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Dear All, I m seeking for answers everywhere and believe God answers me when I seek for help. I'm posting an issue I'm dealing with right now. I'm married and its been 5 yrs today.I have a difficult husband who do not have any kind of emotions/feelings .And he dosent know how to express he is very kind person ,good at heart .Many people in our group say I shuld be thankful to God for giving such a good husband. Today I'm going through much depression and I do not know whom to talk to.We both live like roommates /u can call friends.There is nothing like wife and husband relation.we help each other just like friends.I'm a girl with lots of dreams about marriage like all girls.I;m so talkative,creative and very expressive. The day when my heart ache doubled was when i realised my dreams of marriage /love began to shatter.Everyday Im struggling .Im not understaning to continue this relationship or break .God is not telling me anything.I'm waiting and time is ticking so fast .I'm still a virgin my husband do not have those sexual feelings in him he just is busy in making money and reading books.He is good and helpful but he just dont know how to treat a wife.Will you believe me if i say he never looked into my eyes one single day i said you are beautiful? or you are my love ? or given a single gift to just see my smile. Many others in my office including girls say to me im beautiful and your husband should be jealous of guys talking to you .But I only know the truth.I'm not boasting that Im beautiful but by God's grace I'm .This is a general mentality of girls right? that husband should praise her,love only her,look at her,and so on. As days are passing so fast ,sometimes my desires are shooting upto moon and I'm crying silently that why my husband do not think about sex?whats wrong?from 5 yrs I have been tolerating my desires and killing them everyday telling to myself may be tomarow he will be okay.Its 5 yrs now and I m still on the same road.I prayed and asked God what should I do .Is there anything in bible what sould a girl do when husband dosent do his duty and dosnt even treat her as wife and dosent care that she too has feelings. I have reached to a point i no longer care for my husband now.The unfullfulled desires inside me are telling me to have an affair and look for somebody .Now tell me what should I do ? should I leave him or should I worship him as my husband,Im 100% clear he canot understand me in anyway . Before marriage I didnt consult God i was in hurry to get married .Now is God punishing me for a mistake I did in ignorance.God is not a God who punishes his children But he is not saying to me anything ,How many more days I have to go through this. What does bible say about this case ?Pls help . Thanks