Billiards Ball Posted March 13, 2019 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 3 Topic Count: 5 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 1,502 Content Per Day: 0.66 Reputation: 662 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/05/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted March 13, 2019 On 3/11/2019 at 11:45 PM, Ella said: over the last few days all i have done is cry over people who i thought cared about me ...i am transgender female born ...i thought i was worth something am not to anyone i feel so upset right now i feel no one loves me , i am alone i would self harm but i have nothing in the house to selfharm with why should i be alive ? feeling very low 1) Do NOT harm yourself any longer 2) DO seek immediate counseling from a qualified Christian Bible counselor 3) DO speak immediately with a Christian pastor/elder from a Bible believing church 4) Understand that even the most deep-set feelings can change, and that the facts of the Bible come before faith and feelings--"I don't feel saved today, I don't have much faith today, but the fact is, I'm saved--I've trusted Jesus's death and resurrection to pay ALL my sin debt." 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladypeartree Posted March 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 37 Topic Count: 537 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 32,652 Content Per Day: 5.01 Reputation: 23,262 Days Won: 218 Joined: 06/21/2006 Status: Offline Birthday: 02/23/1953 Share Posted March 13, 2019 You cannot just walk into a doctor surgery and demand an operation especially one as complex as you are talking about here and no doctor would ever agree when you are not fully committed to it Why does your husband want you to be mutilated in this way ? It sounds as if he is the one with the problem not you You need some professional help to ease the depression you are suffering from you are far from worthless nor are you alone If the minister at the "church " your husband attends is agreeing with him then you need to stay far far away from him and his pressure. Please know you are loved and prayed for and no one should be trying to make you do something you are not comfortable doing that is ABUSE 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ella Posted March 13, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 1 Topic Count: 12 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 71 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 57 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/02/2014 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 13, 2019 (edited) edit Edited March 30, 2019 by Ella 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xethea Posted March 13, 2019 Group: Advanced Member Followers: 4 Topic Count: 11 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 262 Content Per Day: 0.12 Reputation: 57 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/25/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted March 13, 2019 On 3/12/2019 at 2:11 AM, Ella said: i feel so far from God i feel alone in a crowd of people i tried to become something am not i have no idea who i am am so closes to going to the train station and jumping on the tracks then id be no more I am sure i know ALL about your feelings. It's like I'm listening to myself in the mirror just 3 years ago when i was in my early 20s. If you REALLY want to talk about this, I'm very confident i will understand you. Just PM me if you want to talk personally. If not i will just say this. First, you say you dont know who you are. Likely, you arent even being your true self, that people arent seeing the real you. So they probably are not showing you love because they don't know the real you. how could we love God if we didnt even hear that he exists? How would we know of is love if he didnt show it to us? Still, i love you. I don't have to know you personally to love you. God loves everyone whether they have a relationship with him or not. There is a love that isnt based on how good someone is. But it is a choice to love people no matter what. So you are loved at least by the Lord through me, and i am sure others here and elsewhere. you probably just havent spoke with them yet. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ella Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 1 Topic Count: 12 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 71 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 57 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/02/2014 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 14, 2019 (edited) edit Edited March 30, 2019 by Ella 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted March 14, 2019 23 minutes ago, Ella said: i lied before my life is good but i crave attention from people and i make things up i know i am going to hell what i put on the post about me being abused is a lie my mother is a toxic women maybe i am toxic too i have nothing to do with her or my family i need help i self harm and i want attention i feel child like most of the time and WANT LOVE I AM SO SORRY I LIED PLEASE FORGIVE ME Hi Ella, Well Sister, thanks for the honesty. Just because you weren't being truthful, doesn't automatically condemn you to eternal punishment. If Jesus is your saviour, He forgives and we are to forgive one another as well. Everyone wants love, Ella. You do seem to have quite a lot of issues to deal with. But try to find a decent godly place of worship and fellowship. Perhaps it will lead to a more positive outlook in the future for you. God bless. Shalom, David/BeauJangles 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ella Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 1 Topic Count: 12 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 71 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 57 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/02/2014 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 14, 2019 (edited) edit Edited March 30, 2019 by Ella 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1to3 Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 22 Topic Count: 138 Topics Per Day: 0.04 Content Count: 4,181 Content Per Day: 1.22 Reputation: 3,070 Days Won: 0 Joined: 11/28/2014 Status: Offline Share Posted March 14, 2019 Please take time to listen to these 2 inspirational youtube videos, that will help you feel Loved by God, because He loves you so. Here are titles of 2 youtube videos that I hope will bless you. Amen! HEALING, INNER-HEALING AND DELIVERANCE PRAYERS, led by Brother Carlos OVERCOMING CHILDHOOD TRAUMA, By Brother Carlos Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ella Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 1 Topic Count: 12 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 71 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 57 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/02/2014 Status: Offline Author Share Posted March 14, 2019 (edited) edit Edited March 30, 2019 by Ella 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Billiards Ball Posted March 14, 2019 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 3 Topic Count: 5 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 1,502 Content Per Day: 0.66 Reputation: 662 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/05/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted March 14, 2019 18 minutes ago, Ella said: Thank you for the videos , things have been hard I feel that I must go to the Catholic church I feel that it's right for me to be there The virgin Mary is someone who I see has Holy she is someone I look up to I want to go to the Catholic church for me it's right I don't agree that the Catholic church looks over the saints for the virgin Mary the saints are celebrated by the Catholic church I have very limited knowledge of the bible but I believe it's right for me My husband is my carer he with me 24/7 everyday as I can't go out on my own due to my mental health he never gets a break we are trying to get a support worker at the moment but we may have pay and we can't afford it as we get government benifts to live on as we can't work we go to mental health drop ins but my husband is still there looking after me things get hard and sometimes we fight but we are like any other couple I don't think he is abustive or would harm me psycally am safe Be careful! Mary/Jesus: one is dead, one is alive, one can hear your prayer, one cannot, one died for you, one did not. Careful there! 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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