just gets worse, never better. This God who is supposedly loving, supposedly only wants good things for me, somehow lets me continue to suffer, dangling a promise of a better life that never comes. Enough already, time to end it

Please do not do this thing.  I care, we all care.  You can talk to me.  You can unload on me every day.  We can work on these issues one at a time, one step at a time.  I am praying for you.  Please call suicide prevention, they can hook you up with a counselor.  

[secretopossumcabal]

Read the book of Job -- over and over again. 

It's a struggle and a battle for all of us, but as you accumulate winters you will get stronger.  My opinion is don't isolate yourself, find other like minded people and keep productive. Don't EVER go near guns. I have struggled with major depression my entire life, if I had easy access to a gun at any point in my life I would not be here and fortunately, being committed once, i'm pretty much barred from owning a gun.

Last year -- around August, my dog died. I knew him for half my life and he was my best friend and my world. I tried to hang myself. I couldn't do it, thankfully God has never given me those kinds of guts, but a gun is a different matter as it is very easy and instant. I think it is best to NEVER go near them if a person suffered from any suicidal ideation at any point of their life.    

Use your pain to draw closer to the lord "I do this for you, my king", as the years go on, you will get stronger and you will bear fruit. We're not living for this life, but for the next one. This is our chance to show our loaylty and love to our creator, what greater testament is our love for him than by being beside him in pain?

But I know what it feels like when you're in the moment, you just have to hold on and talk to others. I hope that you don't have the guts, IMO, if they bar people who were committed from owning guns where you live. You need to force yourself into a mental hospital ASAP.   

Edited February 28, 2018 by secretopossumcabal

[1to3]

Hi worth FULL and NOT less NOTloserBUT WINNER in CHRIST JESUS,

Lots of us have been in your shoes when suicide, ending it all seems like the only answer, and many who have overcame are writing you here in this thread right now, that they are happy they did not go through with it. I also am one of these people. One time i did try and also almost succeeded. I am so grateful to God to be alive and writing you. I am grateful to God for Him giving me another chance at LIFE through His  precious gift of Mercy and Grace. I have also known friends who did succeed in killing themselves and also I know of a person who survived a suicide attempt and is disabled now for life. Yes suicide attempts can be botched and  you can wind up living a completely disabled life.

You are being prayed for right now by many, many who care for you and your soul and perhaps if our prayers are answered, one of these days you also will be writing and encouraging someone else to not go through with satans plan of deceit.

You know worth full and NOtless notloserBut Winner in ChristJesus, you are not a looser in Gods eyes, nor in my eyes. He created you just perfect in HIS eyes. Remember the devil has only one purpose to steal kill and destroy, and if you succeed in killing yourself, the devil just has gotten another notch around his belt and he does not care about you at all.

But God does care, God is the Good shepherd, Have you ever read in John 10: 10? God is the good shepherd, He will go looking for any sheep who is getting lost and He will try to lovingly bring them back into safety with Him and the other flock. Right now the Good shepherd Christ Jesus is trying to get you to come back with Him, through us his flock filled with His Holy Spirit living inside us, who are trying  lovingly wake you up and back to Him and His love for you .

We are all coming to you with His love and trying to wake you up from the deception satan is trying to convince you of , Wake Up -worth FULL and NOTless NOTlooser but WINNER in CHRISTJESUS- WAKE up in The Blood NAME of JESUS I PRAY, Father God loose satan from this young man in the Blood name of Christ Jesus , I pray!. Amen! Amen! Amen!

On another note...

life truly is like a box of chocolates, you truly never know whats coming next? some flavors are better tasting than others, but still its chocolate. Yum!  and the same is with life,  say, did you ever  hear about  Salomon? well he asked God to make him wise, and so God obliged. Solomon wrote about life as them being like seasons, a time for this a time for that...

The thing is to learn in life to adapt with each coming season. That is what life is all about, its about learning to live in any season. The wisdom and Grace of God is that He teaches us how to cope through the seasons of life and His Word is full of wisdom , teachings and encouragement for us to keep onwards towards a higher purpose, His purpose. We are called to endure, as He came to help us overcome.

Sometimes in life, the sun is shining so nice and the birds are a chirping sweet nothings and sometimes the clouds are full and the wind is blowing so strong, and everything is looking so bleak. But the good thing is the sun does come back to shine again and so do the birds come a back to chirp another sweet nothing song again. Just hold on son, hold on as the season they are a changing and the spring is coming soon once again.

You never know what your gonna get in a box of assorted chocolates and you don't know what's around the corner. And that's good, it keeps things fresh.

Have some faith, hold on to the tiny string of faith you have and I promise you, if you keep holding on to it will grow and grow stronger and stronger. that's how faith in God works when you place your trust in Him.

I had to also learn how to place my trust in God and what I found out was the little faith i put,  it grew, and then I placed a little more and it grew again, and it just keeps growing as i keep placing my trust in Him.

But if you choose to be hasty, and give it to satan, you will never get to know this.  I am praying that something in you is stronger than letting all go down the drain with satan.

