Our Father Forever

Thank every one of you so much. I've really been at my wits end about this, especially when I didn't know what to think about it, it seems from the conflicting advice that the other book is confusing to say the least, especially when our Church leaders used that book to explain it. One of the things I hated was that it felt like it negated my rebirth, and the thought that I've hurt God is the worst of all..I thank everyone who replied and those who read and prayed about it so much, you have really helped me, and I pray that God blesses you for that. May the good Lord bless and keep you

Ok I will just come out and say it, ever since I have been a Christian I have masturbated and I have found it really hard to kick it. It's so annoying because there are times when I haven't even wanted to not, and now that I'm really trying, whenever I don't for a while it's all I can think about. I pray to God and seek His strength in this, and at times it works but at others it's intolerable. When I don't for a while I also have this feeling that makes me worried in the relevent areas, similar to when you are preventing yourself from relieving yourself, and I don't want to risk damaging myself but I don't get how my Christian friends can without experiencing the same. The confusing thing is that in this book called Living God's Way it describes how masturbating isn't a sin as long as it's not accompanied by sinful thoughts and that it doesn't control you, but how are either of those possible? Surely to even do it once is to be under the control of it, and it is sinful thoughts that make you want to to start with. So what should I do? I don't want to sin against God of my own will but I don't want to sin in my mind all the time when I'm not either, so any light that anyone would be kind enough to shed on this will be much appreciated, as will any prayers that you are generous enough to say for my situation. God bless