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the way that i present myself doesn't bring joy to my life. i act happy and also have positive conversations with others but for some reason i really feel empty and unfilled and unhappy. i don't know how to show anything different because my will is to be happy but I can't be :/ I've tried meds..I've tried therapy...I'm not interested in trying those things anymore. I'm also always feeling drained and tired. I just need prayers please, I have been experiencing this for years. Thank you.

HI,

Recently God has been blessing me with beautiful gifts like a new job, that I've been praying for that works with my real-life schedule outside of work. Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! But now I am having trouble with my car. I'm not lost totally without direction but I'd like God to guide me to the right people to help me fix what ever the problem is with my car. 

I also am not aiming high enough for pay, not even with the new job, I can't afford to make a living on my own. I need help finding recourses around me so that I can leave my Mom's house. 

Thank you, Marina

My life is so bad, all that I want is to have a good relationship with my ex-husband for the sake of our kids. He absolutly hates me and is making my life a living Hell.

My ex mother-in-law as well. I bring them up because my ex-husband has full custody of our daughters.

I had a mental breakdown and was going through a very bad psychosis episode and I gave him full custody of my two daughters. A mistake that I can't move forward from or live with.

On the 27th I have a meeting in court to try to regain custody of my two children. I really need prayers that GOD is on my side. 

My daughter is doing good these days. Thank you everyone

Hello, my youngest daughter is suffering from nightmares, she's only 5. I suffered from them growing up and I just don't want that passed down to her. I also have a 6 year old daughter, so please pray for her too. I just want both of my girls to be happy, they've been through a lot

Ive been hurting for 3 years without any relief. I don't know what to do anymore..I see doctors, psychiatrists, and therapy. I am on a bunch of different medications but I am not feeling anything good. I don't think that I am saved anymore, I think that I had rejected or offended the Holy Spirit God. I feel like an apostate because of the constant and daily suffering after going on a long spree of willful sin. I repent about everything and I do as much as I can to learn about God but I am exhausted and in literal pain too. My chest is constantly tight. I don't feel fulfilled and I don't experience peace. I used to be the happiest person in the world and now I am nothing but a shell of my former self. How does one get into the word of God when I am exhausted and don't have it in me anymore. I feel lost and without direction. I can't apologize enough to God. The things that I did were wrong, and very bad, I understand why I don't deserve forgiveness and am suffering..but I can't go on like this and because this is taking such a huge toll on my life to the point all I can do is sleep all day and live life as a means for survival..I am not enjoying it..if god has truly abandoned me then Idk what I'm here for anymore.

I’m beginning to lose hope in myself, although my hope is in the Lord, I believe that I’ve wronged him too many times now to be forgiven. 

Let me explain to you why:

1.) I don’t recognize the Holy Spirit in me anymore. Everything in me feels evil, evil, evil.

2.) I believe the day I lost the Holy Spirit was the same week I had a psychotic crisis that ended me up in the hospital and psych ward. 

3.) I don’t think that I just backslid but that I committed the sin of blasphemy of the Holy  Spirit. I think that I am an apostate.

4.) I feel hateful and suicidal. I’m emotionally lost, I don’t know what I’m feeling but it sure is a great deal of pain. I’m hurting - and I’m sad that I don’t feel God’s presence anymore.