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Thank you so much! By entertain them you mean entertain the thoughts with a blasphemous intent right? Like how one entertains a lust thought with lustful intent. I've been brooding over these thoughts questioning myself if I really thought that and that kind of OCD loop similar to harm OCD. The accusatory self doubt that accompanies it is awful.

I keep probing myself to examine if i really blasphemed or not but it makes it worse. Before im 90% sure i havent then i bring it up again ("was it really me or my ocd?") and feel awful and feel even less sure. I feel messed up and out of it. Have you gone through this dusty especially on the topic of the HS?

Hello, I was watching a sermon from Hardcore Christianity about anxiety and my day was going okay until someone brought up the topic of the unpardonable sin/blaspheming the spirit. Then fear started entering me and I started getting the you know what blasphemous thoughts, I was rebuking the thoughts telling them begone satan in the name of Jesus. and I accidentally thought of the HS when saying the devils name. thats not the worst part though the worst part i was brooding over the thoughts sometimes zoning out afterwards due to being lazy and in a terrible mood and feeling condemned and anxious. Is that reason to worry? Of course I have no desire to blaspheme the spirit or god and no malicious intent. but im worried i really blew it this time by dwelling on such negative thoughts.

I know that our strength is primarily from God. But surely hard will/discipline has an important place in being a disciple too? My thought is so as long as you're not lazy it's not that important.

Don't spend time fighting the thoughts. Ignore them. If someone calls you ugly, if you brush it off (either because you are so confident you arent or you do not value his opinion at all) it will fly past you. If you entertain the thought and react to it continually (how dare he call me ugly, why would he call me ugly?) even though you hate the thought youll end up believing youre ugly to some extent. Same with these intrusive thoughts. Satan doesnt care how his demonic seeds are watered as long as they're watered. Build up your faith. If you have weed in your yards dont spend all day spraying weed killer killing off your healthy grass in the process. (Ending up with lots of weed and dead or unhealthy grass) Rather fertilize and feed the healthy grass to choke the weeds out.

I'm really sorry to hear that. I heard a case of a man who was getting better from schizophrenia through daily bible reading. Have you considered deliverance ministers? Im not saying its demons, deliverance can involve mental and physical healing I think.

I bought a bottle of kombucha and realized thw bottle had a 12 or 11 pointed star as the company label on the bottle. Is it a sin to drink it? And what about monster energy drinks (id avoid this one because i believe the intent of the logo is clearly satanic with the "unleash the beast" slogan)

People who can't help feeling attraction for the same sex is not a sin (just like its not a sin to suffer temptation by a very attractive woman), likley they suffered something or became confused when they were babies. (I dont believe anyone is born gay) or they are under demonic oppression. To act on that homosexual desire is sin though.

You are so right, I must recognize they're not my thoughts, these intrusive alien fear causing thoughts. Thank you! My therapist and others have been telling me the same thing!

Trust in the finished work of the cross? So just trust in that God will deliver me through this and keep me. Through his holy spirit. Not because of my worthiness but because he is gracious. Thank you!

Yeah I think it's the idleness causing all this. And yes I feel like I have grown alot (a spiritual growth spurt xD) somewhere in the first few months of being saved. But I don't feel that growth right now. Please pray for me. Im worried about letting demons in? Sometimes when I get bad thoughts i feel like i literally physically yield to it sometimes, or when worry or anxiety gets me I feel like I physically yield to feeling. I really hope im not letting demons in.

