Alright...I'll just admit it...

[F8thNJesus]

the only thing I can say is that the problem you have is not unique. Don't feel like you are an outcast. When our pride comes to the forefront of our "problems" it is because the Lord is cultivating change in us. okay i know this sounds weird, but I would do everything to go against my pride.

Go to the zoo to specifically thank God for monkeys. Pray right there. Tell him you acknowledge he is the creator of all things and repent for your hate for them.

FInd an atheist, and buy them a cup of coffee, or send flowers.

Pray for the authority figures over you. Send your boss a note of encouragement.

Get you a little monkey and put a picture of yourself in its lap with a caption that says God doesn't make mistakes!

I brought up one time in a study that the Lord wanted me to deal with my anger, and my pastor said "its not your anger, it is the root of your anger."

I realized that I had gone through a lot with my husband. (he had an affair) and I was angry that God would allow him to do that. I had totally lacked in my devotions, and prayer life. I had literally let all the joy of salvation and the acknowledgement that i needed it everyday to leave me. I was left with an empty hole. Itwas not until I repented, and sought to have an experience with him everyday that I was able to find joy again.

[Treasure]

I question the validity of a therapist who told you nothing was wrong if you were as upfront and honest with him/her as you have been with us?

I couldn't agree more.

Have you tried keeping a prayer journal? It helps me to stay focused on my prayer time.

[Guest Gabrielle1]

The way of Christ is love. Love is not a feeling, rather, it's a choice. A mother may not feel like tending her newborn baby at 3 a.m., but does so out of love.

Here's an awesome online video which every Christian should watch. It is quite inspirational:

(Link removed by moderator - we don't allow links to youtube)

Gabrielle

[ALionessinGod'sPride]

I suppose you are right Gabrielle. (Maybe you can PM me that link?)

Again I appreciate everyone's advice...

Funny thing about the therapists I saw though. One said I COULD have OCD. Another said that I could have GAD or OCD...but then seemed to disregard it and thought I was "normal."

Pssh. Well I know I have bad anxiety problems...but I also have anger issues.

The Prayer Journal might be an idea...

I'll try to keep everyone's ideas in mind...

Not sure about praying to God thanking him for Monkies though XP

[None]

I wanted to find a good place to fellowship...

You sound like many of us here, don't worry.

[IamCurrentlyUnableToBelieve]

I have anger issues. I have pride issues. I don't like to back down from things, I have prejudices...namely against atheists...and I appologize to any of you atheists out there but it's true...

I seem to be addicted to arguing and fighting...even though I know it's unchrist-like.

I'm a Christian, but I havn't always lived up to the moral standards that I should...

It's easier for me to succomb to my anger and not let sleeping dogs lie. I feel like backing down just makes me weaker, I can't stand being wrong and I feel like I'm always wrong no matter what I do.

I've been on a rollercoaster ride with my faith, I can't seem to sit down and read the Bible.

I'm saved, but so many people think I'm not because of my anger and pride issues...

I have a hard time sitting down and praying....I get so easily destracted...

And the thing is, I think I just like being angry. I like hating and arguing.

But like anything else, it's a very unhealthy addiction that tears me apart.

I'm also very obsessive, controlling, I can't stand authority figures as I feel like they're always out to just boss me around and control me...

I even have a huge problem with the whole "wives must submit to their husbands thing" and nothing has worked.

I can't seem to just let it go and let God work in my life.

What can I do? I've tried praying and putting honest and earnist faith into God.

I'm not making up excuses because it's the God Honest truth.

I hate evolution so much that I cannot stand Monkeys because they seem to represent evolution to me.

The thing is, I think I just have this block in my mind where I can't let things go, I can't stop being angry and arguementive...it's almost like a thrill for me...

And then I go through periods where I'm depressed, hate myself, and want to die.

Not to mention I'm fearful of ceasing to exist.

What should I do? I have faith, yet I feel like it's not enough. I've tried councelling, but they said nothing was wrong with me.

What is wrong with me? I wish I knew what...what should I do? I feel like I've tried everything, INCLUDING turning to Jesus!

