I dont know what to tell you But Jesus knows every circumstance but the answer lies in forgiveness, kindness, brotherly love and all the fruits of the spirit that Jesus is. So stay close to Jesus and if sinned ask forgiveness and then listen to His instructions so not to do it again and end up in the same bondage. All instruction are for our well being and God knows what effects our life and hearts but He is God and nothing is impossible so pray and practice the things of the fruit of the spirit.