I've been having a pretty good walk with God for some few months after being saved, looking back. I felt God close to me and I was getting blessed both inwardly (more kindness and patience, joy, more emotionally sensitive) and outwardly (so many good christian friends and people praying for me, also been invisible to girls most of my life and finally started getting attention from some really nice and godly girls of the faith) and I would really enjoy to worship God and some other large and cherished moments as well. Even though I was being blessed in so many ways I still really struggled with the fear of my salvation and self-condemnation/overthinking negative things constantly, something I wish I had cut off a lot sooner now. I feel like I'm struggling with some form of unbelief now? I keep being afflicted with negative thoughts, like very negative fortune-telling like thoughts, and long and complex mental loops of overthinking condemning myself and alot of harmful self doubt "Do you really want/mean this?". In my better moments I would sometimes (but rarely) get taunted by thoughts of unbelief and doubt. But I would very quickly disregard them and they didn't come back. Until recently, with the negative self doubt of "Do I have enough faith, do I have true faith? etc" I listened to a sermon from David Wilkerson about trust in God and it talked about how Saul in his fear mistrusted Samuel/God and acted prematurely in fear and his downwards spiral of mistrust started there to the point he lost the anointing of God. And that he had seen once Christians totally fall away from the faith. Well I really struggle with fear/anxiety/dread and worry so I kept condemning myself after watching that sermon everytime I worried condeming myself for having weak faith and not enough trust and fearing I would lose my faith. Well that self condemnation didnt do anything other than aggrevate my already current fear and negativity. Now those same thoughts of doubt and unbelief afflict me, thoughts that try to get me to even doubt God's existence, I dont believe them, but Im afraid I might believe them. and with the worry of losing my faith it makes these thoughts bother me alot. I used to feel God alot more strongly but now I dont feel his presence as strongly, which aggrevates this problem of mine. I really struggle with negative thinking, always thinking to the most negative what ifs. Recently alot of people have been telling me to read God's word more so I may renew my mind. i've discouraged some of my friends with my negativity and i feel really bad about it because i feel like they had hope in me and have really tried helping me and im feel like im just harming them. Sometimes I "feel a feeling of unbelief" if that makese sense? Like a feeling of weak faith I guess. I think its just a feeling of spiritual numbness and sleepiness made worse by my negative overthinking and fears though. keep thinking about fearful what ifs, like "what if i dont make it" "what if god doesnt answer" "what if god wont help/deliver me" "what if im too far gone" I wish I could just stop overthinking and worrying and trust in God fully and have all these gross mental loops and feelings go away. My good friends keep redirecting me to some helpful verse in the bible and they tell me to spend more time in the Word (something I dont do). I hate this overthinking, I keep overthinking everything in a negative or prideful way, trying to box everything in my own understanding automatically even though i dont want to. if I want to do good and care for somebody i then overthink and self doubt and spin into something self righteous or fake wise and it really sours my mood. This is actually something thats really bothering me because I feel like its suffocating the fruit of the spirit in my life. I try to remind myself thats not from God. that the overthinking and self doubt negativity is not from God. I think I should really read the word more, its hard sometimes because ill read it and I feel like its not doing much for me, and because i dont "feel" like it sometimes (that is a wrong reason I know and im trying to work through it) ill really try to commit fully to reading the word so much more. even if it feels ineffective but i pray and hope it will not be so for long. I tend to get really angry and bitter at my mom recently. a friend of mine tells me the reason im feeling down is because im not doing God's will (I'm idle mostly and dont work) so many people have been giving me so much good advice, i find myself only partially applying it or forgetting. im not sure if i should even be posting here but there's a verse in Ephesians (or galatians?) that says to make the most out of every opportunity so I think, why not? I feel selfish for posting so much about my own problems. I have been really inwardly focused

I don't think I've been trusting in Jesus enough lately truthfully. I've been overthinking it and getting lost in too much salvation theology/becoming confused. relying on my own strength to stay close to god. Somebody basically told me this a few weeks ago at church. This sermon basically described me.

I know my good works dont save me nor add to my salvation. I believe its kind of up to me to maintain close relationship with God though (prayer, bible reading, trying to avoid things I know are sinful) I think bible reading and prayer is good and of course obviously avoiding things you're clearly convicted "no" to. I think ive been having too much of a legalistic attitude towards the last one though, like i feel like ive been having too much over emphasis on it. I like to be very sure of what I believe in the main things. And I really like to feel secure/close to God emotionally

Im really having these strong anxieties that are trying to drown my faith. About losing my salvation and/or losing the faith and falling away. Someone said all anxiety is a form of unbelief and im wondering if this is a form of unbelief in God's love to keep me and protect me or if its just a fear?

You are right @dhchristian I need to fully believe in his full finished work of the cross, past present and future.

