Zach777 Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 4 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 1 Days Won: 0 Joined: 05/13/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 I am a new Christian and I feel lost. I lost my oldest brother to suicide, my dad is an alcoholic who isn't seeking help, and I have been addicted to pornography most of my life. I was also cheated on by my ex girlfriend and haven't dated anyone since. I was depressed after experiencing all of the above and through perseverance had a profound awakening. I discovered christ after living my entire life agnostic and at the same time discovered meditation. I don't doubt that jesus and the afterlife is real. I have done my research. However I feel a great deal of fear and shame. I have made multiple attempts to honor God and abstain from porn and multiple times I have failed. I have also been reading tarot cards, but now have learned that divination can be harmful. The last cards I read (after failing to abstain again) told me that I had lost an opportunity and that I am constrained to short term gratification. My greatest fear: it even said I had sold my soul to the devil. After reading that I have felt horrible fear since and feel ready to change for good. I plan to get rid of my phone forever and honor God. I've also been battling satanic, repetitive thoughts for the past few months. I know they are not my own because I love God and am annoyed by them. I have been getting better at replacing negative thoughts with positive, loving thoughts lately. I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. 1 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Willa Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 68 Topic Count: 186 Topics Per Day: 0.04 Content Count: 14,228 Content Per Day: 3.33 Reputation: 16,652 Days Won: 30 Joined: 08/14/2012 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 Welcome to Worthy, Zach. Meditation can be just as bad as tarot cards, which are definitely evil. Meditation required that you focus on self instead of on God and His Word. I urge you to read the New Testament beginning in John. Ask God to forgive you for tampering the occult and other religions. There is one true living God. 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted May 13, 2019 Hi, Zach. Sounds like some similar experiences, as I was also into Tarot, meditation, telepathy, etc., before coming to Christ in salvation. And though relieved and free from many feelings from the past, some things lingered. I had some oppression that had to be dealt with. Praise the Lord, I found deliverance, and am free now from all those things. Praying you will be able to also. Welcome to Worthy. God bless! Shalom, David/BeauJangles 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blood Bought 1953 Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 13 Topic Count: 48 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 6,726 Content Per Day: 2.88 Reputation: 6,258 Days Won: 5 Joined: 12/03/2017 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 42 minutes ago, Zach777 said: I am a new Christian and I feel lost. I lost my oldest brother to suicide, my dad is an alcoholic who isn't seeking help, and I have been addicted to pornography most of my life. I was also cheated on by my ex girlfriend and haven't dated anyone since. I was depressed after experiencing all of the above and through perseverance had a profound awakening. I discovered christ after living my entire life agnostic and at the same time discovered meditation. I don't doubt that jesus and the afterlife is real. I have done my research. However I feel a great deal of fear and shame. I have made multiple attempts to honor God and abstain from porn and multiple times I have failed. I have also been reading tarot cards, but now have learned that divination can be harmful. The last cards I read (after failing to abstain again) told me that I had lost an opportunity and that I am constrained to short term gratification. My greatest fear: it even said I had sold my soul to the devil. After reading that I have felt horrible fear since and feel ready to change for good. I plan to get rid of my phone forever and honor God. I've also been battling satanic, repetitive thoughts for the past few months. I know they are not my own because I love God and am annoyed by them. I have been getting better at replacing negative thoughts with positive, loving thoughts lately. I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. You are trying to please God By giving up certain sins and thinking that if you just work a little harder , you can make yourself worthy at some point in your life .Sounds logical enough , I know ......been there.....tried that.For your Salvation, God is not looking for those who excel at behavior modification.He will take care of all of that stuff once you have been saved.So.......are you saved ? If you are “ trying to be saved” you are not.One TRUSTS to be saved.Jesus gave us a promise ,revealed by Paul on how to be saved.It has nothing to do with you “ cleaning up your act” or working on your performance via will power and fear.Jesus said if you believe that He died for The forgiveness of ALL your sins and believe that He arose from the dead, you will be saved.Paul later strongly warned not to add to this Gospel Of Grace with your good works lest you cancel it out. Believe in that Gospel,That has the POWER to save and God will put His Spirit in you and He will change you from the inside out....it may or may not take time, according to God’s schedule, but when the changes come, they will be real.He will “ finish the job that HE started......IF you trust in Him.Concentrate on YOUR part- faith, and He do His part- He will TRANSFORM you.Paul said that is the only thing that matters in the end...the changed life.Accomplished by The Holy Spirit— not you. 2 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
missmuffet Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 34 Topic Count: 1,991 Topics Per Day: 0.48 Content Count: 48,689 Content Per Day: 11.81 Reputation: 30,343 Days Won: 226 Joined: 01/11/2013 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 1 hour ago, Zach777 said: I am a new Christian and I feel lost. I lost my oldest brother to suicide, my dad is an alcoholic who isn't seeking help, and I have been addicted to pornography most of my life. I was also cheated on by my ex girlfriend and haven't dated anyone since. I was depressed after experiencing all of the above and through perseverance had a profound awakening. I discovered christ after living my entire life agnostic and at the same time discovered meditation. I don't doubt that jesus and the afterlife is real. I have done my research. However I feel a great deal of fear and shame. I have made multiple attempts to honor God and abstain from porn and multiple times I have failed. I have also been reading tarot cards, but now have learned that divination can be harmful. The last cards I read (after failing to abstain again) told me that I had lost an opportunity and that I am constrained to short term gratification. My greatest fear: it even said I had sold my soul to the devil. After reading that I have felt horrible fear since and feel ready to change for good. I plan to get rid of my phone forever and honor God. I've also been battling satanic, repetitive thoughts for the past few months. I know they are not my own because I love God and am annoyed by them. I have been getting better at replacing negative thoughts with positive, loving thoughts lately. I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. Continue in Prayer. Do not give up. God is always with you. If anyone steps away it is you not God. Genuinely give God your entire life and have faith that He will be there for you and help you through all the problems you are having. But you can't do it half way. You have to give your heart to God 100%. You can not fool God He knows your heart. 