Jay78 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 7 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 12 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/22/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 Hi everyone I want to share my story to help me gain wisdom and a way out from my current circumstances. I'm 41 and have been smoking marijuana daily for over 20 years. It has caused me allot of problems including deep depression and crippling anxiety amongst other things. Just 8 years ago after a life of hating god for making my life a misery I looked into spirituality. Before long I was hooked and delved in head first. Meditation, yoga, kundalini activation, reiki healing, psychic readings, tarot cards, energy transmissions, mantra etc. I've tried everything and was even close to summoning demons to help me with my problems. I have become energy sensitive where I can feel out a person very easily and also starting to see visual phenomena like shadows and energetic colours in the air when my mind goes blank from all these years meditating. The kundalini spirit is active inside me and whenever I lie down to sleep or just relax on the sofa it starts to move inside me and I feel my throat and head fill with pressure and a energetic churning. This feeling is somewhat enjoyable like a buzz but I know it's of the devil and it won't leave. Last year I met 3 people from the last reformation who did there best to deliver me from this. As usual the kundalini shook my body but just wouldn't leave. I pray to Jesus to remove this oppression from me but nothing happens. I tried a self deliverance a few weeks ago using a YouTube video. My body shook and I was squirming around on.my bed. My mouth fully opened by itself but the demons wouldn't come out. The kundalini is like an electrical feeling and it feels pretty good and made Me confused as to is this the holy spirit maybe. I am full of sin, cannot stop smoking weed everyday, cigarettes and alcohol on occasions. I asked Jesus and the holy spirit please fill me with your love. Something felt slightly different when I asked for the holy spirit the energy was lesser but have me goosebumps. I think next I need to be baptized as even tho my faith in Jesus is growing something inside me has a powerful stronghold that won't break. As my mind is pretty much now blank from all this meditation I don't feel whole or complete. I don't know what to do now except pray and wait till October when Mark Hamans comes to town. Thank you for reading Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Michael37 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Servant Followers: 21 Topic Count: 241 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 6,904 Content Per Day: 3.26 Reputation: 4,831 Days Won: 2 Joined: 07/05/2018 Status: Online Birthday: 09/23/1954 Share Posted August 23, 2019 4 minutes ago, Jay78 said: I pray to Jesus to remove this oppression from me but nothing happens. So what would you say prompted you to register on this forum, Jay78? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
exorcist999 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 3 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 12 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/22/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 addiction can be hard and you can ignore it .say to yourself its WRONG... occult.. listen to ulrik munther in my own Little heaven Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay78 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 7 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 12 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/22/2019 Status: Offline Author Share Posted August 23, 2019 17 minutes ago, Michael37 said: So what would you say prompted you to register on this forum, Jay78? I guess my growing faith in Jesus if I'm honest. Searching for answers and from the right people finally. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay78 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 0 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 7 Content Per Day: 0.00 Reputation: 12 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/22/2019 Status: Offline Author Share Posted August 23, 2019 18 minutes ago, exorcist999 said: addiction can be hard and you can ignore it .say to yourself its WRONG... occult.. listen to ulrik munther in my own Little heaven I will listen right now. Thank you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Michael37 Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Servant Followers: 21 Topic Count: 241 Topics Per Day: 0.11 Content Count: 6,904 Content Per Day: 3.26 Reputation: 4,831 Days Won: 2 Joined: 07/05/2018 Status: Online Birthday: 09/23/1954 Share Posted August 23, 2019 Just now, Jay78 said: I guess my growing faith in Jesus if I'm honest. Searching for answers and from the right people finally. Yes. Good answer. The oppression will lift as you get deeper into the Word of God and rearrange your priorities. Col 1:9-14 (9) For this reason we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding; (10) that you may walk worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing Him, being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; (11) strengthened with all might, according to His glorious power, for all patience and longsuffering with joy; (12) giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light. (13) He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, (14) in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debp Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 52 Topic Count: 1,015 Topics Per Day: 0.15 Content Count: 12,277 Content Per Day: 1.79 Reputation: 16,335 Days Won: 92 Joined: 07/19/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 Jay, have you found a good, Bible believing church? If not, you should visit some. Talk to the pastor and find one that can help you. As you hear the Bible preached, this will help your faith to be strengthened. You will feel a change in your heart and mind as the Bible and the Holy Spirit renew you. Keep looking to Jesus! 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
