Hi,
I've been together with my boyfriend for 3 year heading in for four. We have lived together for almost 1. We love each other very much. He makes me happy, he makes me feel safe, loved and cared for. I believe I do the same with him. We see a future together, we want to stay with each other for the rest of our lives. He has a good heart. Now, 2 weeks ago I found my way back to god, and this time it hit hard. I'm 26 years old and my testimony is maybe for another time. Now I'm hungry to read the bible, I just found a church in my city which I want to go to, and I'm meeting another Christian girl tomorrow which is hosting "get together" with some girls in this church. I'm watching preachers online and I feel a trust in god. My boyfriend just heard about me finding my way to god, and he is not a believer, he is happy for me, but he doesn't want to be involved with it as he believes that "religion" is the root to much evil, but he doesn't understand that it's god I believe in, Jesus Christ, I feel saved. I don't label it religion. I label it God. I told him how I found god but he still finds up excuses for my testimony. As my connection with god is becoming stronger, I'm questioning sex. We usually have a lot of sex. It's our way of showing love to each other, especially him.. He tells me he feels the most connected to me or he shows his love with sex. I think if I now would take that away from us, it would create a lot of drama in our relationship. And it would maybe turn him against my faith rather than maybe being able to save him as the time goes by.
Because I know he doesn't want to get married right now. Nor do we have the time for that or the money to get married at this point. So what is right? I feel in my heart confused. I want to be close with my boyfriend, and I'm so afraid of what will happen if I take away sex in our relationship. Please give me some words of wisdom. Maybe someone has experienced the same?
Best;
Rebecca
