Hello Troyboy:
I pray that God leads and guides you into all truth. I pray that you will follow up with the link I am about to provide to you. There you will find your answer if you are really seeking it. Believe it or not there are many that are with the same confusion. God is not an author of confusion and he will with his Holy word set your mind straight to the truth. Please go to christian resource website. Now when you get to the site you want to go to bible study the link is right beneath the title of the site. When you click on bible study you will get a drop down box that will give you some titles you want to click on the very first one 10 reasons to believe. When you click on this it will open a new page, on the left hand side of the page you want to look down the list for 10 reasons to believe, you will see the topic God. Click on this it will bring you to another page. On this page there are three books. You want the book that says In the existence of God. Once you click on the book it will take you to a page that will allow you read the contents of the book by chapter. You can also order the book for your own personal copy free of charge. This book is scriptually sound and if this doesn't combat the confusion I do not know what else will. God's word is sound and true there is no confusion in it at all. For me I thank God that confusion is not a part of me any longer, because I recieved him in my heart and my relationship with him and all that I personally can testify of what he has done for me and my family is proof enough. A personal relationship with him after seeking him with all your heart will bear truth to shame the devil which by the way is the author of confusion and the Father of lies. He comes to destroy. He comes to destroy your relationship with God. The only way he can be successful in that is by getting you to doubt God. The only way he can be appealing to you is by attacking your mind. In your mind according to your words you are very scientific, and intellectual. You also said that you were thinking about being a Pastor. Well first the enemy comes to rob you of eternal life and all the promises of God and he can only do that by breaking your relationship and belief in him. So he met you at your point of interest, science and your intellect. And he now have you at a place of doubting God (very dangerous), before this goes any futher please get the truth and turn away from what the enemy is trying to do to you. Next I take words to be very literal and sometimes people write but what they write is not exactly what they mean. So I am responding to what you wrote. You said " I was even thinking about being a pastor...". Do you know that a position in Ministry such as a Pastor is a annoited position in Ministry because you have to be called by God himself to preach and teach his word. God will only use you as a vessel to bring forth the word to feed his sheep. Man appoints and God annoints. So if God has not called you into the ministry to pastor, then my advice to you is not to even go there. God will not let mankind shame his name. Be very careful with the things of God. I pray for you that God will open up the windows of heaven and pour out his Holy Spirit upon you that will lead you into all truth and righteousness in Jesus name. God bless you.
Love
Zenobia
