Rivers Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Members Followers: 1 Topic Count: 5 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 10 Content Per Day: 0.01 Reputation: 3 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/08/2019 Status: Offline Share Posted January 24, 2020 So this is probably strange for alot of you who aren't aware that there is actually a spiritual realm and there are such thing as demons, and there is a constant fight against satan. So I'll start off by saying this when I was 14 or 15 I was led to go to church and got convicted of sin for bullying some kids like in school and on the bus i have already at that time stopped bullying ppl because I changed schools, and I decided not to be like all of the so called popular kids and turned from being a class clown and bully to the person that got bullied and all this led me to smoking weed and drinking then something happened I got the just very uneasy feeling like something wasn't rite like I guess a doctor would call it depression but I had depression when I was younger and this wasn't the same like I knew it was spiritual and my mom knew about demons but we wasn't church goers and she ended up taking me to the hospital because I wouldn't hardly speak I just told here something was wrong with me and when we got to the hospital while laying in a hospital bed my mom and dad was sitting beside me and she didnt know what was wrong with me, and she was talking to my dad then she said it could be a demon, I had no clue at the time demons were really really real but I said yes that's what it is and my mom didnt want to tell the drs that, but the dr came in and asked why we were there and and what was wrong with me and i told them it was demon because I just wanted help, but they sent me to a mental institution and I ended up being attacked there, kids there where calling my name like and saying strange stuff like they wouldn't even be in the same room as me and I could hear them yelling from there room speaking to me. And was hearing stuff in the walls, but my mom told family about it and they knew a pastor and they came and did a deliverance on me and they left it was like nothing happened until about 10 mins or so after they left I drank some salt water and was laying down and felt something come up in my throat and I gagged it up it was a black gooy substance that was about the size of a half dollar or so and I got up and spit it in the trash. Later on the next couple days I started doing better I wasn't fully normal but I was able to leave and the pastor invited us to church and we went to church and I still wasn't perfectly normal but I got where I felt like I should get up and go to the front and say something to everybody the cause I saw like this vision or something whether it was from the lord jesus or not idk but I saw like a vision of me doing that so I did it I went up to the front and got handed the Mike and started to saying something idk what I was going to say at the time but I ended up saying something totally different then what I originally intended I got convicted I said I was sorry for bullying some kids that was there because they where the same kids that rode my bus that I used to pick on and I started crying alot probably or maybe the most i have ever cried and while I was crying and started walking back to my seat and while I was crying I remember having a decision to call out to god or call out to Jesus, I said Jesus desperately and forced myself to stop crying because I started to get embarrassed and stuff and continued to my seat and while I was still walking to my seat Jesus filled me with his grace it was the best and most unusually awsome thing that has ever happened to me I could try to describe it which I have tryed to do before but unless you know you really dont know I guess. But here's where it gets strange after church we leave and are going home and we turned on some christian music and I started feeling really joyful and full of hope and faith and knew Jesus was very truly real and loved me and as we where driving home I saw I dead dog in the road and the seen an angel or its spirit or a spirit come off or out of the dog and I told my parents and idk if they believed me or not but they was asking me about it and I told them and I also seen a black figure standing out front of someones house on the way home and this was kinda the start of things for me I felt great for I would say atleast 2 years before I backslid I wasn't a bully anymore but I ended up partying,drinking and later on started smoking weed agian and eventually I lost the joy that I had I started feeling really bad all of the sudden and I tryed straightening up i quit drinking but i couldn't quit smoking weed and i was repenting asking for forgiveness to get that joy and faith back but I ended up back in mental institution because something came over me one night rite after getting done praying and my dad started yelling about something and I completely snapped, blacked out, but more than likely a evil spirit took control of me and i beat up 2 ppl in my house and got the cops called on me and when they took me to jail I got really opressed, or possessed or delusional as a doctor would call it and started having weird visions or dreams and it lasted a long time while I was in there I was in there for about 2 weeks and only remember a few days or so I got out and was drove straight to church where they tryed or did do a deliverance on me I still didnt feel completely normal afterwards and the pastor told me I still had one left, and i try getting deliverence completely several more times and still wasn't completely normal but was far better than when i went to jail and i didnt smoke weed anymore at the time and i continue seeking Jesus and trying to do whatever i could do to get the peace and joy and faith back that I had before and kept trying to get that back for years and my pastor still said there was a demon left in me and I kept trying to get delivered and this one time she said my eyes turned into like cat eyes which was hard to believe at the time because i could see stuff but i didnt want to believe i had one in me and made me look like I had cat eyes I just didnt want to belive that and didnt understand how that could be because I was all about Jesus but eventually we haven't tryed doing anymore deliverances because she said I needed to try harder but I dont smoke week or drink anymore I do vape and I'm mostly always thinking about Jesus and I've been quite some time like this and recently I started hearing voices and seeing stuff alot but in my house and we have had ppl come try to cleanse the house but i still hear stuff and see stuff and earlier I was just curious to see what my eyes would look like in the mirror and I said Jesus Christ in my head to see if I could see the Holy Ghost in me which sounds weird probably but when I'm at church and stuff I can see stuff in ppls eyes like I've tryed teaching myself what the things I see in there eyes mean, but I was looking in the mirror and I said Jesus Christ in my head and i seen one of my eyes turn into what looked like a red cat eye it convinced me that what my pastor said was true but I dont really know what this means now or where to go from here. I've been getting attacked alot here lately for the past few weeks or so I've been reading my bible and