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I was born in an atheist family and got involved with intelligent people poking holes in Christianity and God. I lost my faith 3 times while trying to bring THEM to faith. My social circle currently is all unbelievers (including Jehovah's Witness), and I fear losing my faith again. It has been wearisome to fight spiritual warfare daily on my own.

The two churches I visited are very worldly, and I didn't see any outreach there to the lost and needy. I've had trouble sleeping for over a week and was too sick for church last week, still sick now. The enemy doesn't want me working for God!

I don't drive, so would you please pray that I meet some people close to where I live that I can see regularly who are on fire for the truth and Jesus just as I am, with whom I can become more and more fruitful for God's kingdom. Please also pray for those I've been ministering to (friends and family), that their eyes are opened and they embrace the saving gift of God. Some of them are such well-meaning people, I'd hate to see them perish. Please pray that I spend more time in prayer and with the Bible (my source of strength in God) as I had been putting it off, distracted by teachings and conversation.

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Shalom SurrenderedWife,

Be sure to also post your prayer request with our Worthy Prayer Team.    Simply click on the Worthy Prayer Team link, and click login and submit your prayer request!  It's that simple!

God bless,

George

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57 minutes ago, SurrenderedWife said:

I was born in an atheist family and got involved with intelligent people poking holes in Christianity and God. I lost my faith 3 times while trying to bring THEM to faith. My social circle currently is all unbelievers (including Jehovah's Witness), and I fear losing my faith again. It has been wearisome to fight spiritual warfare daily on my own.

The two churches I visited are very worldly, and I didn't see any outreach there to the lost and needy. I've had trouble sleeping for over a week and was too sick for church last week, still sick now. The enemy doesn't want me working for God!

I don't drive, so would you please pray that I meet some people close to where I live that I can see regularly who are on fire for the truth and Jesus just as I am, with whom I can become more and more fruitful for God's kingdom. Please also pray for those I've been ministering to (friends and family), that their eyes are opened and they embrace the saving gift of God. Some of them are such well-meaning people, I'd hate to see them perish. Please pray that I spend more time in prayer and with the Bible (my source of strength in God) as I had been putting it off, distracted by teachings and conversation.

Hi SurrenderedWife. I've been reading your background and have a few ideas that may help you, starting with the need for Spiritual Armour. Whenever you get the impression you are in spiritual distress and experiencing conflict and opposition to God's Will please, please I pray, make it your business to refresh your Spiritual Armour as detailed in my notes below.

Eph 6:10-12

(10)  Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

(11)  Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

(12)  For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

  There will be some more struggles with the enemy. Been a few so far. The corruption, deception, and exploitation is always around. It's a spiritual war we're in, hence the need for spiritual armour. The enemy uses camouflage, undertakes espionage, does sabotage, and holds captives in bondage. We need our spiritual armour.

The helmet of salvation for thoughts free of condemnation.

The breastplate of righteousness for values not to be compromised.

The girdle of truth for integrity to be held secure.

The footwear of preparedness to preach the gospel of peace for doctrinal stability.

The shield of faith for putting out inflammatory missiles of evil origin.

The Sword of the Spirit for doctrine, reproof, correction, instruction in righteousness; to be thoroughly furnished for every good work.

The prayer and supplication in the Spirit for guidance and provision.

The watching with perseverance in intercession for the health and welfare of the body of Christ.

We put our spiritual armour on for spiritual warfare, not as a ritual to feel good about having done it but to engage the enemy that seeks our destruction. The wiles of the enemy are no match for a Christian wearing their spiritual armour...an armour wearing Christian is able to stand against the wiles of the enemy.

If the Devil bring it on, Christian better have their armour on.

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Thank you Michael! I was meaning to look that up and forgot. ._. Thank you Holy Spirit for your guidance and provision!!

Do I just pray for God to grant me these things?

I was wondering if anyone else has been ministering to close family/friend unbelievers for hours, days and months - and you think such amazing revelations are coming out and you are a great example onto them but no one gets saved. Is this normal or do I suck at soul winning? :'(

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Hello.i understand👍

   Praying now.

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Thank you Shanee. I just feel like I can't do ANYTHING for God, or God doesn't use me and I don't know why. I study and repent a lot and I think I'm being transformed, but all that happens is people helping me but when I reach out to edify others, nothing happens, or at least I don't hear about it. I can't bear feeling so useless.

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4 hours ago, SurrenderedWife said:

Thank you Shanee. I just feel like I can't do ANYTHING for God, or God doesn't use me and I don't know why. I study and repent a lot and I think I'm being transformed, but all that happens is people helping me but when I reach out to edify others, nothing happens, or at least I don't hear about it. I can't bear feeling so useless.

Agreeing in prayer for and with you.

Maybe get your eyes on the fact that you are a child of God through your faith in Christ?   Maybe you are repenting too much, instead of realizing your position in Christ?   God gives the increase, we just plant seeds and water them.   Just reman faithful....God is working things out.

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Hahaha that's an answer that tickles my ears :) Yes, I would love to know more about my "position in Christ".

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20 minutes ago, SurrenderedWife said:

Hahaha that's an answer that tickles my ears :) Yes, I would love to know more about my "position in Christ".

Christ has taken your sin and given you His righteousness.   This is called imputed righteousness.    You are now seen as sinless before God and are His beloved child through Christ.    Of course, we might sometimes need to confess our sins in order to restore our fellowship with the Father...1 John 1:9.

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