Ghostdog Posted August 4, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted August 4, 2022 not ready to make nice - the chicks now ready to make nice Forgive myself, sounds good Forget, I'm not sure I could They say God can heal everything But I'm still waiting I had so much doubt There's so much I had to figure out I paid a price, that I keep paying I'm now ready to make nice I'm now ready to back down I'm doing well, but I'm tired of the guilt Going round and round and round I just want to make it right And I would do it if I could 'Cause I'm doing well Can finally bring myself to forgive Me the way I should I know addiction said "Why can't you just get over it? I turned your whole world around And you don't like it" I made my bed, and I sleep like a baby With one regret, and I don't mind saying It's a sad, sad story When a mother will teach her daughter That to her I'm a perfect stranger Now how in the world Can these words that I write Show I stepped away from that edge I'd write them a letter Saying that I'm better But I can't cause Now our friendship is over I'm now ready to make nice I'm now ready to back down I'm doing well, but I'm tired of the guilt Going round and round and round I just want to make it right And I would do it if I could 'Cause I'm doing well Can finally bring myself to forgive Me the way I should I'm now ready to make nice I'm now ready to back down I'm doing well, but I'm tired of the guilt Going round and round and round I just want to make it right And I would do it if I could 'Cause I'm doing well Can finally bring myself to forgive Me the way I should Forgive me the way I should Forgive myself, sounds good Forget, I'm not sure I could They say God can heal everything But I'm still waiting Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted August 10, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted August 10, 2022 this is a repost walk on water - eminem I wanna walk on water Just like Jesus I wanna walk on water But only when it freezes Why, are my expectations of myself so high? Is it the bar I set? My arms, I stretch, but I can't reach A far cry from it, or it's in my grasp, but as Soon as I grab, squeeze I lose my grip like the flying trapeze Into the dark, I plummet Now the sky's blackening, I know the mark's high Butter-flies rip apart my stomach Knowing that no matter what words I come up with Someone's gonna hark, gripe, and tell me my faith is shallow So I scrap these, as pressure increases, I fall on my knees I feel the ice cracking, because I wanna walk on water Just like Jesus I wanna walk on water But only when it freezes Time to go back to Carman's The Standard Back to the first time Jesus and I met Always in search of the sin that I haven't dealt with yet Will this step just be another misstep To tarnish whatever love or respect, I've garnered? My walk has to be perfect, a Christian life before you flawless And it always feels like I'm hitting the mark 'Til I go sit in the dark, look at it, and pick it apart God's given me all this Still I feel no different regardless People look to me to point them to God If only they knew, sometime it feels like a facade and it's exhaustive And I try to not listen to nonsense But if Satan is trying to strip me of my confidence Mission accomplished I wanna walk on water Just like Jesus I wanna walk on water But only when it freezes 'Cause I'm only human, just like you Making my mistakes, oh if you only knew I don't think you would love me the way you do 'Cause I'm terrified to let you down It's true, I'm a Rubik's, God's beautiful mess At times juvenile, yes, I goof and I jest A flawed human, I guess But I'm doing my best to not ruin your expectations There was a time I had the world eating out my palm Everyday I try to encourage others to keep going on And now I'm struggling to rewrite this song But how did my faith last this long? Begs the question, though Especially after I reaped what I'd sown As yesterday fades and the old kingdom is burnt to the ground And all that's left of all I owned Those days are long gone And it's time to put the past down Rebellion declines, that curtains drawn I'm closing the set, sin still poking it's head out from behind And everyday has doubt and reminds me Now forget your pain, forgive them and then do it 1,444 times I'll lie and say I no longer care and not let you see 'Cause I can't let this memory go without a fight One day my life be gone, outta sight, outta mind Can God made something from mine? But when I do leave this life, though, I'll be fine Please don't cry or sigh But that final bow will be divine, but for now I wanna walk on water Just like Jesus I wanna walk on water But only when it freezes 'Cause I'm only human, just like you I been making my mistakes, oh if you only knew I don't think you would love me the way that you do 'Cause I'm terrified to let you down If I try to walk on water, I would drown  Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted August 14, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted August 14, 2022 (edited) addiction - bryan martin I'm a darkness that comes in any size You can't hide me they can see it in your eyes Sinner or saint I'll have you believing lies But I'll be with you till the day you die Hiding in the shadows down the street Just waiting for the chance for us to meet Once I have you I won't let you go Jesus can have your heart, But I have your soul You can try to put me down but you'll always fail This ain't my first rodeo gonna put you through hell As you lie in bed with the sweats and the shakes I'll be waiting over here when your fever breaks Make you steal from your mom, make you steal from your dad I'll make you sell everything you have Forget about your kids, forget about your wife 'Cause I'm the only thing that you need in life Well I didn't come to you, you came to me So I'm not the one to blame you see You talk about all the things you changed When the morning comes I'll still remain You can hear the voices calling down the hall Ain't nobody there 'cause you've lost it all Come next week you'll be living in the street Don't worry brother I got all you need Well I come in many forms whiskey and pills