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PS a Moon is a year lol

I have been thinking (again) lol. That perhaps when I got saved in many moons ago mmm think it was about 18 or so, that I did not really come into the fullness of God. If I had perhaps I would not have slipped away. At least that was a conversation I had with a friend of mine who got saved at the same time I did. Just a thought!!!! Lots of love Sunniesttime. xxxxxxxxxxxx

oh ok I will try that

JO your message from me is somewhere in all the other messages lol. It gets a bit messy the message posting thing. Now the sun is shining and I am feeling happier about going to church than ever before. Sunniest

Hi Lady Pear Tree, Ya even though I had stopped going to church and stuff even on our wedding day we publicly thanked God for each other and for our families asking God to bless us through out life. Sunniest x

I am not very good at posting messages on here lol. I want to tell all the lovely people who have answered my posts a story. My dearest husband and I got married in August 2006. We went to Mauritius for our honey moon (hope I got the spelling right lol). On approximately the second day we were snorkling, it was a fabulous place to snorkel with the Indian Ocean's clear waters. We came back to our villa which overlooked the sea, it was just tranquil and beautiful. We were getting ready for dinner when my hubby walked in to the room his face void of colour and he looked in shock. He went on to tell me that he had lost his wedding ring in the sea. He was emotional and I tried to play it down saying that it was just a ring and could be replaced. I was actually gutted and very upset that we had lost the ring. We went out for dinner and hubby was unconsolable. The next morning we went to the beach (ya like we are going to find the ring lol) and we met a guy we called 't shirt man'. We did know his name but he used to sell the t-shirts on the beach so hence his nick name. T shirt man told us that many rings and jewellery was lost in the Indian ocean. He doubted that we would find the ring and soundly told us to get on with our honey moon and think nothing more of it. This we did and slowly the trauma of losing the ring faded and we resolved ourselves to the fact that it was lost...but not without... praying first. We sat on our balcony the day after losing the ring and we prayed and I prayed to the Holy Spirit that the ring would be found. A week passed and one day T-shirt man came bounding excitedly across the beach shouting 'come here! come here!'. We looked at each other andn approached T-shirt man. He hurridley told us that a man had found a ring. He led us to the man who was on the beach, he unfolded his hand and there it was....the wedding ring. I cried and hugged him. Hubby was just standing there in shock lol The story unfolded that he had been snorkling way way out, wehre you are advised NOT to go. The sun hit the sea and there it was, the ring, sticking up out of the sand, near some rocks, sparkling. Also the man was due to go back home to Germany the next day and we may have never seen him, by chance he had told T-shirt man. T shirt man was so happy for us. Now we believe that this was divine intervention, I mean what were the chances of finding a tiny ring in the expanse of the Indian Ocean???? We felt blessed and that our marriage was blessed and that the ring situation was a sign that God loved us so, Thought you would enjoy that Sunniest xxx

I wouldn't comdem you, when I first read your post I felt compassion for you because I often struggle with this too just like a lot of other belivers. I would say try to start reading the Bible regularly again and pray for God to give you the will and desire to come back to church every Sunday. But I think you also have to make a clear cut decision that this is what you want and your not going to turn back. God would never comdemn you for marrying someone who is a non-beliver, do you remember the verse that states a Believer who marries a non believer sanctifies them and their children? Just tTry you best and GOD BLESS YOU! Yes you are right about making a decision it does no good to be blowing in the wind does it? I need a bit of courage to make the decision. I think I have been waiting for God to really clearly talk to me which maybe sill and perhaps the very fact that I am writing this means obviuosly God is talking to me....Sunniest xx

Once it starts, it just seems not to stop. How easy life may seem to be. No more effort to conform or meet standards. And yet something pricks away at you. It is your conscience. Do you remember the story of the prodigal son. He went his way, lived it up, but when things got tough and he was reduced to looking after pigs ( and if a Jew how low must he have got since pigs are unclean to Jews) he finally decided to return home and work as a hired man in his Father's fields. What was the reaction when he got home? Did his Father give him a hard time? You know what happened and the same could happen to you still. Your Heavenly Father loves you and knows what you need. Being a single parent is not easy. I'm just single, and there are times I wish that I could be not single. The support, comfort and hugs all help. All I have is a cat and he is not one for hugs. So what can you do? Someone, a spiritual man who visited my congregation, said to me, " we come to meetings and we do the things God wants because WE want too." How true that is. If it is our heart we will do all we can. Getting up, getting ready and going through that door will always be a difficult thing to do. But if your heart is full of appreciation for God's love to you nothing will hold you back from returning. No-one will judge you, in fact they may very well be so pleased to see you. It is worth the effort at least. Yes that is true, once it starts.....it is so so easy...... Thing is I listened to the story of the prodigal son......I have some sermons from my old church and you can down load them on the pc. I am like that in some ways....but things are not tough for me...financially or relationship wise things are just great...for me its the spiritual things.....not feeling the holy spirit feeling so far far away from God and wanting to have Him in my life again. You are right they may actually be pleased to see me and suprise me. It is probably more not them, but my shame........knowing I fell and the like. Sorry you can't hug your cat lol that made me laugh.... Love Sunniest

