Yesterday was Valentine's day, and I personally do not like that day.
I am a very affectionate person, and sometimes I feel sad because the last person I gave my heart took it for granted, made me feel like I was worthless, and that I was the problem.
I have a friend whose Christian like me, and because I was open to her I feel like our friendship has actually increased and strengthened even if she did not have the same feelings, which honestly makes me feel grateful.
I digress, yesterday I was in pain and I felt like my soul was broken. Even though I am so involved with God, I can feel just as lonely. I even prayed and realized that God was the only thing I can ever put my trust in, and not humanity.
I'm not saying I hate humanity, or that I push people away, or that I never trust God. I tend to want to involve my life with another person if it means I can help them find God or help them through even the darkest of times.
I mean that I do not trust humanity when it comes to relationships, feelings about another person, or themselves when they cannot control their own actions. The only person I seem to trust in is God more then the other person.
Is this a bad thing to have? I don't see anywhere in the Bible where it's ok or not ok to feel this way, but I just personally don't know anymore. It's not good to have distrust in humanity, but is it still wrong to not trust humanity in only one or two areas without seemingly holding onto any grudges?
Thank you,
