My whole life I have struggled to get girls. Which sucks because I desperately want a girlfriend. I just want to connect with somebody so bad, I need to. I’m a senior in college and I’ve never been in a serious relationship. Sometimes I feel so lonely I get very depressed. I’ve had my heart broken too many times. In March one night I got really really down and I felt so alone. I read a verse that says ask and he will give you the desires of your heart. So I decided to pray and I just asked God to please bring me a great girl that is good for me. The next week I went on Spring break with my friends and totally forgot about my prayer and being lonely for awhile. When we got back I went out with my friends one night and BOOM. I met this amazing girl. We clicked crazy well, we started hanging out all the time. She was very into me and I was very into her. It was everything I had ever wanted and I was the happiest I have ever been. I realized it was the answer to my prayer. I would just stop and look at her all the time and think thank you so much God. 3 months went by and things were going amazing. We were getting closer and closer all the time. She made me happy and I made her happy. We took care of eachother. I got scared one night because I realized if I lost her it would destroy me. So I prayed and asked God to please not let me get hurt. I’ve been through so much pain already. I trusted he would hear my prayer and went to sleep. A week later she texts me and says she doesn’t want a serious relationship right now. Not even a phone call... I am completely crushed. My mental state is in shambles. I’ve never hurt this bad in my life. I don’t even want to get out of bed in the morning. Everyday I pray for God to help me move on, help me to understand why this happened, to give me comfort or hope, I’m just begging for help because I am miserably depressed. I’m stressed beyond belief about a bunch of stuff that’s a whole other story, this is one of the darkest times I’ve ever been through and I just need peace and comfort. But every time I pray He is completely silent. I don’t know what to do i’m Hurting so bad inside and I just want it to stop. I want to be as happy as I was with her again. I want her back.
