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Thank you so much for your reply. Sometimes I think I stay away from Church because I want my relationship with Him to be more personal. I want Him all to myself! Sometimes I even get jealous when I see others receive what they ask for from the Lord. I want Him to only pay attention to me! I feel kind of smitten by Him. Yet, with all these feelings I have this anger. But I agree, sometimes anger can be a good thing. I think the important thing is I love Him. Do you hear me Lord? I love You!

I haven't been to Church in a long time. I mean a long time; about 10 years. I have so much anger towards the Lord for things that have happened in the past. Events I wanted to happen; events I hoped would happen; events I lived for. When those didn't happen, I became angry at the Lord. There are times when I want to fall at His feet and worship Him neverending. Then there are times when I want to strangle Him. (Sorry Lord). I truly love Him. More than anything. But I can't seem to get over my anger. I can't bring myself to even tell Him I love Him even though I feel it so strongly. Has anybody felt this way towards the Lord?