Lately I've gone through a near decade dry spell in my Christian walk, and I thought to myself: "How I miss the input of a Christian brother or sister. How I want to hear them speak of the Lord to me".
But then it struck me...
I came from a pentacostal-like background, where people were encouraged to prophecy.
I always found this weird, because prophecy for me, was something that came upon me; not something I could generate.
It has often scared people, myself included, and 100% of the true and genuine prophecies, that revealed themself like a bomb in my heart, all came true.
Though I also realized that in wanting, I spoke words not of the Lord, and have many a time, seen people do the same (for years speak out of their own flesh).
If a person were to approach me, and ask me about their life, I would probably speak the most Godly word, by telling them I knew nothing at all, or had no inspiration.
And I was reminded of King Saul, wanting advice from Samuel, who wasn't available, so he went to a medium; and in doing this, he sinned.
Our utter dependence on God, being replaced on our dependence on people!
While I still want to be encouraged, and helped by Christians, I also realize that it circumvents what God wanted us to do; is to seek Him, and ask Him!
And believe in Him, that He would provide the answers, and help we need!
A prophet can not live alone. Nor can anyone else of the kingdom. Not even Jesus walked alone on this earth!
So we do need one another, but not to be the replacement of God in our lives.
And I pondered.... I heard so many Christians talking bad about different denominations (or believers that were categorized as such), when I grew up; and so many Christians believing they were in the correct religion.
And then I saw also the errors they made. The judgements they made. The mistakes.
Like prophecying without caring if it was truly a word of God...
I fear when I speak the word of God! I truly do! Because I know it makes me look foolish, to obey and trust Him completely.
And if something goes wrong, it's on my head. But if it goes right, the glory belongs to Him.
To speak of the Lord, as a messenger of God, at best, you give glory to God, and keep nothing to yourself.
Worse, and you made a mistake, and be of ridicule to others; or worse, be put to death (depending on where you live).
Worst, and you'll take the glory that belonged to God, and make it your own (that's a rat's nest of sins that can take decades to discover and untangle sometimes).
So there's no marvelous story for those that seek to speak God's words.
Most of the time, we find opposition to our words, from those who disagree, or by failing to relay our part in the story.
A word of God is as much what you say, as what you don't say!
Anyway,
What caused me to write here, was just sadness over how little we think, how unimportant it seems to most, a word from God.
Yet 1 word, can be truly life changing to some.
We all seek it, but not all speak it.
How few people I know, that also know the Lord!
Like Joshua, that abide in His tent, to gaze upon Him, and that depend on Him...
...more to come at a later time...