sierra21

Thanks for all your advice so far....my boyfriend and I talked about a lot of stuff last night...I want to stay with him but I really need to be strong. I'm praying...

So basically I'm looking for anyone and everyones advice on what to do! My boyfriend told me this afternoon that when he was younger that he had some homosexual thoughts. Like, he thought a lot about kissing other guys and that that all men were attractive. He was not at all attracted to women. Then he said after a couple years (around when he turned 18) he decided that he was going to ask for God's help to change. And apparently it worked and he says he rarely, if ever, has those kinds of thoughts anymore. When I asked him how bad it was when he was a teenager he said it was about 9/10 (with ten being the worst)...and now he says its about 1/10. He says that he knows that those thoughts were unnatural and sinful and thats why he changed. He says he loves me very much and finds me, and me alone, very attractive. I guess the reason I am upset and worried is that I really want to marry him and be with him for the rest of my life, but I'm scared that even though he says that he has changed, that maybe he hasn't. And I guess a big part of me is also really embarrassed that my boyfriend was that way when he was younger, and may still be that way! I really don't hate homosexuals or anything like that, but I never thought it would be something that I would have to deal with in my life. I'm worried about him in the future- what if his faith falters and those thoughts come back? I don't want my marriage to be ruined by this! I am very torn by all of this, I am in love with him, but I am not sure that I will be able to help him with this (because I have a feeling this is not as simple as he says). Over the past few hours I have thought about breaking up with him, just because I don't know if I can deal with this! I guess I just want to know what everyone else thinks. Please please give me and and all thoughts or comments.