She puts her hands around my shoulder and smile, I can tell she loves me deeply by the way she smiles, she knows i love her too, but how do i tell her?
I know whats already in your mind....i'm sure you are wrong, she is not a the lady i want to propose to, she's my mom.
Yes my mom. She had been there from my childhood, she swept the City streets so i could go to school. She scrubed people's toilets so i could wear new shoes. If ever i had a nice supper it was because of her. When my dad couldn't wait for me to grow she was always there. And many times i hurt her but she had always loved me. She reminds me of the virtuous women in the last book of Proverbs, who prepares a meal for her children early in the morning. Like many loving and caring moms out there, she is the best thing ever happened in my life.
Yet i have this sad truth that is eating me alive, that is i had never in my entire life, hold her hands, look into her eyes and tell her that, "mom....i love you, and i want u to know that u r the best thing that ever happened in my life"
Just the thought of that, shake my heart with fear, when ever i try to say that, i just stand there speechless, my tounge dry with empty words. Do i really love her? With all of my heart i do. I wish i had kissed her goodbye every morning she stood at the door and watch me run to school. I wish i had said i love her every nite before i went to bed.
Sometimes i think i'll say it on the mothers day.....but on the mother's day i say i'll do it on her birthday....the sad truth is that until this day, i still haven't looked at my own mom and tell her that "i love you"
I admire those soapie scenes on TV, i wish i could i could hold her hands like that other young man i saw at the shopping mall. Why can't i tell her the simplest words that means so much to her. Maybe i don't need to...after all i love her and she loves me too, is there a need for me to express that further? Maybe i sound strange to you, because you have said it to your mom a million times since you were 7 years old.
But how do i tell my own mother that i love her?
Gift, 24 Yrs male. Cape Town, South Africa
Email: giftsmot@hotmail.com