My husband joins me at church 10+ times per year. At least once a month, and on holidays. We have a toddler. If my husband were joining us every time, we would go every Sunday. But now I only get there 2-3x per month. I do partake in a Bible study (regularly) group and other church activities such as small group (off and on with that). He will join us at large activities, like the Christmas party, baptisms, etc.
He says he believes there's a higher power, thinks he believes there's a God, but doesn't understand why God would allow for bad things to happen. He grew up in the church and is well versed in Bible stories. I find him even filling ME in sometimes when I have questions. He's a little encyclopedia!
I am encouraged by the fact that he asks be questions when I return from worship or a study group. He wants to know what we discussed, and often has his own opinion or feedback.
I think what's holding him back, is not wanting to give it all up. Meaning - put all of his faith/trust in "something" or "someone" else. He's also got a very scientific/mathematical mindset, so that hinders him from putting another foot in front of the other when it comes to faith.
Who else struggles with not having a husband who serves as spiritual leader in their household? I feel such a void. I'm the only one making a push to attend church, and though he does encourage my participation because he knows how much it means to me, I miss having him physically there with me. I also wish he were prayerful, and more insightful vs. factful (is that a word?) when it comes to scripture and following God's Word.
It's too late. I'm married, and in love. He's my best friend, and he treats me with respect. But I sometimes wonder, a small piece of me, if I made a mistake. Or if I'm living one. You know, by being married so someone who isn't a true believer. Then I stop and wonder if Christ purposely put me in my husband's life to show him the way? Most of the friends I have in my church community (or all, really) attend with their spouse. So they don't understand my feelings.
I would love to hear from someone who has been there, or is standing in these same shoes.
Thank you.
1 Corin 7: 13-14 13 And the woman which hath an husband that believeth not, and if he be pleased to dwell with her, let her not leave him. 14 For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean; but now are they holy. something good in it so says the Lord A reference to scripture! This is exactly what I needed to hear. It sounds as if I am exactly where I am meant to be. THANK YOU! Time to memorize another verse.