johnthebaptist Posted December 11, 2019 Group: Non-Conformist Theology Followers: 6 Topic Count: 118 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 4,361 Content Per Day: 2.32 Reputation: 2,109 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/25/2019 Status: Offline Birthday: 02/03/1953 Share Posted December 11, 2019 19 hours ago, Kenzie said: Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan. I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell. I used to get depressed. I got some counseling and that helped. What really turned the tide was when the Lord led me to repent of sin I was committing. My life was transformed into something beautiful. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shanee Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 55 Topic Count: 109 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 9,251 Content Per Day: 1.50 Reputation: 10,383 Days Won: 4 Joined: 06/05/2007 Status: Offline Birthday: 06/12/1974 Share Posted December 12, 2019 Hello, not sure if I'm explaining this right but don't worry the hard times you're going through right now is where that big smile of wisdom will come into play later on. Praying now Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted December 12, 2019 (edited) On 12/10/2019 at 3:43 PM, Kenzie said: Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan. I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell. Now Kenzie, Please think about it. You just can't do this, sister. No, please. You just can't. It's not the right thing. Believe me, I tried two time myself. So Kenzi, please don't. No one should leave the world in this manner. It's not how to do it. We need the Lord's call on our lives. Okay, sister? Just please. God bless. Shalom, David/BeauJangles oops! a re-post Edited December 12, 2019 by BeauJangles Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted December 12, 2019 So @Kenzie, Are you hanging in there? We're all really concerned about you, so how's it going right now? Just checking. Well, God bless you. Please reply. Shalom, David/BeauJangles Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
onedirection Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Junior Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 7 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 93 Content Per Day: 0.04 Reputation: 62 Days Won: 0 Joined: 07/11/2018 Status: Offline Share Posted December 12, 2019 On 12/10/2019 at 6:43 PM, Kenzie said: Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan. I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell. You have been given authority over evil. Please say this out loud, with authority: "Evil spirit of anxiety, I see you. I confess that I have had thoughts of suicide due to my anxiety. I will not allow you to have dominion over me. I send you evil spirit to Jesus Christ for judgement." At this point evil must flee. When that is over, re-evaluate your feeling of anxiety, or lack thereof. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lovethelord Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Senior Member Followers: 4 Topic Count: 2 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 667 Content Per Day: 0.38 Reputation: 1,540 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/17/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted December 12, 2019 (edited) 2 hours ago, BeauJangles said: So @Kenzie, Are you hanging in there? We're all really concerned about you, so how's it going right now? Just checking. Well, God bless you. Please reply. Shalom, David/BeauJangles Hi @BeauJangles I've been periodically checking her profile since yesterday and I see she has visited this site several times and recently in the last hour. I pray that she is being encouraged by everyone to not give up hope. Edited December 12, 2019 by lovethelord 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
existential mabel Posted December 12, 2019 Group: Royal Member Followers: 7 Topic Count: 151 Topics Per Day: 0.05 Content Count: 3,149 Content Per Day: 1.05 Reputation: 2,066 Days Won: 0 Joined: 02/12/2016 Status: Offline Share Posted December 12, 2019 hello Kenzie please dont do this. i also struggle with social anxiety etc and yes it is a struggle but i have had to get help and support along the way. please dont do this 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post Kenzie Posted December 17, 2019 Group: Members Followers: 7 Topic Count: 14 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 42 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 94 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/10/2019 Status: Offline Birthday: 07/02/2002 Author Popular Post Share Posted December 17, 2019 (edited) @existential mabel @DustyRoad @lovethelord @ayin jade @Cletus @Isaiah53NIV @TheAimes @other one @Omegaman 3.0 @Revlori @Galleon @Wayne222 @JustPassingThrough @AnOrangeCat @JohnD @Amanda Frances @Sonshine @marvelloustime @BeauJangles @Billiards Ball @B3L13v3R @johnthebaptist @shanee @onedirection @PromisesPromises! Hello, I just want to say thank you. I don’t really know what else to say right now. Since that post, the days following were not good. And I was extremely, extremely close to actually killing myself. Right now I don’t really know how I feel about my God, I feel uncomfortable speaking of Christianity, I believe but I feel distant... What I am trying to say is that there is something there. I cannot describe in words how much I am thankful for all of you who prayed for me and cared and messaged me. For real, my own parents and siblings never reached out to me during those couple of days, despite me isolating myself in my room and constant crying. They knew I was “sad”, they could hear, but didn’t care. No one has ever offered kind words like that to me like all of You did. Im sorry for not responding, I did not think anyone would care about this post. So when I began to see the replies, I did not know what to do. I am not used to people “caring”. I also just did not have the strength in me yet. Nor did I think I would still be “here”. I can’t confide in my parents. I think that has resulted in a build up of negative emotions and habits (self harm). So thank you all for letting me confide in you. I think that this forum has been what is holding on to my “faith” or belief. I feel something genuine and true here. At church or at school and work , where the people claim Christianity, something feels off. Maybe it is me, or maybe it is something else, or maybe I am actually seeing what the world is like. Thank you again. I truly am not used to people caring for me. I just need to re-emphasize that because I am lost at words that you people care and prayed for me. I have had time to reflect, and I have not talked to God about this, because I feel awkward and idk... but I feel encouraged from all of you, so I will re-evaluate my faith and try to believe in God and follow him. So thank you again. Many of you have replied telling me to hang on because of senior year. And yes, that is another thing that gives me hope. I just need a new start, fresh air and I think college will help me. And I want to say thanks to all who messaged me and prayed again. I really want to say thank you to @PromisesPromises! because she has listened to all my rants about my problems within the last year and a half. She has gave me great advice and has prayed for me. Thank you so much. I love you all. Edited December 20, 2019 by George Removed the Pinterest Photo as it's not wise to share personal information openly on a Forum. :) 1 3 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Omegaman 3.0 Posted December 17, 2019 Group: Graduated to Heaven Followers: 57 Topic Count: 1,546 Topics Per Day: 0.21 Content Count: 10,320 Content Per Day: 1.41 Reputation: 12,323 Days Won: 9 Joined: 04/15/2004 Status: Offline Birthday: 11/05/1951 Share Posted December 17, 2019 Kenzie, thank you for taking the trouble to update us, I think that is very thoughtful. I would suggest that you try not to be too hard on those around you. They are probably mostly uncomfortable, not really knowing what to say or do, nor how to relate. Some of us are not the friends and relatives we could be, we all have somethings about us, that are at least a little bit broken. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post ayin jade Posted December 17, 2019 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 44 Topic Count: 6,178 Topics Per Day: 0.88 Content Count: 43,795 Content Per Day: 6.21 Reputation: 11,242 Days Won: 58 Joined: 01/03/2005 Status: Offline Popular Post Share Posted December 17, 2019 @Kenzie We care. I am so glad you did not kill yourself. Please come back and chat with any of us anytime you wish to, or need to. 4 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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