OneEyeDreamer

I really do wonder how the devil manages to keep watch over so many Christians since he's not everywhere like God is. I've also heard a baptism method where they say something like the church baptizes you in the name of the father, son , and holy spirit into the CHRIST. Everyone seemingly has their own formula for baptism and it introduces doubts for me. Also the bible doesn't teach a particular method for baptism or provide much detail on how to baptize people. I've heard some churches sprinkle water on top of a person's head and that is considered baptism as well. This is what a brother in Christ told me when I was considering whether to get baptized: He told me: "you can sin if you're gay." My dad whispered telling me to say I'm gay. But I'm not gay. I thought it was a joke so I said I'm gay and I kept sinning like normal (the non gay way) until i got injured in my flesh in a rather humiliating way. To me it sounded like I didn't need to repent. The way that non-denominational church works is strange to me. I often hear random people praying and crying in public during worship. This is why I don't enjoy visiting that church. Add in the fact that they're praying in a different language so i don't even understand what they're saying. The church is conducted in two different languages during the same service. One brother speaks and another translates. When I partake in communion, I've even gotten violent with the wife. That's not good and plus I'm the only one that actually goes to church lately. We're both Christian but baptized in different churches. Me - full immersion wife- sprinkling.

What should I do if I see visions and perceive that the enemy is trying to attack me with scary visions?

Actually the way the non-denominational church that baptized me normally works is they have baptism classes. But I was rushed by my "GENIUS" parents into getting baptized without a baptism class so I could go overseas to get married to a girl that I didn't even have the time to get to know before i got married. (Please detect the sarcasm.) In case you're wondering why i went overseas to get married, let's just say that someone BSed me real good by telling me that supermodels would be lining up to marry me. Total lie by the way. A US passport only gets you so far. The church brother responsible for my baptism only asked me a few questions about Jesus at church before agreeing to baptize me and i told them some story about something that happened to me as a child and I probably just gave Jesus the credit for my injury healing or something like that. And that was enough for them to agree to baptize me apparently. Probably because my mom is a church goer. The way this non-denominational church functions is different from some churches i've been to afterwards. The classes for baptism are held upstairs and not in the worship area that we typically sit in. There's different responsible brothers who speak in church sometimes citing bible verses. But none of them have official titles like Pastor or Elder or Deacon. It makes it very hard for me to figure out who to go to for guidance. They go to some Christian conferences quite often. and they have brothers and sisters come up to do public testimonies. But I barely received any guidance on how to properly do a testimony or the importance of the words i said. Because a fellow brother in church told me that it's about Jesus and not me, i decided to include a bible verse like I can do all things through Christ Jesus which strengtheneth me. in my public testimony, but even though that bible verse is true. My faith is not so unwavering that I can confidently say that I can do all things through Christ Jesus which strengtheneth me. The verse is true but I wonder if my testimony is false because my faith hasn't proven to be unwavering. I even don't dare partake in communion because quite often i've ended up having arguments with the wife after partaking in communion for some odd reason. But when i don't partake in communion, i've rarely had arguments with the wife. The other thing that this church does is I see random people praying out loud during service time and it is something i have never seen at other churches. The only other thing that i saw in other churches (not the non-denominational one) is people praying in tongues out loud(the entire church). I have even questioned whether my baptism is valid since they never told me to repent of my sins before baptism. They just kind of gave me the impression that I could keep sinning after getting baptized without consequences. Afterwards, there was a brief period where I doubted whether my baptism is valid. I also don't remember what words were mentioned during my baptism. And the really confusing thing about this church is every brother who does baptism at this church says something different during their baptizing of other people. Some people say The church baptizes you in the name of the father, son, and holy ghost into Christ Jesus and some just mention that i baptize you in the name of the father, son, and holy spirit. So any suggestions or tips to fix my faith in God. Thanks in advance for any wisdom. Another thing I will share about this church is it is one of the few churches I have seen that doesn't have a CROSS in the building's worship area.