I try to be, but it doesn't really work out. I accept him into my life, aside from the fact that I've not gotten one thing to work for me (jobs, websites, anything) I can't and don't win. I need to take a few bible study/salvation classes to set my mind straight, and then some prayers to enhance my success because it's really depressing the way nothing has worked out at all the last month. Got fired, lost about 1000$, got into fights, lost all dignity, happiness, etc. It's hard to say where I stand right now, everyone keeps screwing me over and I can't say that I'm happy about it.