Cocaine, porn, whatever spins your wheels I've been bought, and I've been sold Once I'm in your system I take control My names addiction it's a powerful name If you don't believe me come and play my game I took the best and watched them go insane Just kicked back and watch their lives go up in flames Im a darkness that comes in any size You can't hide me they can see it in your eyes Sinner or saint I'll have you believing lies But I'll be with you till the day you die Edited August 14, 2022 by Ghostdog Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted September 4, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted September 4, 2022 changes - nu breed I ain't never walked no line I can't claim to be a perfect saint But I promise you I'm one of a kind I been handcuffed, faced all my dirt I been dressed up, ready for church I've been betrayed, my heart is been broken And I broke some hearts and I ripped em open I'm just a man. I made mistakes Never settled down, living place to place I been ashamed and I've been proud I can laugh about it or break down Never been too good at love Never had a love that would love me back Never cried out to God until I needed help I was lost in sin and went way off track I been sick and tired, I've cried the blues I heard people sayin that I'm bad news And that's half the truth But, you only gonna see the half of me that you want to I've chased dreams, I've wasted time I've hurried up, just to wait in line But, I've paid my dues, I can't wait for mine I got a legacy to leave behind No matter what you think of me Just keep it real and don't be fake with me Dont talk that trash unless you're facing me And if you think I'll fail Just wait and see Cause God seen me through it all and now I'm not afraid The blood, the sweat and too much pain I've lost it all and got it all to gain So, I'm on my way, thank God I've changed Everybody changes, good or bad But it's up to you, what path you choose When your backs up against that wall again And you feel like everything's just fallin' in Everything changes, better or worse The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Everybody changes, good or bad But it's up to you, what path you choose When your backs up against that wall again And you feel like everything's just fallin' in 'Cause everything changes, better or worse The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Everybody changes and everything changes The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Cause everybody changes and everything changes The real truth hurts and you only get what you deserve Never switched up, Never sold out Heartbreak and pains all I know about I need happiness, I'm gettin' older now My momma needs a better house And one for my little sister too So, I've gotta get my feet on the ground Gotta do this here with nothing to lose My friends have seen me struggle at times But, I did good a couple of times Look how far I've came with a troublesome mind When I could failed and came crumbling down I've did dirt, I've been kicked in it Built a house of pain and I lived in it Been badmouthed and talked down on So, it feels good to put a smile on And I promise that I'll never go back To that place that I lived in the past To the person that I used to be Cause I'm finally free at last So, if I never make it in rewrites Just know that I made it in life And that's more than I could ever ask for And I think I'm doin' alright No matter what you think of me Just keep it real and don't be fake with me Don't talk that trash unless you're facing me And if you think I'll fail, just wait and see Cause God seen me through it all and now I'm not afraid The blood, the sweat and too much pain I've lost it all and got it all to gain So, I'm on my way, thank God I've changed Everybody changes, good or bad But it's up to you, what path you choose When your backs up against that wall again And you feel like everything's just fallin' in Cause everything changes, better or worse The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Everybody changes, good or bad But it's up to you, what path you choose When your backs up against that wall again And you feel like everything's just fallin' in Cause everything changes, better or worse The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Everybody changes And everything changes The real truth hurts You only get what you deserve Cause everybody changes And everything changes The real truth hurts And you only get what you deserve Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted September 14, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted September 14, 2022 (edited) hear me crying - nu breed Hello I'm not here right now but please let your message after the beep and I will return your call when I can <beep> Hey Ghostdog it's Dennis I'm just wondering how you been, I been trying to reach you for awhile, been going to the places we hang out at and no one knows where you are, I know you've going through a lot right now but dude you got a lot of people who care about you and type of thoughts you've been having lately will lead to a no good outcome bro, there's a lot of people out there who still need you, so don't sell yourself short, anyways I just wanted to hear from you so hit me up when you get this, keep your head up and remember God's got you. Locked away in this cage of mine This misery is always on my mind So afraid of this heart of mine This emptiness it gets me every time Want to run away from this life of mine These memories eat me up inside So I fade to black and I turn out the lights Then I call out to God Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? I turned into someone I shouldn't have Broke the trust of the friends I once had Got these thoughts once again How I lost it all due to sin Living in fairy tales and make believe Then waking up from those dreams Feeling like I was born to lose And that's the excuse I give to use But I can't forget the sin I was raised from And I'll never forget that outcome Now a days I just feel numb Locked away in this cage of mine This misery is always on my mind So afraid of this heart of mine This emptiness it gets me every time Want to run away from this life of