other one Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 29 Topic Count: 596 Topics Per Day: 0.08 Content Count: 56,047 Content Per Day: 7.56 Reputation: 27,792 Days Won: 271 Joined: 12/29/2003 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 2 hours ago, Jay78 said: Hi everyone I want to share my story to help me gain wisdom and a way out from my current circumstances. I'm 41 and have been smoking marijuana daily for over 20 years. It has caused me allot of problems including deep depression and crippling anxiety amongst other things. Just 8 years ago after a life of hating god for making my life a misery I looked into spirituality. Before long I was hooked and delved in head first. Meditation, yoga, kundalini activation, reiki healing, psychic readings, tarot cards, energy transmissions, mantra etc. I've tried everything and was even close to summoning demons to help me with my problems. I have become energy sensitive where I can feel out a person very easily and also starting to see visual phenomena like shadows and energetic colours in the air when my mind goes blank from all these years meditating. The kundalini spirit is active inside me and whenever I lie down to sleep or just relax on the sofa it starts to move inside me and I feel my throat and head fill with pressure and a energetic churning. This feeling is somewhat enjoyable like a buzz but I know it's of the devil and it won't leave. Last year I met 3 people from the last reformation who did there best to deliver me from this. As usual the kundalini shook my body but just wouldn't leave. I pray to Jesus to remove this oppression from me but nothing happens. I tried a self deliverance a few weeks ago using a YouTube video. My body shook and I was squirming around on.my bed. My mouth fully opened by itself but the demons wouldn't come out. The kundalini is like an electrical feeling and it feels pretty good and made Me confused as to is this the holy spirit maybe. I am full of sin, cannot stop smoking weed everyday, cigarettes and alcohol on occasions. I asked Jesus and the holy spirit please fill me with your love. Something felt slightly different when I asked for the holy spirit the energy was lesser but have me goosebumps. I think next I need to be baptized as even tho my faith in Jesus is growing something inside me has a powerful stronghold that won't break. As my mind is pretty much now blank from all this meditation I don't feel whole or complete. I don't know what to do now except pray and wait till October when Mark Hamans comes to town. Thank you for reading you seem to already regret these things that are happening to you and I assume you are repenting of getting involved with them.... you are finding that we as simple humans have no authority to deal with the spirit world. You do need to formally within yourself decide that Jesus is your Lord no matter what.... I am assuming that you do really believe Jesus came and died for our sins and was raised from the dead.... You are correct in needing to be baptized, but more important you need to confess publicly that Jesus is your Lord and you have placed yourself into his hands for eternity. Getting rid of the demons won't really do any good for if you don't bring the Holy Spirit into your very being, they will just come back stronger. 2 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AnOrangeCat Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 5 Topic Count: 57 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1,398 Content Per Day: 0.27 Reputation: 1,819 Days Won: 0 Joined: 12/24/2009 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 It would be good to get rid of any occult books and objects you might still have. And again, as others have said, find yourself a good church to get into. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Repose Posted August 23, 2019 Group: Advanced Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 9 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 205 Content Per Day: 0.12 Reputation: 231 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/06/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted August 23, 2019 When it comes to weed, while there are a few who get addicted to it in the manner of cigarettes or coke, most can't tear away from it because they depend on it. It sounds like you have a lot of stress and mess in your life, so in order to feel calm and "in control," the weed stands out strongly in your mind. By turning to the weed, it only temporarily masks the issue, averting your eyes from the steadily growing fire. You need to find more wholesome ways to feel relaxed. Some people like to exercise. Yet others put it to art or writing. You might even try turning to prayer. This will help you feel a sense of control as well. Of course, therein comes the issue of dependency. Your body will not give it up easy. It will feel like your very blood itself is screaming. All things are possible with God, but some wounds take time to heal. Time and effort, of course; one should not use time as an excuse to put off getting better. You must remain strong, and if you get knocked down, use it as a learning lesson and come back harder than before. With a different relaxation technique, more of a sense of control, time and effort put into overcoming dependency, and a growing faith... It can be done. Trust in the Lord. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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