I am 22 years old and honestly not the closest with God but I am trying anyways so a few years ago I met this girl at a formal ball and we all know that feeling of love at first sight well this was it. I found out a day later after our meeting that she lived 3 hours from me but we both talked about it and I was hesitant but we started a relationship and fell in love. It lasted around 2 years and she ended it due to the distance and during me talking to her about not giving up I admitted that I wanted to talk to her father about marrying her. I was not at all active to go see her and that is my biggest regret. I knew on our last night together when she was staying with her sister that something was wrong because before she left she just held onto me and cried a little. Later on I found out that she knew it was our last time together and it hurt her. Of course we all have our struggles and things but she told me that she doesn't date people who cuss and I did. I did my best to quit because she challenged me spiritually to be the man that I should be. No other girl since has challenged me to be the man I should be since then. It has been 2 years since we actually had a good conversation and just looking at her picture makes me nervous and I get that butterfly feeling inside. It takes all that I have in me to look at her Facebook profile because I know for a fact that I still have feelings for her and it very well may be true that I love her still but not to the same degree of course. I have began to pray to God asking him to reveal to me what I should do but I have an awful time trying to separate my feelings from His answer. I am currently deployed and I wrote her a letter and I am awaiting her letter that I was told is being sent to me. My question is should I just give up and accept we will never be together again or continue to pray and talk to her in the hopes that we could be together again. No other girl I know challenged me to be the man I should be nor pushed me to be closer to God. There isn't a girl on this earth that I would rather be with and one that calms the storm within me. Ever since this girl I have not been able to make it into a successful relationship or make it past maybe 1 or 2 dates. One thing that I loved about her was that she was waiting until marriage for sex and I am doing the same thing, its the small things and her beliefs that also largely attract me to her.
