desi2007

Kwikphilly, hello...so good to see you again on here, just reading your post and first thing that came to my mind that I wanted to share with you, your a poet, a blessing for others with lifes ups and downs. King david was a poet along with others in the bible. A gift in you that I see.

Blessings,

desi

Let's not forget to nourish your physical body as well, with good foods and remember your B12 vitamins are called your happiness vitamins. And boost your state of mood. 

On 3/27/2018 at 4:49 AM, BibleBunny said:

Thank you for your replies, I have given a great deal to this relationship, including the roof over my head, I would not have done anything like that had the relationship been anywhere near rocky. I do understand that he is pushing me away, I have spoken to him about it, and asked him not too. I'm a pretty straight forward person, I do my best and I don't chastise or shout about things. Love can heal these rifts, but I think a lot of pride and stubbornness is at work here. I'm dealing with someone who I no longer recognise because of the lies he's told me. I have forgiven it all, but now I think God is revealing his true nature.

Despite my requests to find out what hospital he will be going to he won't tell me. It would have been nice if I could a least know where he will be if something bad happens, I am very concerned because I care. He also will not let me talk to any of his family, he had sent me an email address for his brother a while ago, in case anything ever happened to him, I emailed it, just to ask if he could let me know that my partner is ok after the operation (they are always in contact), the email address bounced back, I don't think it's real. I tried the phone number too, but I have had no answer.

We're talking about someone I have a joint US account with, I'm on the rental contract for the house in America, I've not exactly been a 'sideline'. Even in the visa process you write letters with your intend to marry, and prove the relationship with pictures and many many visits.

His other sister is going there to look after him, he has told me he has told her about me many a times. I asked him for her phone number so she could let me know how the operation went. He has avoided giving it to me. He does all this while telling me he loves me?! That's confusing. Sorry to vent, I just think perhaps God is showing me just how devious this man is, and it's rather scary, let alone emotionally taxing, given the illness, the messages of love, the rejection and him 'hiding' me like a dirty secret at the same time.

I'm not perfect, but I don't think I could do to anyone what he's doing to me right now. This is how homeless people are made. I'm glad God is showing me the truth, it's rather brutal, and at the same time I want him to be ok. He will want me to be his best friend at the end of this, it's becoming more and more clear, that I am not respected, that his idea of love is very far from mine. I've never known someone to be so good at lying! I am giving all this to God, I need to find a good job, perhaps God wants me to finally put myself first? I honestly don't know. Please do pray for me.

Thank you for listening!

Hello biblebunny, I've been reading your situation but you know what? Uncomfortable feelings actually indicate you’re on the right path. Really a comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there. And I can see the pain in your words. I remember a time years ago when I was married and I had this loving christian Aunt that told me no, this guy wasn't for me but I was young and I thought if it didnt work out, the divorce would take care of it. (Boy, was i wrong) It would of saved me all the heartache and lifes issues and with having a child as well, and working, etc., had I listen to my Aunt and not married.  Looking back, God had His hand in it, growing me through the pain and at the same time i learned alot about having a husband, seeing life thru both sets of eyes. Even though we weren't seeing the same dreams and hopes in life. I thought how did I not see this coming? A life lesson. I had alot to learn. I truly believe it was part of my path in life.

The often-quoted phrase about when you are comfortable with life, you have ceased to grow as an individual. Therefore, experiencing uncomfortable feelings is actually a sign that you are going through a period of change, and in your case a heartbreak on top of it all. 

You might want to read "your thorn in the flesh" in the study group.  Very good thread to read. 

52 yrs old here, I think seriously I am much older and WISER now then I ever was when I was in my younger days..lol

Yes, thank you, very helpful. I grow my own organic vegetables, have for years. I have the worse time with cabbage worms. 

I love to look at garden art and things created to make ones gardening more useful or easier. I have made a few things in my garden.

I don't think you can get rid of it, part of the feature with being on phone. 

Good one! lol

I think it's fine to talk to a guy with hi and how's it going. Maybe it's a way for you to see if you receive a good vibe or friendly eye contact. It's a start. 

Hello Marilyn and thank you for your kind words, Yes my interviews went well (i felt very blessed to receive 2 interviews) just waiting for the outcome. I have mixed emotions as each day passes with excitement to now feeling perplexed..lol. Seasons in life never stay same, things change, people change, even jobs change. 

