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The job I’m at isn’t keeping me. They only had me working for seasonal. I need prayers to find a new retail job. A better one! Maybe one that has a better pay? I am really upset. If I don’t find another job, I can’t go back to college and I might have to join the Air Force or army, but I don’t want to go with the tattoos I have on myself. 

10 hours ago, secretopossumcabal said:

Settle down, life is not a race, try to limit or delete Facebook, God tells us not to covet, and Facebook is particularly keen on making humans covet. In fact I think Facebook is one massive tragedy for modern civilization, it makes us constantly want more because facebook is where pepople go to brag about their achievements, others see this and they get envious and jealous. This world was never meant to fulfill us, remember what you see in their achievements is an illusion, God is the only one capable of making us whole, and yes not even children will make you whole, wholesomeness belongs to God and God alone, for he is the one that will make us perfect.  

Remember that Christ came to people whom were particularly small, use your smallness to your advantage, and ask God to take pity on you, let yourself stand on his shoulders. 

Facebook is for egotistical prideful people whom are ever treading on the hedonic treadmill or 'chasing after the wind' as Ecclesiastes puts it, and if you must have it, just limit your contacts to your close family. You are making yourself miserable by observing other people's achievements. 

I recommend you listen to this free audiobook whenever you have the time: 

The Art of Divine Contentment, which goes into great detail on how Christians should be content with what they have in the moment. 

I just turned 30 this September and my life has been similar to yours due to mental disabilities... It's rough, but it reminds me of this line from Psalm 34: 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all. -- Pslam 34:19 

We'll survive this world yet.  

Yea thanks it’s just hard to not compare my life to others. Coming to Christ has been a rude awakening. I was living in dark and I feel like I finally woke up to the world around me. I will give that audiobook a listen though. I feel like the world is calling me a loser everyday like come on girl you’re 24 and still single, still not married with no kids? You’ve been an adult for 7 years now. What happened? It’s an awful feeling. I hate going on Facebook and seeing people I know from high school when I’m trying to grow past that. I guess I’ll have to delete people I don’t talk to because just seeing names brings up bad memories for me. 

32 minutes ago, littlestarsmum said:

I’m so sorry you’re feeling that way, girl. My heart ached as I read your post, and I wish I could give you a hug. I know how difficult and frustrating it must be for you. I just said a prayer for you, asking the Lord to surround you with His comfort and fulfill His plans in your life. Remember that no detail of our lives can ever escape God’s notice and He is able to work out everything good for you. I know it’s not easy, but I urge you to stay strong in Him. Please know that you’re not alone and you can always come here to share your heart out. We’re all here to support you. May your confidence in God’s grace and goodness increase as you look to Him in faith. Love & hugs to you!

Thanks so much. I really appreciate your reply❤️

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Long story short, I was adopted. Was going through some stuff last year and I find my dads side on dna ancestry then I find my mom through them. I meet her in January and moved in with her because I was going through some stuff and thought it best that I live with family. I had moved out of my adopted families house as I didn’t feel welcome anymore and thought it best that I live with a family member and the only person I could think of was my mom and we had just reconnected too. Basically, this whole year has been chaotic. She is nice one second, mean the next. I get angry. She has a desk filled with stuff and I’ve knocked it over countless times. She yells at me for petty nonsense like “why do you keep drinking my water and not refilling it??” She has this Gatorade bottle she fills with water and put it on the refrigerator door. I just don’t see why she can’t just refill it. It’s not like I drink that drinks that cost money. I only drink the water which is free so why the fuss? She blows everything out of proportion then I get crazy and I dumped the water on her bed. This is not who I want to be. This isn’t me. We always make up after, but I’m scared she’ll call the cops soon cause she’s done it before. Part of me just doesn’t have respect for her because of what happened with my adoption. Why even have a kid if you can’t even raise the child yourself? Because not only could she not raise me, but I was stuck with a family who wouldn’t care if I was dead. I’m pretty sure they adopted me for the checks. Do I definitely need some prayers. I am with the lord but not when my mom ticks me off. My mother is not with the lord though. No way. I also went through her phone and deleted some stuff that was not pleasing to the eye I’ll say and she got mad and I thought about it and she is right because no I wouldn’t want her looking through my phone. I let her anyway, but she does deserve privacy, but I guess because I’m Christian I thought I was allowed to because I was deleting her sinful pictures. Again, I just don’t have much respect for her as a woman or person. I try to, but I just find her floppy in her faith. She sways with the wind. Loose and with no root planted in anything. Flimsy. A chasing of the wind would describe her personality. She’s been working at the same retail store for 14 years. 

