schizokid

I don't feel sorry for them, but I feel sorry for myself having to put up with them, and one time I remember I went to the bookstore and felt very lost in my heart and without faith in God, the Lord, and when I tried to pay for my book, the woman working the register said something to me that made me feel shame on myself and then I was scared of her, and then she asked me to see my book, and so I handed it to her and she opened the pages for a moment and then said "I'll pray for you" and I felt like that book was worthless and that I was maybe only slightly less worthless, and I have to say that that was a miserable feeling, and I guess she didn't feel very sorry for me, but that was some kind of passagre way of condemning me to hell in my mind and feels like it worked because I've never forgotten when she said that to me and how I felt in that moment. So I only just wonder what I am supposed to do around non-believers, or notchristians, but I think that Jesus taught some words about these kinds of questions to his disciples and sometimes we can learn the way by taking steps of faith based on God's promises and not my own judgments of myself and others. I hope this helps.