Thank you for replying! I have accepted Jesus Christ into my life to be my Lord and Savior, but like many, I do mess up. So asking for forgiveness is always something that I am constantly doing. I am learning to be more open with God and understand that he knows more about me than I know about myself, but that doesn't make the process any less difficult for someone who becomes lost. I don't think that I am necessarily making it hard, but that I am genuinely confused and need guidance and prayer which I have gratefully found here in this forum.