Hi Nathele, It is wonderful that God does not remember them, in a little while I am going to find my bible and do some studying. I like the 'not being perfect but forgiven' quotes, very good. I have never heard of the Calvery Chapel here, guess there could be some. For the first time in a long time I have began to think that maybe I can really move forward with this....and maybe just maybe my faith will be stronger than ever before. God bless you so very much xxxxxxxxxx

Congratulations On Your Marriage - Love And Respect That Guy (I Too Have Received A Gift From God Through The Love Of My Darling Carol - Wife Of 38+ Years ) What To Do, What To Do Rejoice "Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Quench not the Spirit. Despise not prophesyings" 1 Thessalonians 5:16-20 Hide "Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee" Psalms 119:11 Abide "As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love. If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love. These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full. This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you" John 15:9-12 The LORD Will Move You Two As You Seek Him "Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah" Psalms 62:8 And Be Blessed Beloved Daughter Of The KING The LORD bless thee, and keep thee: The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace. And they shall put my name upon the children of Israel; and I will bless them. Numbers 6:24-27 Love, Your Brother Joe Joe left you a message but I think its posted later...still gettting used to using this board!

Hi thanks, was up because being poorly and not sleeping well. Thanks for your prayers..........it has been so long since I said that to anyone lol. It would be so lovely to be in that circle again where we pray for each other...x

God bless you Jo who ever and where ever you are. I woke up this morning (hubby has popped out) and came to read my posts. Thank you for taking the time to give me encouragment. Your words choked me up...... you see I love my dear husband so very much........and I know that I should not have lived with him according to the churches teachings etc but that was the place I was at the time. He is a man full of integrity and very committed to his family. It is lately I have felt..well actuallly for about a year now... God talking to me wooing me back to the fold I think. I spent last night falling to sleep and praying after being on this message board. I have been out of God's presence. I don't know what your experiences are but I used to feel God's presence raining down on me. It was an amazing experience. This did not occur every day or anything but sometimes when I would pray and I knew that I was in the company of the Lord or Angelic beings. Sounds a bit soppy I guess...and i know we should not just go on feelings but faith etc. When I stopped going to Church.....I felt His presence less and less and then began to doubt wether it was actually any thing to do with God (the presence). Then I began to wonder if there was a God or at least the God that the bible talks about. So I have been in a very doubting place even wondering if the bible is the Word of God. So Jo I have been a very long way from Him. But somehow....in the quiet moments and when least exptected I think on Jesus..........and believe that he is talking to me. It's funny Jo....in my bible, at the front I have wrote this 'I may withdraw from you but I know you will never leave me'. I don't even know why I wrote those words. Say a prayer for us Jo, Sunniest

Hia Thank you, I will be thinking about all you have kindly written and will reply tomorrow...as for now it is nearly midnight here and I should get some sleep. I am very glad I came...it's like the first steps back....encouraging and uplifting Sunniest

and you both talk of beating myself up...or not as the case may be. This is super advice because I would be quite likely to do that...at length....but I will persevere in NOT doing that LOL

Thanks for your replies. Nathale I was very encouraged to read your story. It sounds so similar to mine!!! I know that going to Church does not make you a Christian but I do think that it strengthens you and you can support others too. It is like a family. What you say is so so true. I was thinking about some of the families I know at church. Or at least did know. They have grown up and all served the Lord, no backsliding, and all their lives seem perfect. Of course I know that they are not and will have had their own struggles. I guess one of the things that tortured me... when I realised how much I missed the intimacy with God. Was that as I had strayed from the Path i had blown it some how. Also knowing this made no sense because the Bible talks of many instances of forgiveness including the story of the lost coin and the prodigal son, which both are pertaining to me really lol. My husband says that he will come to church so that is a bonus. I want to find a family of God who will embrace us and not condemn me. If God tells me to go back to my old church I don't know what I will do lol. I will go though but I will be scared of the pointing finger of the backslidden now returning.. or maybe they will rejoice??? I don't know why I rebelled, there I said it, I am now being honest, it was rebellion really. It strange to think, like you say that he knew I would do this.. what a concept!!! Nathale, what also worries me is punishment, will God punish me for this. Thank you so much for taking time to reply. I am from the UK by the way Sunniest x