I like listening to worship music and getting myself wound up in the emotions I feel from it. Is that wrong?

Thanks, I really hope I receive assurance of my salvation, I have witnessed something miraculous in my life that proves to me God has put special attention to my life, and some other peculiar things (Had a righteous boldness/anger come out of me one time when I was battling with self condemning thoughts out of nowhere that made the thoughts flee, and have been intensely gripped with emotion when reading certain verses, Mark 14:62, John 8:58, Luke 23:42). I know we can't earn salvation but I have been going out into my own strength to maintain it/not lose it. But surely there is a place for my best effort? Like putting my best effort in to seeking God in my life and in prayer?

Thank you!! This excessive navel gazing and especially looking back has absolutley been murdering me!!

I'm still going through a test right now and I fluctuate between being stronger and weaker in God. Yesterday I was listening to worship music with tears streaming down my eyes and today I feel kind of cold and dry. By the way is it wrong to keep praying the salvation prayer? I watch backsliding sermons and at the end they have a salvation-like prayer for backsliders (Haven't really been backsliding lately just that sometimes this fear is wrecking my relationship with God)

Ok I'll just ignore the thoughts and pray to God for mind renewal and freedom from these mental issues. And just try to rest in Gods care and read scripture.

I've been being bothered by a particular condemning thought the past month or two that im a selfish reprobate at heart and everything I ask for is for a selfish motive at heart. For example I'll pray to God for mercy and guidance and other spiritual things and thoughts come to me saying I only ask this so I can be saved/brought into a point of salvation or that im only asking it to keep my salvation (Fear of hell basically) (suffer from salvation anxiety alot currently). I suppose its possible being under so much fear and condemnation latley that there might be some aspect of that when I ask but its kind of unavoidable (?). I wish I never entertained such stupid thoughts for so long because the accusations make wonder if its true sometimes and if ive really ruined my heart worrying and ruminating on such things. I pray and hope its not. It makes me feel like I'm blocked off to God in prayer sometimes if I'm only asking out of fear. I think it's just my OCD acting up. Thoughts?

Thanks. I really hope it wasn't just a social thing. I'll keep praying and praying to God. And what do you mean by how a person handles tests? Im going through some tests right now by the way but all internal. (Fear, anxiety, and tons of discouragement and condemnation)

Thank you! I can afford it. I don't really know if I'm truly born again which I dont like to admit, its something I really wish I had assurance of. I should be born again according to the promises of John 5:24 and Romans 10:13. My therapist tells me the thoughts come from emotional issues (low self esteem, fear and pessimism) and OCD and the excessive rumination is OCD. I think about salvation anxiety alot. Im trying not to worry about it because worry is a sin I think. The last 2 months ive been worrying all day about condemnation and salvation anxiety, it's something that gives me alot of stress. I dont like bringing up my salvation assurance issues as a quick reply on here because no one here really knows me personally or whats been going on in my life regarding my walk in faith. I think. I have problems with a slippery mind, sometimes I feel bitter and disillusioned with God because of the condemnation and worry and my mind thinks of thoughts of a rebellious blasphemous unbelieving nature that disturb me and I dont wish to think about. I dont know if its really something in my control, I have some control over the thoughts I guess if I really try but it takes alot of mental effort to get them to not appear (I'll sometimes sense an ugly thought in danger of being brought into my awareness and If I try hard enough to distract myself it sometimes works). Sometimes ill fear ill start havimg bad thoughts and thats when they're more likley to come. I don't know if its also a demonic bondage problem or spiritual warfare. As for it being a forgiveness issue, I try to forgive everyone but sometimes when im feeling low ill get bitter at my mom because ill blame her for who I am since she has similar issues but then I try to remind myself thats not Christ like behavior and that she doesnt do it out of malice, she's just lost (shes an unbeliever currently please pray for her) and also that maybe if I wasnt raised exactly how I was raised I would of never found Jesus maybe.

Yes! I hate owning them, they arent me. I hate how theyre trying to convince me theyre myself. I keep making stupid mistakes out of ungodly fear and anxiety. Thank you