Hello, I am dealing with quite an issue. For a month or so I keep thinking that I’ve commited a terrible sin such as the unpardonable sin. I thought it what it said about in the verse. Now I’m afraid that the Holy Spirit has left me, I’ve lost my salvation, and I’m going to hell. This has haunted me ever since I’ve heard of the unpardonable sin, I keep having blasphemous and bad thoughts. I looked some stuff up on Google and some people said “It’s accusing Christ of being possessed” or some say that cannot be duplicated today. but, Jesus said “Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but anyone who speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come.” -Matthew 12:32
And some other people have said the unpardonable sin is “calling The Spirit a liar” or “This sin cannot be commited in your mind" and the last of them all is rejecting him. I'm not sure what that means. Are any of these true? I cannot stop thinking about it. Anyway, I don’t know if this is associated with any of this but yesterday I threw up, had a headache and a fever of 100.6. Could someone please help me?