GodslilRedneck

hey if u need someone 2 talk to then i will be here to listen. i dont know if i can help but i am good at listenin

My mom and dad are divorced i havent seen my dad in two yrs. he doesnt even want to talk to me, and everytime we do it ends in a big arguement. i have tried to be the 'bigger person' but it hasn't worked. And to answer your ? whether we are Christians yes we are. we talk about Christ and religion all the time. Ever since he has had his daughter he has become more of a Christian. He was young and stupid he says, but he also knows me and what i want in life. My mom trusts me enough to let me be here with him but there is also someone in the house when she isnt here. she does take that precaution and i have never given her a reason not to trust me before. Me and my mom are really close we tell each other everything, we have that bond and me and brandon have bonded and he hasnt had the easiest life and neither have i but he knows a lot about me and seems to really care. my dad doesnt know and i dont think that he will he doesnt even care.

Well, I have given it some time, and have hung out with Brandon for the past little while and gotten to know him. When he has picked me up from school he has stayed with me until like 10 or so. We have went to the movies and everything. My family and everything likes him. Some aint that crazy about him having a little girl but he brought Bre over Friday night and we hung out for a while. My mom fell in love with her and she is so adorable and sweet. That is one of his top priorites in life though you can tell by the way he looks at her. I also got to meet his mom she's really cool and seems to be really nice. He did ask me out but I told him that it was going to have to wait, to see how everything is going to go. He has told me that I should get my hopes up 'cause he isn't going anywhere, and I told him that I have learned not to get my hopes up when guys tell me that they are goin to do something and he says well hopefully I am different from the other guys, I won't treat you the way that they have, and I actually believe it. I want to get my hopes up, but I aint going to, or at least try not to. But even when we are here at the house by ourselves he has always treated me with respect. He hasn't ever tried to take it anywhere that he knows that I dont want to go, like he said he wouldnt. Even right there he's different from the other guys that I have dated. The others they say the samething but they dont stick to it. but he is really sweet. He gets along with my brother and tries to involve him in some stuff that we do. My brother has CP (Cerebral Palsy) which is another thing that draws me to him. Most people dont know how to handle people with disabilities but he gets along with him real well. But right now me and him are JUST FRIENDS so...

well i met him tonight

He says he is protective of his daughter and he asked me how much older was I aloud to date guys, and I told him before my mom and dad divorced that it wasn't an option to date my dad was that controllive and he told me that he was protective over his daughter especially when he has to take her back to her mom's. He is going to go to court again to try to get full custody of Bre, bc her mother doesn't take care of her the way she should.

Well, he said at the time that it was a mistake to have had sex with the girl, but he wouldn't trade his daughter for the world. He told me that his daughter was his life and to me that says a lot. My mom got pregnant at 15 and the father and her married before my brother was born and after he was born the father just split and we haven't heard from him since, so to me that says a lot abou Brandon and his priorities in life. He also told me that the girl that he previously dated was real religious and he respected that. The thing that impresses me about him though is that he fought to keep his daughter, even at 16. My mom has told me that it was my decision whether or not to date him, and I have told him that I love going to church, and that I would go more often if I could, but unfortunately I have to work most Sunday's and he said that he respected my standards. He says that he doesn't like to have just flings, and neither do I. I will pray and see what I am suppose to do...

I am now talking to this guy that is 19 and i am 16 (goin to be 17 in July) and I just found out that he had a 4 year old daughter. I dont know how to handle it. ~GodslilRedneck~ ~Ash~

My older cousin and I sign some songs on church but our younger cousin is deaf so we have to learn it. You may want to check at the book store but they are like 50 bucks. Be careful because there is ASL (American Sign Language) and SEE (Sign Exact English) which aren't that different but some of the signs are different. My cousin also has a disk of some sort to where you can put in the lyrics of a song and it will print out the signs for you that way if you forget one you won't have to keep flipping back and forth in the book but I am not exactly sure what the name of it is. Good Luck. Its really cool that other people do that too. Peace God Bless love always GodslilRedneck 2 Corinthians 5:8

Thanks you guys...I do express myself on how I feel about my cousin and the sad part is there is a lot of more people that feel the same way, you see we lost 2 18 yr olds on the same day my cousin and another young man from our hs and i was talking to a friend that had grown up with the other young man and it did make it a lot better but I just dread next thursday...and we a do a memorial mud run for my cousin that was his favorite thing to do so we do it annually to keep his spirit alive...thanks again

This month is really hard and I don't even know how to explain it. Two years ago my 18 year old cousin, Steven, died. It seems to have been Carbon Monoxide posioning but there are so many things that don't add up. I know its time to "get over it," but it is so hard. I got so mad when he died because he had just started to turn his life around and everything was looking up for him. He was happy and full of life. He had started to come back and be part of the family again. He was having a hard time though because we had just lost our grandfather in August, and he didnt handle it well at all. And I was living in Florida during all of this and we had came back when we learned that PaPa had died, and we went back for school and when we came back up for Christmas Steven looked so great and so happy, like his old self again. And when we went back to Florida and everything seemed fine until we got home from school. Dad seemed fine and everything but he said that he had to talk to mom so they went in their bedroom and all the sudden i start hearing mom screaming and hitting the wall "nooo not my steven" and I just thought something bad had happened to him but then I was like no nothing could have happened to him he's never been hurt no matter how many wrecks he's been in, and when they told me that he had died all I thought was no it cant be it has to be some kind of mistake. But no it wasn't a mistake, he was really gone. i just cried my eyes out but i didnt want to believe it cause Steven was a really big part of my life, he was the one that I wanted to be like. He was the biggest Redneck in the valley! and I wanted to be just like him, I guess that is why it was so hard for me to deal with his death, I know he is Heaven, and I know that it is selfish to want him here but I miss him so much and I want him here...its getting closer to the anniversary of his death on the 11th and I dont know what to do...it just seems like it is getting harder...I thought it was suppose to be getting easier.... please help a 16 yr old girl trying to figure it out