Love on earth, than do you think a man and a woman could meet in heaven and fund love together? They couldn’t get married because there is no marriage in heaven, but so? Thoughts?

Praying for you strong soul. What has you feeling this way? Maybe I can share something to help you. 

Praying for you Deb!!! Father eliminate the Smokey smell from Debs home and allow her and her mother to live comfortably. This must be awful for you both. Please allow the building management company to come and do their job! Thank you Lord, Amen??

Are they a sin? What do you guys think? I wanted to join a book club, but the book they are reading is about a girl who loses her virginity to a tattooed womanizer. What’s your take on this? The book club was called the smutty woman’s book club. Is this okay? I entered the description of the book below.

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Praise God! Praying❤️

Praying??

Praying before bed❤️

Wow so beautiful. I really loved reading this testimony. It gave me hope. 

Wow I really appreciated this testimony. I ran away from the home that adopted me at 18 after they kicked me out so I guess I didn’t really run away. Thanks again❤️

Cool story! I really loved it and it’s funny because I myself was adopted. I’m an Italian woman with the original name of Rizzo adopted into a white family (non Italian). My name here is Hmh for Heather Madeline Heron which is the legal name I was adopted into. I found my family through dna ancestry too! And I also live in sheepshead bay right next to Coney Island! I love love love to go to Coney Island in the summer! Before I was adopted at the age of 4, my family (the Rizzo’s) brought me to Coney Island. It’s pretty eerie how many similarities I have with your story! Thanks again for writing it❤️?

Thank you for sharing your story!! Beautiful testimony. I enjoyed reading the whole thing. I wish you and your wife years and years of happiness and I know you are really effecting people who were in situations similar to yours. Hope to see you in heaven one day. God bless!!!❤️

On 12/9/2017 at 11:44 AM, KPaulG said:

How's everything going now??

Father God help our ‘daughter of God’ to only hear your voice and not the voice of the enemy. Allow her to have control over the food she eats. I too was neglected as a child and know what it’s like to fall through the cracks! We’re all praying for you here at Worthy. 

I came to Christ when I was almost 24 years old but it is too late for me.

Ive made so many mistakes that I can’t clean them up and neither can God.

I dropped out of school at 20 and never went back. 

When I tried to go back at 22, it was too late and they said I had to come back at 24 when I’m not under my parents info. 

Everyday is the same for me. I wake up in the same apartment and do the same stuff. Go to work. I barely have any friends.

By now, I’m supposed to have a multitude of friends from college, but I don’t. 

For years I chased the wrong things thinking I would find my answer. I was a stripper so I cried to god hoping I could become a bartender or a waitress. I never got any bartending Jobs. I got a waitressing job at a hookah bar and I actually left and was rude because I didn’t even know how I was going to pay my rent with 250 at the end of 2 weeks. I was actually super rude at that job. The guy said he was going to increase my pay and add in my tips, but that place didn’t get any business anyway, but still I should have been more grateful. Even little moments like that I was so ungrateful for and didn’t count my blessings, but I didn’t know what to do! I had moved out at 18 and now had rent to pay so I was constantly stressing over that. 

An atheist has had more of a god than me. I’ve just mad bad decision over bad decision. I have tattoos I don’t even want anymore that I’ll have to remove now. I already started the removal process, but it’s a pricey and long process. I have a flower on my arm. A tiny star on my pinky, a tiny moon on my right pinky and the pyramid sign on the dollar bill is in my left wrist and I have a large tat on my leg that I’ve been trying to remove  

I have dreams every night of what could have been and what should be of my life. I woke up from a dream seeing myself happy, smiling with other kids in their 20s or maybe I was with my husband being normal. 

Not to mention, I was also heavily into psychics, tarot cards and other sorcery, but I didn’t think it was “bad” because it was “white magic” such as crystal use. I can’t tell you how many times I visited the occult store and bought a certain crystal to help in a certain department of my life. Last night I read old journal entries from middle school and high school and I had Wicca symbols written everywhere  Why is it so much easier for a kid to find/think of occult symbols than to just solely depend on prayer??? I even became friends with a psychic. BIG mistake. I also just recently realized that you can get a counselor for FREE through health insurance. There’s no need to pay a psychic and that’s why I hate myself cause I literally have lived under a rock for years with the mentality of you live and you learn which is DUMB because why not research and be SMART? And then you don’t have to fall into the traps of the world but again growing up I never considered myself evil and never understood the battle going on that we can’t even see. Speaking of my journal entries, I found an entry I wrote when I was 11. I wrote that my grandma thinks I’m mental and she thinks I’ll commit suicide one day. I wrote this at the age of 11! That entry actually makes me want to hold on a bit longer cause I wouldn’t even want her at my funeral. I wish I kept up more with my journals  I totally stopped writing in them?

