ShepherdSheep

Everything is about Him and my life revolves around Him. Life has no point in living without Father God and I can't believe that I was able to make it most of my life without Him. I will tell you my story, but very short and all I know is you are never the same after you encountered the Love of God...

It gives me great pleasure to share my love for God with you but I must be truly honest about one thing, there are no words really, to explain how I feel, but I'll do my best to share what I can with you.

Where it all stared was May 2010. But let’s go back a bit more, I was rejected by all 3 my earthly fathers for as long as I can remember. I was 4 when the first one left. And to make a long story short, my heart was broken to pieces, that I hid (what was left of it) far away.

My mother later married my third earthly father and we were automatically place in a religion that didn't believe in Jesus Christ. I grew up in that religion and it was all I even knew. But one day, I met my husband, the man God chose for me. You see, I kept myself pure for only one man, for I didn't want to go through the things my mother did.

And my husband respected that, but there was something different about him. His eyes.... I saw a long lost friend inside them.... Jesus; I once knew Him very well when I was a little girl, always talking about Him, talking to Him or begging someone to read the bible to me. In my life, I saw Him once and had two instances where Jesus touched me, at the age of 8 and then in May 2010 (27).

So, every time I was with my husband, I felt love, peace, freedom, I felt safe for my parents emotionally abused me. And the day I realize, but this Jesus is real, more real than you and me, He came to me at night in a dream or vision, not sure but He called my name (Something happens to the human soul and spirit, when its Creator call its name). He was floating on "nothing" I was on a ledge, like a canyon type of ledge and He asked me to take His hand, I was afraid, but He assured me that I will not fall. So I closed my eyes, to a step forward and took His hand....

I lost everything, my parents, family, friends, they all turned their back on me, said I was blaspheming God and I was choosing satan and I'm going straight to hell. It broke my heart, I was devastated. How could they talk like I'm a stranger, I grew up with them, not to mention my own mother.

Anyway, my husband (boyfriend then) stood by me the whole time and our Father God gave him strength surpassing all understanding to be able to take it and keep me standing.

So, now, there I was, in love with a God, I don't know squat about. But I was head over heels in love with Him. Then I busted my bubble and said to myself: Hold your hoses! He is going to reject you just like the others did.. Just waiting for you to get gagga and bhamm, gone, like He never existed. I mourned Him before He even left and while I was sobbing away, Father God comforted me saying with a voice I could hear clearly: "I am your Father. I am God, not man. I do not love like man. I am God, I will never let you go and no one will ever pluck you from my hand..."

And from that day on forward, I am totally.... helplessly hooked. He was all I can think about, all I can talk about. I calmed down a bit now, coz I freaked allot of people out with my crazy love haha (not crazy at all) but you know what I mean. For hear I had a Father, my true Father Who will NEVER leave me, He will never through my love back into my face, He will always be there, will ALWAYS love me and the only suffering now, to me (I know He has a plan for me here on earth) but it’s this waiting, waiting to be with Him one day, for eternity; although he is with me now but I'm talking about face to face, in His arms, nothing else... hahaha I always say, if we are in heaven one day, everyone might be searching and exploring the Cosmo’s and the universe, but I will be sitting with Jesus, inspecting Him, starting at his right hand thumb nail, and working my way slowly, looking at everything about Him - hands, feet, face, hair, then, only then have I've seen everything there ever was to see.

But sometimes I feel... like others have the pleasure to have their fathers with them, but me, I will wait to be in His arms one day, for He is my only true Father. I still see my parents yes, I forgave them and I still love them more than they understand, they find it weird and they get really uncomfortable and I also do appreciate my father in law, what a great father. But my connection and bond is with Father God. He is my hearts true desire, and His love for me... it always makes me cry, for how can the God of the whole universe love me like that. I will never ever be able to get over it, never.

Thank you so much that I can share this with you and for reading my mini testimony . May our Lord Jesus Christ bless you, give you His peace and may our relationship with our Saviour King and Faithfull Shepherd only grow stronger with time. May His work that He started in us, be completed in His Will and in His perfect time. In Jesus Name - Amen.