praying and almost always listening to Christian music. Jesus has help me alot through these times I've had strengthening me and helping me fight these battles that satan has already lost.. But that's pretty much it for now. ...prayers would be greatly appreciated. God bless 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Justin Adams Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 26 Topic Count: 61 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 9,604 Content Per Day: 3.98 Reputation: 7,795 Days Won: 21 Joined: 09/11/2017 Status: Offline Share Posted January 24, 2020 (edited) Post is too long. Let me suggest Dr Heiser's 'Unseen Realm'. There is far more to this spiritual battle than at first meets the understanding. Gen 6 is a VERY BIG deal and is played down in favor of ha-satan, messenger of deception. Get used to understanding the realms that we are taught so little about. It is a realm that incorporates the seen and the unseen. We only get hints of it, but careful study will reveal much. The Tanakh is full of this and the later writings of the apostles enhances and explains much of it. Edited January 24, 2020 by Justin Adams 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Neighbor Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 18 Topic Count: 950 Topics Per Day: 0.35 Content Count: 13,532 Content Per Day: 5.02 Reputation: 9,027 Days Won: 6 Joined: 12/04/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 03/03/1885 Share Posted January 24, 2020 Hi Rivers, Thank you for your testimony, and for sharing of your serious plight. That is a harrowing tale of personal experiences you have shared with brethren at this Christian message board and community of believers in Christ Jesus as Lord, God, and personal savior I do pray for you Rivers. I pray for God the Holy Spirit to intercede in your behalf, that our Lord Jesus will hear our prayers and also intercede clearing away all demonic influences in your entire family, not just you, but that demons will not be welcome anywhere near you, nor your family. I have an eyesight problem that makes it difficult for me to read "Old English" style writing, writing without commas, periods, and paragraph spacing. I have need of breaks in sentences as well as spacing with paragraphs separated. The spacing aids my injured eyes in tracking a writer's thoughts and sentences. It was very difficult for me to read your very thoughtful yet long post. It was long, but so full of information that I took time to rewrite it for myself word by word adding spacing and the paragraph separations that I need in order to follow along. I saved it for myself as a note. I encourage others not so injured in their own eyesight to read your post carefully, and to join in prayer for your healing and as you reference it deliverance. Please hear my prayer Father. I do pray for Rivers. You know the details, You know the need. I pray for Rivers to have a place free of any demonic activity and to be freed of all demons. May Rivers also be given your word through reading, praying, and thinking on your word as is written for us all in the Bible. May it become strong armor of protection for Rivers. I ask in the name of my Lord and savior Jesus, also pleading for the Holy Spirit to engage in Rivers behalf. May many angels surround the entire family that they may be blessed and safe. Sidenote: My own posts often get rather lengthy. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest K9Buck Posted January 24, 2020 Share Posted January 24, 2020 @Rivers May I ask, do you suffer from bipolar disorder and manic episodes? The reason I ask is that your post reminds me of my manic nephew. God bless you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted January 24, 2020 3 hours ago, Justin Adams said: Post is too long. It is a little lengthy, but the 'block-form' of posting is very difficult for those of us with visual difficulties and dyslexia. I'm not sure reading this is possible for me. Sorry. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeauJangles Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Royal Member Followers: 44 Topic Count: 229 Topics Per Day: 0.06 Content Count: 10,900 Content Per Day: 2.93 Reputation: 12,145 Days Won: 68 Joined: 02/13/2014 Status: Offline Birthday: 08/14/1954 Share Posted January 24, 2020 17 minutes ago, Neighbor said: I have an eyesight problem that makes it difficult for me to read "Old English" style writing, writing without commas, periods, and paragraph spacing. I have need of breaks in sentences as well as spacing with paragraphs separated. The spacing aids my injured eyes in tracking a writer's thoughts and sentences. Thank you. Point well made. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest K9Buck Posted January 24, 2020 Share Posted January 24, 2020 ...and recently I started hearing voices and seeing stuff alot but in my house and we have had ppl come try to cleanse the house but i still hear stuff and see stuff... @Rivers, You need to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Your experiences may or may not be related to demons. The first step is to visit a psychiatrist to rule out a chemical imbalance, etc. Medication can prevent these episodes that you're experiencing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Justin Adams Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 26 Topic Count: 61 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 9,604 Content Per Day: 3.98 Reputation: 7,795 Days Won: 21 Joined: 09/11/2017 Status: Offline Share Posted January 24, 2020 56 minutes ago, K9Buck said: ...and recently I started hearing voices and seeing stuff alot but in my house and we have had ppl come try to cleanse the house but i still hear stuff and see stuff... @Rivers, You need to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Your experiences may or may not be related to demons. The first step is to visit a psychiatrist to rule out a chemical imbalance, etc. Medication can prevent these episodes that you're experiencing. Beware the shrink and his potions. Go to a person or persons of discernment first. Then if you must a GP. Freud and Jung and the like were pagan practitioners of some of the dark arts. Do no trust shrinks too much. It is sad that many churches now have shrink departments. A commentary on their spirituality. (or lack of it) 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest K9Buck Posted January 24, 2020 Share Posted January 24, 2020 3 minutes ago, Justin Adams said: Beware the shrink and his potions. Go to a person or persons of discernment first. Then if you must a GP. Sorry, but that's AWFUL advice. The guy is hearing voices and having visions. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Justin Adams Posted January 24, 2020 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 26 Topic Count: 61 Topics Per Day: 0.03 Content Count: 9,604 Content Per Day: 3.98 Reputation: 7,795 Days Won: 21 Joined: 09/11/2017 Status: Offline Share Posted January 24, 2020 Just now, K9Buck said: Sorry, but that's AWFUL advice. The guy is hearing voices and having visions. And a Christian with discernment can see what is afoot. All a shrink will do is mask or potion the guy. Shrinks are NOT good spiritual advisers. I know this from very personal experiences. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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