I live with my mom now whom I was taken from at the age of 4. I can’t even sleep in because she’s always fiddling with plastic bags and opening zippers. She’s been working at the same retail store for 13 years. I wouldn’t call her a role model or anyone to go to for advice, but I was adopted and was ungrateful for everything I got because the family didn’t show me the love that I really wanted like acknowledging my existence by asking me how my day went. I always felt like the black shee. The lady who adopted me was old and all her kids were old enough to be my parents. Anytime I said anything to her, she would go back and tell everyone. I never had a mom to talk about important topics such as virginity, marriage,boys, college. 

I lost my virginity at 18 and then went on a rampage till like maybe 20. I got “over it” after a while but in the moment I remember talking to a friend and it was something about me I didn’t like but I didn’t know how to control my flesh. Of course at that moment, I didn’t use that terminology because then I definitely would have brought out my bible or started praying, but still I never actually REPENTED. I didn’t repent until just recently so now all my pay sins are just coming up like VOMIT and recently i’m thinking of things all over again feeling bad ALL OVER AGAIN. 

lately I am an emotional wreck. I’m not as bad as I was a couple weeks ago, but I’m pretty bad still. I went on YouTube and saw a couple who’s my age (24) and they are still virgins and that made me upset. 

I’m at the age where I realize everyone is getting married, has kids, or has a degree and had a career they like. I went to college for fashion,  but that was really dumb of me because I should have just went to a BIG college and maybe just minored in college and majored in English? Idk I just jumped thinking I knew what I was doing and “god had me”. I was never the type to stalk the internet like I do now. The way I am now is how I wish I was then. 

I don’t talk to the family who adopted me anymore and they don’t talk to me cause they don’t have my number, but I don’t want to talk to them anyway. My sister married and got pregnant by my childhood bully. 

My life wasn’t bad, but once I became a stripper it’s like the world got into my head and I got used to things going wrong where I said inside “idc” so I kept moving forward until I smacked into a tree and I’m looking around like wow this is what I’ve done! Actually it’s more like Jesus turned the light on and I see all the mess I’ve made. 

I can’t even picture myself marriaged. I didn’t keep myself pure. I have tattoos on my body. I thought I loved myself until Christ showed me I had 0 respect for myself. Granted yea I know Jesus can fix everything but he can’t go back in time. The timing is all off now. When a person goes to college, that’s when they start their lives. I’m TWENTY FOUR. The age people are graduated or are ALREADY graduated and this is when I’m starting my life???? Come on dude I couldn’t have messed up anymore. I may not have committed suicide yet but I certainly crushed my spirit which is almost the same thing. When I go back, everyone will be 17,18,19... It’s not even like I’m morbidly depressed about everything. I accept it but I just don’t want to live with this anymore!! 

Why is it so hard to find Christians in real life other than the church? I already met a lesbian who basically said she doesn’t believe in god at work. Another 55 year old atheist and she even has a 25 year old daughter who is an aethist and has a career working with special needs kids. Like come on! That would give me even more of an incentive to believe in god?

Woww @sisteracts2, That’s amazing!! Haha I love when small blessings like that❤️

I need help as to what to do with my life. 

I’m 24 and haven’t done anything with my life. I went to college for fashion and dropped out. Now I live with my mother. I think of joining the Air Force or navy. I owe student loans and have to wait 6 months to go back to college. I was adopted from my mom. I don’t even like living with her. I was taken from her for a reason, because she’s crazy. She pays no attention to me. We don’t even talk. The people I know are just people from church I’ve just recently met and even then those people don’t really want to be my friend because I carry to much baggage. I waited really late to repent. Even though I’m clearly alive right now, I feel like I killed myself inside spiritually a long time ago. I wish I could just kill myself and be put into a new body. I screw my whole life up. By the time I graduate college, I’ll be 28 or 29. Most kids graduate way earlier than that. I just have to deal with so many things I’ve done in my life and I don’t realize things are a mistake till after I do them. It’s hard growing up with no family or people who care about you. I just jumped at things and never did my research.