As for my grandson, he has 2 grandma's, and they (daughter & grandson) had to move back in with me at my house for a bit, and I see him more than ever. He needs stability with a home, and family. She has him in a catholic private school. His daddy isn't much in his life. He is too busy making another family. And life for all them will be even harder. The choices they make affects us all. And we are to help carry the burdens and as I look back and see things and I can't always voice my opinion with what I see. I am watching for God's hand in it all. Just doing my part and being helpful. 

Thank you, and I do see the key word is "wait". I think one of the things God keeps bringing up is His timing. Feeling a bit off balance with work, with what God is showing me. And I do keep Him in with everything i feel. Most of all I am very grateful every day, with all He has done with my life. Just something there, can't seem to put my finger on it so to speak. Maybe, it's the excitement that's coming. I feel it, seeing with Eyes of faith, very much so.

Hello All,

Not sure how to start this off with. When I have been wrestling with something that seems to be such a big deal. Here soon (this week) i will soon find out if i get the job i applied for. I applied for 2 different jobs, both called me in for interviews at the same company that I work for. 

First off, I know TIME can be a big deal. It is a important to be places on time or anything pertaining to "time". 

My issue is I am waiting to hear back on 2 important job advancements. Both seem to be promising. Lets call the jobs A & B. And i thought I wanted job B. But there is a "time" issue, of going in later than i normally do. And i keep thinking maybe look at it in a different light.

Then job A. Is early schedule for me which is my normal schedule with my job now. And I'm leaning towards the TIME. Why am I doing this? I am willing and wanting God to work things into my life.

I really want job A, it seems the more I think about the time. I prayed and prayed. I asked God to give me which ever He chooses, or.... if neither, then shut the door on both. 

Waiting with anticipation...and excitement. However, feeling as if this TIME is such an issue with me.

I am an early bird. 6am-3pm my normal time. I do garden in spring and I do help with 5 yr old grandson in evenings it varies on certain days thou. And working with a 9am-5pm, might stress me...or might enjoy it. Not sure.

Any advice would be helpful. Thank you in advance.

desi

I care......hugs.

hello, peeday 

desi

Chickpea fritters (Leave them whole) great healthy snack.

You will be heartbroken if you Don't listen to the advice. Why rush into a live together relationship? I have experience from a marriage that was rushed and we moved away only to live in agony with unmet expectations on both. Before long it wasn't a marriage after 18 yrs. It was literally making me sick. The lies, the false sense of love that wasn't growing, the deeper in debt as a couple, a child, life began to take a toll on both of us early in the relationship and we were Married. Looking back, We just didn't give it time, We rushed and it fell apart. Enjoy your life now. And i know we want love and feel as if we can't live without this person but honestly the number one killer in a relationship is unmet expectations. Life is what you make of it. God will see you thru all of this in His time. Rushing into things just leads to heartbreak. I pray you heed to all the advice that was given to you. God Bless.

desi

My favorite would be carrot cake. 

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I am thankful for God's abundant love, His son Jesus Christ, My savior, and He has blessed me in so many ways. Without Him there is no life. I would be scared to live on this earth without Him. I pray for people to know Him and to be saved.

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hello Godslovesme,

I am sorry to read that your going thru a difficult time with your marriage. Marriage is hard and it takes two people with God's help to make it. If I could point you in the right direction here and that would be...take care of you...work on you. Maybe this is where God is wanting you to have courage to pick up a new hobby or go back to school for something you enjoy. """ Life is all about growth """"  Let God work on the marriage just give it to Him and then work on you. And trust me as time moves on and less time on worrying about marriage will give you a better perspective on life. praying for you.

desi

I tend to think people in heaven can't see us down here on earth. Maybe its when they think about us or send us butterflies in memory to let us know they are thinking of us could be true. Because if you think about heaven and sometimes when we look up in the sky its like some clouds can resemble a person's face or an animal, why is that? I think its almost like a glimpse of someone a reflection from heaven. For example. About 3 months ago I was looking up in the sky and seen a face...I thought whoa who is that? nobody I knew...he had a beard. No one has ever seen God so I ruled that out. I honestly just think it was a mere reflection of someone up in heaven and I happen to look up at that right time. I even took a picture of it and still have it. There are a lot of things in this world we just don't know. But I like questions like this cause we read other people's comments on it to shed light on something you might view the same or maybe nothing the same. Anyways, just my two cents on it.