I feel like all my life I was searching for God, trying desperately to find Him, but no chance.He gave me the gift of knowing Him from a very young age, I still have no idea why, I am doing no good to this world.I know that He exists, I believe in His only Son, Jesus, I know Jesus is the truth, the only way to God, I know that Jesus's teachings are the way we should live your lives, but still, I am doing absolutely nothing.I try, I try with everything I am, but I fail miserably.I ask nothing from God, just His holy presence, that's all I need to find myself, to find meaning in life, but here I am, still seeking God.Jesus says that He will reveal Himself just to the ones who keep His commandments, I am doomed, everyday I fail keeping them.. What's the meaning of all of this? Knowing Him but failing miserably to follow Him.The world we live in is full of pain and I want to help as many people as I can, this is my biggest wish, but I am doing absolutely nothing for nobody, I prayed for God's power and strength, but I got nothing.
If you may want, I really need your prayers, I really need them.. thanks!