I wanted to find a good place to fellowship...but even then I can't help but jump on people's cases until I feel the problem is resolved rather than letting it go and letting THAT be the resolve when I feel the whole thing is just incomplete...

All I'm asking is for some God-guided help and advice here...even if someone were to agree to sit down and read the scriptures with me...and help explain them to me...that would be fine. Whatever someone would feel would help me out.

I'll take any advice at this point.

1) ToE (Theory of Evolution) does NOT proclaim man evolve from monkeys. So don't hate the poor monkeys

2) Do you believe Hellfire is ceasing to exist? I'm a bit confused.

3) I would suggest canceling your internet access, so maybe you can have some time to reflect and question why you are so angry and defensive.

4) Are you prejudiced against Atheists because you're afraid you might lose faith in God because of them?

5) I understand your frustrations, even though we have different experiences and (lack of) beliefs, I think I understand where some of anger is coming from.

Edited August 2, 2007 by IamCurrentlyUnableToBelieve

[Ovedya]

Actually man didn't evolve from monkeys, or some animal resembling monkeys at all. We all evolved from rocks, in fact.

[ALionessinGod'sPride]

1) ToE (Theory of Evolution) does NOT proclaim man evolve from monkeys. So don't hate the poor monkeys

Monkeys, apes. orangatangs...primates are all the same to me, just some bigger and some smaller. And evolutionists say we evolved from some kind of monkey-apeish creature. I'm not buying that and I think it's stupid. I hate primates in general because of it...because each time I see one...I think: evolution.

2) Do you believe Hellfire is ceasing to exist? I'm a bit confused.

I believe ceasing to exist is worse than hell because you don't know that you cease to exist, you simply cease to be. It's my greatest fear. Hell...Hell isn't nearly as bad to me. It's just an opinion of course...but I fear ceasing to exist above Hell. So no, I don't believe Hell, or Hellfire IS ceasing to exist, although in God's eyes you are...technically you are still existing...just in a place that's horrible beyond anything imaginable. And yet I rather be there than not exist because...at least I'd know I'd exist.

3) I would suggest canceling your internet access, so maybe you can have some time to reflect and question why you are so angry and defensive.

Naaaah. I'm not the one paying for it. I should probably try and limit it though...I am horribly addicted to the net...and I do question and reflect why...

4) Are you prejudiced against Atheists because you're afraid you might lose faith in God because of them?

It's kind of hard to explain my prejudice against atheists. I suppose that could be part of it...I see them as a threat....and the fact that they do exist makes me question my faith, and I feel like I cannot sustain my faith around them because they always seem to have a logical explanation for everything, and no matter what I say to them it's always like they're right, like for some reason they're superior to me or think they are because they don't "need" a religion and have accepted this "higher" status of not needing religion, and accepted that we don't have or need a God and that we are on our own. I feel like if there is no God, and that life is merely an accident...then life has no meaning. If my actions in this life be them good or bad...if they have no affect on what'll happen after I die...then what profit have I to gain from them? The end result, no matter who you are or what you do is always the same. And eventually, you will be forgotten.

I suppose the other reason is...whenever I'm around an atheist...I feel as though I'm with a creature who is...all brain and no soul. I'm not sure how to really explain that...it's just...like I feel an emptyness around them. I don't feel God's spirit. I don't feel the devil's spirit. I feel...nothing. An empty void of nothingness.

There are other reasons I suppose...but their attitudes, their beliefs or lack thereof of beliefs...make me feel inadequate, uncomfortable...and angry. I want nothing more than for them to be wrong.

Of course, realizing that Buddhists believe that achieving a state of "Nirvana" means to disintegrate and cease to exist...it kind of makes them just as bad. and Technically Buddhists ARE atheists in a sense.

I suppose that could link back to ceasing to exist when we die...AND believing we aren't anything more or less special than an ape. Granted...it angers me when Christians believe animals cease to exist...and I think it's for a lot of the same reasons. Atheists, I'll give them credit there: they don't discriminate as far as who will cease to exist when we die. Christians do. I realize God loves animals and all...and I know heaven will be great with or without them...but I loved my cats...they are and were my friends. I want to see them again.

