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Thank you. I wish there was a "like" button on here. That was perfect.

Even those who were teaching me that all of you guys were going to hell??? What is that even supposed to mean...?

Nazarene was a choice I had. I liked it but the only one around here was kinda bland.

I think you mistook me. I meant I decided to leave when they said I had have talent to please God. I guess I did word it wrong and for the confusion I apologize. I was more or less asking because my mom and I were interested in finding someone around here who would be willing to paster a successful church WITHOUT a members policy.It's just something we were pondering.

Not what I was implying. I was saying everyone should be equally allowed the chance to participate. By help I mean like say they have a dinner service and everyone is asked to bring something. Well ive seen churches tell people you cant come if you're not a member or if you dont bring something. I love to cook and I think it only appropriate I share my passion and gifts God gave me with others. I love to sing and I've been told several times that I had to have talent to be allowed to sing and basically said I'd have to audition and that someone who isn't musically talented wouldn't please God. (Keep in mind this was said by a pastor of the church) That's what I mean. I am invited nto a friends church because they want me to sing for them and then the pastor says I have to be a member to participate in stuff within the church. Was my que to get up and leave. Make sense?

Does the bible (anywhere within) say anything about requiring people to "join" or become members? I mean is it REQUIRED that a church have "members"? Could there be a church where it doesn't require people to "join" but maybe give info slip to fill out to those who want to be in the mailing and emailing programs? I'd like to think we're all children of god and we didn't have to sign up for anything to be that.. I'd like to believe that anyone that is welcomed into a church should be given an equal chance but it seems every church I go to frowns upon people willing to participate and help that aren't members. That's like saying if you dont have blonde hair you can't get your hair cut in our salon. It seems to me that churches now days are focusing more on themselves and politics than pleasing the Lord at all costs. Having Faith... That's what it's about. "Having Faith that the Lord". So often today I see "members" of churches even pastors replacing the Lord in that statement with material objects. God doesn't care what color my hair is or how wellI can sing or if I am a member of aa church as long as imnIN church worshipping HIM and HIM alone. Right!?

He came back.

I love this man with everything I am. I'd die for him no questions asked. He and my kids are the world to me. God is a great God and does great things. This is jus one of the great things he's done for me. He'sgive me to the man he wants me to be with for the rest of my worldly life. So I'll wait. Time isn't even an issue. None of it isn really an issue I just get sad because naturally I miss him but after you guys reassurin me.. I feel thats ok. Means im human. Means I have a heart.

He just sent me an email. I was right. Time. God is in our favor. Just keep us in your prayers guys. God just needs my amazing man for something right now. He'll be back. Just pray for us

Im 25. I have four kids from a previous marriage. I dont hurt from not.knowing. I know we are meant for each other. I know he'll will be back but I also know that it gets lonely without hearing his voice.Yes he has told me countless times that he loves me. He was the first to admit. He also has told me that he too believes we are meant to be together. He has a very close relationship with God. He talks to him much like I do. As if I were talking to a friend that were right there in front of me. I laugh with God.. I cry with God... I talk and sing with God. Josh is a very good person. He wouldn't do this just to hurt me so I believe God must have told him something. Maybe he's told him to do this as a test of both of our Love. We do talk about marriage. He even said he wanted to try having a child with me afterwards. He loves my kids and wants a big family as do I. We both feel God would bless us with another boy. He does love me. He tells me every day.. he tells me that GOD put me here for him and that he has plans for us. God has said the same for me. We dont know what those tiny details are but we know that our souls are connected through God. We're here in this situation for a reason and God will bring us through it no doubt stronger than before. I just get sad when I miss out phone calls and I can't see him say he loves me and I can't see him tell me about his day. I miss being able to tell him I'll always be here. I miss telling him that even though he's not here with me I carry him in my heart. It's not that we're unsure. We're both very sure. Im just not sure why he cut ties with me. God keeps reassuring me that it's temporary and that it's a test. Before all this happened Ihadn'tasked God to send me a sign because I was feeling uncertainty about the pace at which we were moving. I didn't see the first sign.. though now looking back i see it's a sign I would have had to look for. I asked him again for a sign and this time I told him "and please... you know how my mind works. Give me a sign and make it hit me in the face so I dont over look it." (Maybe not in those exact words but you get the idea) so when he went silent and wouldn't say anything other than "be patient, love is patient" a believe that was my God speaking through my Josh. I KNEW that was my sign just like when you know you're hungry. I just knew. Was no question about it. So I am thinking God wants us both to take a little personal time and ponder what it means to be patient and then when we are ready (and no doubt with God guiding us) we will get there then he will bring us back together and cut that separation. We both want to move at Gods pace not our own. ((Just a heads up.. we are both in agreement on celibacy before marriage. So that's not an issue.. in fact we pretty much agree on everything.)) He talks to God too so maybe there is something God trying to work out with him just like me. I have nno doubt we will be back together... I dont know when but i do know that I wot be giving up my sweet faith. My life and future with him depends on it. Plus it would be a pretty scary life without it. So my Faith stands. Maybe he's teaching me a little more patients. But either way whatever he is doing he KNOWS what he is doing so im not worried. Im just lonely. I miss him. I hurt because I can't hear his voice. It's like if your child goes to his fathers for the weekend (much like my son) I miss him. I know he'll be back but I still miss his sweet hugs and I ive you's. Just like I miss Josh. Same concept. I dont doubt our LOVE and I don't doubt that he will be back.. I just miss him so much.

Thank you... so much. It's 6am and I've been awake since 4... can't sleep. Can't hardly stop crying. Im keeping my faith through all of this. I know we're meantfor each other.. that much God has made very clear to both of us. I also know that he puts you through trials to test your faith. My Faith will never fade....I have patients because God has ppatients in me. I miss him so much. Id give anything right now just to tell him I love him.... do you think if I ask God to give him a message he'll somehow let him know im telling him? I mean I don't know what God is doing with him right now. It may be best to let God work him over without me interrupting. What would you suggest?

I love someone.. he loves me. He is in Afghanistan but he has cut off all ties with me.. we're both Christians.. his only explaination or words were "Be patient, Love is patient." ..... he's right. But it's still hurts. Im not mad. Im just a little down. I feel this is God testing my fAith and my Patients.. I know God has great plans for me and him.. and I know I shouldn't rush it. So im going to step back from the wheel and let god drive me. It's in Gods hands. If you love someone let them go. I love this man with everything I am. I have to let him go if I am ever going to get him back. My main question ... does having Faith and Patients mean I shouldn't hurt either? I mean I do feel confident that God isn't done with us and that this man that I am so deeply in love with will come.back though I dont know when.. I am at peace but I still hurt that I dont have those night time chats with him to tell him good night. Or that I dont get to tell him I love him. I miss his sweet voice. Does having Faith and Patients mean im not allowed to hurt like that? I'll wait until God tells me I either need to move on or until he brings my Josh back.