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From around 2003 to the latter part of 2016, before I was saved, I had very evil intentions. I loved to sow discord, wreak havoc, stir up contention, breed confusion, and where better to do that than on Christian message boards? I at that time loved satan and his minions, worshiped them, did their bidding. So I sought out small under staffed message boards and played a lot of games and did a lot of damage (not here). I even WAS staff on some of those boards. I loved to glorify myself in those places. 

I recognize some people here at Worthy with the same dark heart. From personal experience, I can tell you that what those people need most is just keep pointing them to Jesus, pouring love on them and praying for their salvation. It wears them away one dark cell at a time until they have no choice in their misery but to submit to God or die. I'm living proof of that. 

So to all of you hiding out in Christian accounts but only here to cause trouble, and to those who are pretending to seek Christ as an unsaved person, but have no intention of ever considering a life in Him, but you're just here to torment Christians and take up their time--I'm praying for all of you, and every true Christian here is praying for you, whether you're seen or unseen. 

It's only a matter of time before God will have chewed up all your defenses and opened your eyes to the reality of the wretchedness in which you live, and in your misery you'll cry out to the only One who can save you. I pray you'll find mercy and grace as I did. I'm not going to stop praying for you. This is holy ground and you know not where you step or Whose children you torment. I'm going to pray and watch God work, and I invite all my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray with me. 

God put on my heart asking what my gifts were in the darkness. They were music, servant hood, leadership. Those are my gifts from God, being all those years used in the wrong way, to bring glory to myself. The gifts are still here. To be used in service to God and country. Music that brings glory to Him. Public service that helps people, not lead them astray. Leadership that points to Christ, not death. Please close this request. I see now. He is so good, full of mercyand kindness. 

Their bully-lawyer up against Christ-in-you, is no match. It's clear God is using you to protect your children. He could do that in one second, but if He wishes it to be a drawn out process so that it grows your faith and shows your enemies the power of God and his awesome glory? Then keep on trusting Him as you get to watch Him stomp the darkness all-round. Amen! 

You surely have my prayers brother! How are you doing? 

I'm told that every Christian has a gift from God, something they are created with that God will use to bless others. I have an overwhelming desire to serve. I just see small needs and I try to meet them. What the bigger picture looks like I don't know. Go to seminary and be a pastor, open a homeless shelter, be a missionary, teach children, open a youth community center, serve in the military, be a worship leader, author a book "Out of the Darkness - Into the Light"

I'm retired, still got plenty of energy, but I don't know my gifts or calling, where I'm to go or what in to do. So I'm asking God to show me.