mine These memories eat me up inside So I fade to black and I turn out the lights Then I call out to God Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? When the smoke cleared I was still standing But in a million pieces from a crash landing Broke and alone but I'm not suprised That's what happens when you compromise I felt lost inside and had no reason Asking God why He keeps me breathing He showed me my life had meaning This will pass it's only a season I may have made some bad decisions but I only had good intentions I wasn't dealing with my addiction And one day it lead to my conviction Locked away in this cage of mine This misery is always on my mind So afraid of this heart of mine This emptiness it gets me every time Want to run away from this life of mine These memories eat me up inside So I fade to black and I turn out the lights Then I call out to God Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? Are You here with me? Are You listening? Can You hear me crying? Edited September 14, 2022 by Ghostdog Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted September 18, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted September 18, 2022 Â tattoos and scars- montgomery gentry A young kid stepped in from the cold And he opened up a drink He said don't look surprised old man I'm tougher than you think If I was the talkin' kind I could tell you a thing or two And since you didn't ask, let me show you my spiritual tattoos He said I got this one in Memphis after a preacher gave me a dunk Picked this one up in Dallas, man I sure was good and Holy Ghost drunk And you know the way I see it, if it gets any worse out there A Christian like me hasn't got a prayer The old man put down his Bible He said take some advise from me Sat down his glasses and rolled up his sleeve Said take a good look here my friend You see what these are Just my ragged old and jagged spiritual scars He said I got this one in a war before you were born And this one when I was half your age Satan nearly took my arm And you know the way I see it, son you ain't seen what I've seen Cause spiritual tattoos and scars are different things He said I've been serving God for all these years And what I know is this If you look and listen close A man will show you where his heart is You know the way I see it, you've been 'round but you're still green Cause spiritual tattoos and scars are different things A young kid stepped in from the cold And he opened up a drink He said don't look surprised old man I'm tougher than you think Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted September 22, 2022 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted September 22, 2022 where you left me - sean williams I don't know what to say or where to start How I thought we fell in love or how I let you into my heart You promised you were different and that you felt the same It's crazy how fast things change Cause you want me only when you want me But when I needed you, you weren't there But when you call or text I come running over I just wish that you could see how that ain't fair Well I didn't know my worth so I let you walk all over So I'm done with games and sitting on your shelf Jesus changed my heart that's what set me free Now I won't be where you left me It's been so long I can't remember when The last time that I felt this good or felt like me again I tell myself I'm strong enough from what you put me through I'm better off on my own than running back to you Cause you want me only when you want me But when I needed you, you weren't there But when you call or text I come running over I just wish that you could see how that ain't fair Well I didn't know my worth so I let you walk all over So I'm done with games and sitting on your shelf Jesus changed my heart that's what set me free Now I won't be where you left me I used to blame myself for what you done to me But now I know all the lies you made me believe I might of given you my all but now you won't get the best of me Now when you want me I don't come running And when you need me I won't be there When you call or text I'll just change my number Cause I see you never really cared And I know my worth and now I know I'm worth it And you will never see me sitting again on your shelf Jesus changed my heart that's what set me free Addiction I won't be where you left me Addiction I won't be where you left me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ghostdog Posted July 13, 2023 Group: Royal Member Followers: 6 Topic Count: 248 Topics Per Day: 0.09 Content Count: 4,327 Content Per Day: 1.55 Reputation: 3,816 Days Won: 4 Joined: 09/28/2016 Status: Offline Birthday: 10/04/1980 Author Share Posted July 13, 2023 older - sasha alex sloan a rewrite I used to shut my door While my father screamed in the kitchen I'd turn the music up and try not to listen to every little fight 'Cause the verbal abuse wasn't right I swore I'd never be like him But I was just a kid back then The older I get the more that I see My father is only hunam, he'sjust like me 'Cause parenting is hard, it don't always work You just try your best not to let your kids get hurt I used to be mad but now I know Sometimes it's harder to let some pain go It just hadn't hit me yet but The older I get I used to wonder why, why he could never be happy I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother daddy Where everything was fine, one that trated us better than mine I swore I'd never be like him But I was just a kid back then The older I get the more that I see My father is only hunam, he's just like me 'Cause parenting is hard, it don't always work You just try your best not to let your kids get hurt I used to be mad but now I know Sometimes it's harder to let some pain go It just hadn't hit me yet but The older I get The older I get the more that I see My father is only hunam, he's just like me 'Cause parenting is hard, it don't always work You just try your best not to let your kids get hurt I used to be mad but now I know Sometimes it's harder to let some pain go It just hadn't hit me yet but The older I get Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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