2 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debp Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 52 Topic Count: 1,017 Topics Per Day: 0.15 Content Count: 12,293 Content Per Day: 1.79 Reputation: 16,356 Days Won: 92 Joined: 07/19/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 Good answers already for you, Zach. Also, Biblical meditation is alright....that would be meditating on some Bible verses, slowly reading and mulling them over in your mind and heart. This helps the word of God to go deeper into our hearts/lives. 1 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tzephanyahu Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 69 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 1,625 Content Per Day: 0.79 Reputation: 2,033 Days Won: 1 Joined: 09/10/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 5 hours ago, Zach777 said: I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. Have you been baptised by the Holy Spirit yet? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Still Alive Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 4 Topic Count: 13 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 3,024 Content Per Day: 1.33 Reputation: 1,224 Days Won: 3 Joined: 02/05/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 8 hours ago, Zach777 said: I am a new Christian and I feel lost. I lost my oldest brother to suicide, my dad is an alcoholic who isn't seeking help, and I have been addicted to pornography most of my life. I was also cheated on by my ex girlfriend and haven't dated anyone since. I was depressed after experiencing all of the above and through perseverance had a profound awakening. I discovered christ after living my entire life agnostic and at the same time discovered meditation. I don't doubt that jesus and the afterlife is real. I have done my research. However I feel a great deal of fear and shame. I have made multiple attempts to honor God and abstain from porn and multiple times I have failed. I have also been reading tarot cards, but now have learned that divination can be harmful. The last cards I read (after failing to abstain again) told me that I had lost an opportunity and that I am constrained to short term gratification. My greatest fear: it even said I had sold my soul to the devil. After reading that I have felt horrible fear since and feel ready to change for good. I plan to get rid of my phone forever and honor God. I've also been battling satanic, repetitive thoughts for the past few months. I know they are not my own because I love God and am annoyed by them. I have been getting better at replacing negative thoughts with positive, loving thoughts lately. I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. Dump the supernatural crap and quit beating yourself up about not being perfect. To interject a wise humanist phrase just for a moment: The enemy of excellence is the pursuit of perfection. Stop seeking perfection. That's not you. That's not me. That is none of us. The Difference between Judas and Peter is that peter repented. Judas had the opportunity, but his guilt caused him to choose a different path. You are a pathetic creature. So am I. So are we all. But by "you" I mean your natural man - the meat you occupy. But that body is not you. It will die. And if one does not believe, their soul will die in the second death. They are annihilated. Gone forever. But if one believes, they receive everlasting life with their Creator. Be that guy. And often, that guy is no better (and may even be morally worse) than the first guy. After all, a great deal of that depends on how you were raised. But Jesus does miracles with the raw material you present to him. Pray daily. Read and STUDY scripture. Keep him in your thoughts constantly. See his handiwork all around you. And when you fall, ask for forgiveness and keep going. It doesn't take away your salvation. That's not possible. What it does is give you a challenge to work towards. Christianity is not for sissies. But know that you WILL fail. The question is, when you fail, what do you then do? You can hang yourself in a field where your guts spill out (like Judas), or you can repent and do many things for the Lord, even in your continuing imperfection (like Peter). Do the latter. And, most importantly, your life is TODAY. Whether you succeeded wildly yesterday or failed miserably, the question now is, what are you going to do today? Because yesterday is now irrelevant. Today is what matters. It's the only thing you can change, whether you were able to change yesterday or not. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
enoob57 Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 35 Topic Count: 100 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 41,150 Content Per Day: 7.98 Reputation: 21,441 Days Won: 76 Joined: 03/13/2010 Status: Offline Birthday: 07/27/1957 Share Posted May 13, 2019 8 hours ago, Zach777 said: I am a new Christian and I feel lost. I lost my oldest brother to suicide, my dad is an alcoholic who isn't seeking help, and I have been addicted to pornography most of my life. I was also cheated on by my ex girlfriend and haven't dated anyone since. I was depressed after experiencing all of the above and through perseverance had a profound awakening. I discovered christ after living my entire life agnostic and at the same time discovered meditation. I don't doubt that jesus and the afterlife is real. I have done my research. However I feel a great deal of fear and shame. I have made multiple attempts to honor God and abstain from porn and multiple times I have failed. I have also been reading tarot cards, but now have learned that divination can be harmful. The last cards I read (after failing to abstain again) told me that I had lost an opportunity and that I am constrained to short term gratification. My greatest fear: it even said I had sold my soul to the devil. After reading that I have felt horrible fear since and feel ready to change for good. I plan to get rid of my phone forever and honor God. I've also been battling satanic, repetitive thoughts for the past few months. I know they are not my own because I love God and am annoyed by them. I have been getting better at replacing negative thoughts with positive, loving thoughts lately. I've also been repeating bible verses to combat them. However I am growing tired of this constant battle and I want them to be gone for good. Please help me. You do not find God in the created things … you must seek Him within His Word and if you are born of God you will find resource to become like His Son.... 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Still Alive Posted May 13, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 4 Topic Count: 13 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 3,024 Content Per Day: 1.33 Reputation: 1,224 Days Won: 3 Joined: 02/05/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted May 13, 2019 2 hours ago, enoob57 said: You do not find God in the created things … you must seek Him within His Word and if you are born of God you will find resource to become like His Son.... I actually think that, in a way, you do. I use this example a lot: If I want to prove to a person that a certain architect exists in a house he designed, I don't look in the closet. Rather, the design of the house screams of his existence. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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