http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5CapyHVhjM
The Way of God is more beautiful than the way of the world, and no matter how broken I am and have been and will continue to be, as long as I catch onto God, and allow myself to be caught up in the things and ways of God, then he will take the “brokenness aside and make it beautiful”. That phrase from that song entrapped me so much because it is my whole life’s plea with God, that he could do that for my life. That he will take my putrid mess and make something out of it. “Will your grace run out if I let you down, cause all I know is how to run”. I am so afraid that God will give up on me. No matter how much he is tender with me, no matter how much he shows me that he is big and loving and so much more than I can fathom- I am so afraid that like so many people, and the nature of my story that He will give up too. That I will run again. That I can’t be enough for God, and that’s just it we are never enough for God, but He loves us and uses us despite of, and because of that.