I also believe that without God, Morals and Ethics mean nothing. I guess I sort of explained that before with the end result being the same no matter what we do... I don't believe we can just have morals and ethics for ourselves...without Jesus...we'd be nothing. We ARE nothing. Just a bunch of evil, sinful creatures. And I see that things get worse over time, not better. Where does evolution come into play there? I hate evolution. Ick. I can't STAND even hearing the word. When I see it, I just want to burn it.

I'm not saying you can't be a good person if you're an atheist...but atheism is rather self centered. It's survival of the fittest. If caring for someone is nothing more than an instinct....then why should I care? The only thing I should care about is my own survival...and to be quite honest if it was PROVEN that God didn't exist...I'd probably either go completely psycho...or kill myself because life would no longer have a point. And even MORE so if they PROVED that we simply cease to exist when we die...because I want to continue to exist. Even if it turned out another religion was right...I rather that be the case, ANYTHING...even the Scientologists...I rather they were right than the atheists.

And calling me pathetic, calling it illogical, whatever an atheist wishes to say about it...or about me and my desire for God, and my desire for faith...it hurts...and if they say religion is bad...they should look at how their own non-religion can be just as bad, if not worse...because I can guarentee you if atheists ran the world...we'd have a lot more problems than we already do now simply because of religion. Why? Because God would be absent from the world.

5) I understand your frustrations, even though we have different experiences and (lack of) beliefs, I think I understand where some of anger is coming from.

Do you now? Are you an atheist? or agnostic? Either way, I don't mean to insult you...it's just...atheists and atheism give me the willies and so do evolution that seems to support it.

Even other religions who believe in evolution...heck...it really even bothers me when Christianity tries to marry evolution and christianity...I just can't stand the idea of evolving from an ape or some kind of ape-ish like creature thing.

...but admittedly it wouldn't be so bad if I evolved from a cat. Probably because I love cats.

Ah well...anyway I chewed people's ears off no doubt but...this is just how I feel...

[rtwo]

Hi ALionessInGod'sPride...I see that the conversation has turned into evolution!

I too agree that it's ridiculous to marry Christianity and evolution - even the Catholic Church have made statements as such, saying that God created the first apemen and that we evolved from that!

I believe that we were created by our creators.

At the present moment, we only have two choices: all life came from random chance and millions of years of evolution OR all life came from an intelligent designer who is God.

As a Raelian, we have a third choice: all life was created scientifically by an advanced race of humans from another planet, who are the intelligent designers.

For more info, see below this post.

-Josh

I'm a member of the Raelian Movement and the founder of the movement, a man named Rael, was contacted by an extra-terrestrial named Yahweh on 13th December 1973. During this encounter he was dictated a series of messages, which he wrote down and later published in the form of 3 books.

In summary, these messages explain that scientists from another planet originally created all life on Earth using DNA. These human beings were known in the Hebrew Bible as ELOHIM, but were mistaken for gods by our ancestors. The word ELOHIM does not mean

[None]

Hi ALionessInGod'sPride...I see that the conversation has turned into evolution!

I too agree that it's ridiculous to marry Christianity and evolution - even the Catholic Church have made statements as such, saying that God created the first apemen and that we evolved from that!

I believe that we were created by our creators.

At the present moment, we only have two choices: all life came from random chance and millions of years of evolution OR all life came from an intelligent designer who is God.

As a Raelian, we have a third choice: all life was created scientifically by an advanced race of humans from another planet, who are the intelligent designers.

For more info, see below this post.

-Josh

I'm a member of the Raelian Movement and the founder of the movement, a man named Rael, was contacted by an extra-terrestrial named Yahweh on 13th December 1973. During this encounter he was dictated a series of messages, which he wrote down and later published in the form of 3 books.

In summary, these messages explain that scientists from another planet originally created all life on Earth using DNA. These human beings were known in the Hebrew Bible as ELOHIM, but were mistaken for gods by our ancestors. The word ELOHIM does not mean