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I've been fasting, praying, and seeking God for 6 years and I still cant walk in love... I don't want to live if I can't overcome the world and I just can't do it. I haven't held a job longer than a few months ever... I'm homeless, broke, depressed and I just can't heal and i don't know why. I'm not trying to throw a pity party but im at my witts end. I just don't know what to do, I can't repent and I cant change into a different person... I am not gaining any power over sin or the enemy despite trying so hard, if I can't walk in God's love I don't even want to live. I keep hurting people and I keep trying over and over and over to stop and to change but it just won't happen. I am crying out in my heart ''GOD PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE CHANGE ME'' but nothing is happening. I feel like i have no reason to live, i don't know what to do....
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I am trying very hard to repent of everything and walk the narrow road but there is this spiritual connection with my father that I just can't break. You see, my father was very abusive to my family and he is ice-cold emotionally. He has never had any friends, he has a major personality disorder... my mother is a very loving mother but my father is the complete opposite. I am trying to be my own person in Christ and walk with God but I just can't get past wounds from him in my childhood, and how much he instilled fear into me... I was terrified of my father as a kid. I am not making this thread to put down my dad, I am making this thread to try and heal because my father is a sick, tormented man and I just can't seem to break any emotional ''ties'' I have with him... I was messed up as a teenager and early 20s and now in my late 20s im trying to finally break ''free'' from any negative ties I have with him but they are rooted so, so deeply... I hated my father for a long time for what he did to me as a kid but I have come to forgive him and even love him, but I just cant go near him because I will open up doors to depression and fear if I do.
I inherited some traits naturally from my father like poor social skills, ignoring/disrespecting people, they are generational curses and I KNOW they are wrong and I am trying soooo hard to change and NOT be like my dad but it is rooted in so deep... I never ''grew up'' and became my own person
What do you guys suggest/ How can I get my life on with God and cut all negative ties with my family/
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Did I just recieve the gift of tongues?
in Gifts of the Spirit
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About 7 months ago I was laying down and praying in the back of my truck and I had my first experience with tongues in my entire 5 year Christian walk... all of a sudden my tongue started to ''roll'' in my mouth and my jaw started making strange movements... then I just blurted out tongues for about 5-10 seconds and that was it. I had never done it before that or even desired to.
About a week ago I prayed for the gift of tongues but didn't think too much about it. Today, while I was praying out loud regularly, I started talking with a lisp... and for a few minutes I started sticking my tongue out of my mouth, unable to speak clearly, almost spitting everywhere, I had no idea what was going on... then the praying in tongues came out again, this time for over 20 minutes.
Do I have the gift of tongues? Or are these just random occurrences? What was your experience with tongues like? I can't do it on command, it seems to be only spirit led... Is this normal?