That little boy in you, the one God Created with so much love , he is in youand he is looking up to you  his big brother YOU to now protect him from satan. If you cannot help yourself right now, do it for your little self within, that little precious, precious boy who is looking up to you right, this very minute for protection. Help him and in time you both will be stronger for it,  My instincts tell me, you are a very good man and with a lot of worth and lots of love still to be uncovered. Give yourself a little break, (have a kit kat.lol) and don't give that rotten stinken satan any pleasure, 'cause he just aint worth it. but you  areWORTH SO MUCH,and that little boy inside you is also.

with much love and care;

in Christ Jesus always

             

          1to3

Edited March 1, 2018 by 1to3

[Blood Bought 1953]

 

I fought depression for five long years,almost committed suicide.....I was a walking zombie with no hope. I eased into depression very slowly, but I was delivered in an instant.NEVER give up!!   We don’t always like God’s timing nor do we understand it.Trust God to get you through this valley.Prayers from others can work wonders.I am living proof. Remember this! NEVER GIVE UP !!!!

 

[ContinuingCorletta]

God loves you. God sent His Son to give you life abundantly. I will pray that you will know the breadth, the length, the height, and the depth of Gods love.   I love you, too. That is why I will pray for you.  I will also pray that you don't take your life.  Please allow us on Worthy to get to know you and to help you and to pray for you. We are here and we care about you. God cares about you. Don't take your life.

[vlad]

On 2/27/2018 at 11:49 PM, Worthlessloser said:

Like the title says. I put in the paperwork for a permit over the weekend, will buy a gun when it goes through, drive up to a mountain somewhere secluded, and blow my head off. Yes I know it's a terrible sin, but God is only watching when I do something bad, waiting to punish me. When I try to do good, He doesn't care. The essence of being a Christian is that there's no relief to suffering, but you can suffer more and more; you never get better, only worse. So I've had enough of a life that just gets worse, never better. This God who is supposedly loving, supposedly only wants good things for me, somehow lets me continue to suffer, dangling a promise of a better life that never comes. Enough already, time to end it

I remember many years back a guy told me he would shoot himself. I did not believe him but he did. Then there was a student who was abnormal. I could not talk him out. Some people have it genetically, suicidal inclinations. That does not depend on any suffering. Create the best conditions and this person would say that he is tired that there there is nothing interesting in his life and do it.  It is a kind of genetic sickness as I see it. Abnormality. In this context talk about God's love or no love is only a pretext. You have a health problem. That is for sure.  Some smart people avoid suicidal depression  with medication. Wish you had enough power of will to see a doctor.

[LovelyJoni]

I have been suicidal a few times in my life. It was always a spiritual problem for me as I was running from God and into sin and sin was feeding my depression. Since I got saved I still get depressed at times, sometimes I get discouraged. If I focus on all the bad going on in the world I can get pretty down but if I focus on the Lord and His soon return that gives me hope so I really have to learn to focus on what's right, true and lovely. Easier said than done but I'm spending more time in God's Word and meditating on His Word and learning to trust Him. When you are saved the Lord will allow trials in your life to grow you up in Him and teach you to trust Him. If you learn to respond correctly you grow in the Lord and walk with the Lord and have an awesome relationship with Him just like Job, Noah, Moses and David and plenty others in the Bible who went through tough times even to the point of despising their life. But they held on and the Lord brought them through it and He will bring you through it too. I'm praying for you ?

[Larry 2]

On 2/27/2018 at 1:49 PM, Worthlessloser said:

I put in the paperwork for a permit over the weekend, will buy a gun when it goes through, drive up to a mountain somewhere secluded, and blow my head off.

Dear @Worthlessloser, in God's eyes you are not a loser, and He gave you His Son Jesus to prove it. At the very worst time of my life I searched God's word as never before, read my bible completely through three times in approximately three months. That gave me answers, and faith to carry on. I am different than a great many in that I believe that once we're in Christ, He does the keeping; not us.

Then just why would we carry on in spite of the sufferings we experience? There's life for you that you probably have never even thought of; the peace and pleasure of coming into God's perfect will for your life. Someone spoke of Job, and in Job 1:1 God described him as that man who was perfect and upright, and one that feared God, and eschewed evil. Perfect? When the trials came, Job uttered these words in Job 3:3  Let the day perish wherein I was born, and the night in which it was said, There is a man child conceived. We can sure come to the end of ourselves so as to reach to God instead.

Job 42:10  And the LORD turned the captivity of Job, when he prayed for his friends: also the LORD gave Job twice as much as he had before. 
Job 42:12  So the LORD blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginning.

Please give God the opportunity to bless you as never before, and I ask this in Jesus' name.

[Debp]

3 hours ago, LovelyJoni said:

I have been suicidal a few times in my life. It was always a spiritual problem for me as I was running from God and into sin and sin was feeding my depression. Since I got saved I still get depressed at times, sometimes I get discouraged. If I focus on all the bad going on in the world I can get pretty down but if I focus on the Lord and His soon return that gives me hope so I really have to learn to focus on what's right, true and lovely. Easier said than done but I'm spending more time in God's Word and meditating on His Word and learning to trust Him. When you are saved the Lord will allow trials in your life to grow you up in Him and teach you to trust Him. If you learn to respond correctly you grow in the Lord and walk with the Lord and have an awesome relationship with Him just like Job, Noah, Moses and David and plenty others in the Bible who went through tough times even to the point of despising their life. But they held on and the Lord brought them through it and He will bring you through it too. I'm praying for you ?

The young lady above has said everything so well.  I hope you will really take her counsel to heart.

Worth, things can change.  I feel you are so down on yourself that you are making your depression worse.   Please read some encouraging words from the Bible and begin to dwell on those verses.  You need to get these negative thoughts out of your mind....reading God's word will help.  Also, perhaps try listening to some good Christian music?  Also, seek out an understanding pastor to talk with.... sometimes one needs to talk things out in person.  God bless and keep you safe in Him.