So, this may seem incredibly trivial, but here goes....
So I was at Disneyland (I have an Annual Pass), and my friend and I were sitting in a public area, but an hour after the park officially "closed" no one found us and kicked us out. So we walked out. But then we came up against secrurity. Intially, I planned on telling them, "Hey, dudes, epic fail. We were in plain sight and none of your guys didn't notice us"... but then my friend was like, "NO! Don't give up our hiding spot!!"
So when we got to the line of security guys, they stopped us (Um... WHY? We are leaving, arn't we???), asked where we came from. I told them from Frontierland. They asked why we were still in the park an hour after "closing" (despite the fact that there were lots of people still in the shops), were we cast members or what?
Then out of my mouth pops this stupid lie. I'm not sure why I even spit it out. I told them yes, we were cast members and just ogt off work (which I figured, for some stupid reason I'd be able to pull off because I DID work there about 3 years ago, and figured they'd tell us to just go on our way). But then the security guy asked for our cast memeber IDs, which of course we didn't have. And then wanted to know why I lied and what the real story was.
So I fessed up and told them what really happened, and encouraged them to look at security cameras, because they were worried we had been backstage (which, overall, was the big issue), and I wanted to prove that we really hadn't been. Ofcourse the security gaurd for the area covered his own butt and said he check the area and never saw us. I explained that he had not seen us proabably because it is a platform area behind a bunch of heavy shrubbery.
But over all, of course, it went on our records as AP holders that we had lied to security, and it will pop up if we ever have a run in with security again.
Now, I know this seems like a silly thing, and thankfully, it was just a slap on the wrist, and we still have our passes.... but I feel HORRIBLE about lying. I have asked God to forgive me, and I know he does... but I just can't forgive myself. Now I've gone and ruined all the integrity I had built up for myself recently, AND I'm a bad Christian... not to mention now I'll be walking around Disneyland everywhere I go feeling like I've got a giant sign that says "Broke the Rules".
Any suggestions of helping me feel better about myself and being a Christian. Sure, lesson learned, rubber burned so to speak... but I don't feel that "peace" people say your supposed to feel when you know God forgives you for something after confessing it in prayer...?