callmestormy

I'm not sure where to start with this.... but I want to keep it short and sweet. I have been struggling with alcoholism for the past two years. I'm sick of myself. I'm sick of drinking. I'm tired of feeling guilt and shame after waking up from an all night drinking session. I really love God and my biggest desire is to live in a way that is pleasing to Him. But I don't know how to stop. I've tried AA and walked away feeling more discouraged than helped. I've tried addiction counseling and she said she couldn't help me until I stopped drinking. I'm just tired. And I want a change, but I don't know how to do this. I know all things are possible with God. I believe this to be true. I have people who I keep myself accountable too and I feel like I have done everything in my power to fix this, but it's... my life is a mess. Things could be worse, but it could be better. I don't know... I'm starting to ramble, so I'll just stop