Please tell me what to do. I have lost my rank, my salvation, my blessing, and my relationship with God.
It all started 6 years ago on my birthday. Some very mean people pranked me. It was such a mean prank I cried. People laughed at my distress. I was so humiliated and upset I took it out on God. I swore at God and made fun of him. I fell from God that night, all because I committed idolatry. I had fallen in love with someone, and was excited about the idea of marriage. I chose a man to be my Lord, and then I was informed I had lost everything, including my salvation and my rank. I have not heard from God in 6 long years. Then I was told I was going to hell by a man of God.
I miss God and still love him, and I still want to be a christian. I want to make my relationship with God better, but have no idea how to fix it. I am desperate. Please pray for me. After you guys pray for me, please tell me what God is saying so I can fix my problem. Please don't go down the 'repent' path because that does not tell me how to fix my relationship with God.
