I am aware that I am a sinner and I want to be saved, but...how can I be forgiven by God if I love to hurt people? How can I be forgiven if I am a lesbian and don't see the problem in it? How can I be forgiven if I manipulate, lie, insult and have sadistic thoughts?
How? I don't really feel guilty about what I have done. If I ever feel guilty, it won't last long.
I can be really narcissistic. I sometimes feel that I'm better than most people.
I tend to rationalize everything to the point where I can't understand why would someone feel guilty about murdering another person. I even watch animal abuse videos and don't feel anything. Maybe a little joy.
I don't want to go to hell, how can I start feeling sorry about my sins?
Thank you!
