I know how you feel. I want to to stop hurting too
I came to this forum to seek help as you are doing, because I really don’t want to die. However, my hurt and hopelessness is constant! I can’t see an end. All I see ahead is more pain.
Intellectually I know God is present and sovereign. Interestingly, because of that, I find it difficult to fight the notion that He has abandoned me thus sending me into a deeper spiral of hopelessness.
Even in all of my pain, I feel a faint, very faint but ever present, external force that’s encouraging me to hang on. You reached out to this forum as I did, so you must feel that force also!
I believe that that force is The Holy Spirit in our time of trial...
Hang in there with me a little while more. Let’s get through this together
