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True I should not forget that. Thank you

Thank you very much for the encouragement. You are probably right. My constant hand washing is a little OCD. Thank you

Yeah, I meant to change my username. I created this account when I was depressed. But I am no longer there. So, thank you so much. And I will change my username. Also, thank you for everything else you said. God bless

I am terrified. All I can think about is this virus that's going around. It is in my town right now and so far 4 people have found to be positive with this virus. I am afraid to go shopping. I won't even spend time with my family. My mom has invited me to go and spend time with her, and she is a widow. But I won't do it. I won't let anyone touch me. I am obsessed with washing my hands every second of the day. My hands are starting to crack. I am healthy physically right now. But mentally I think I'm going to have a breakdown. I keep getting news about so many people dying and how the death toll is increasing. I took the trash out and some stuff flew in my face. That freaks me out. I washed my face but I know that if I end up with a virus, washing it won't stop it. I don't know what advice you can give me. But any encouraging or advice will be helpful. Thank you very much.

Huh. I have thought about that. I do think that stinks. I don't believe it is racism whether or white or black to be proud of who you are.

Thank you everyone for your opinion. I really appreciate. I know that some people disagreed. And that is OK. I asked for your opinion and you gave it to me. Everyone gave me a lot to think about, even those who were disagreeable. So thank you

Thank you very much everyone.

That is very true. Thank you so much for your reply

Thank you very much for your reply

Thank you very much

Thank you. I do need to think about my motives. I definitely don't want to be puffed up. But I guess I didn't think I was being puffed up. I was just proud of what they have accomplished. But I do need to think about my motives.

Thank you very much for your bluntness. What you said is something that I need to think about.

Thank you very much.

I am a proud African American man. I am proud of the African American history. I am proud of what African Americans accomplished during the Civil Rights Movement. And I am proud of what the students did at Central High School in Little Rock. But I am not somebody who holds resentment towards anybody. I am not somebody who is expecting an apology from anyone, even though someone told me a long time ago we shouldn't have to continue to apologize for what happened in the Civil Rights Movement. I wasn't there, so I wasn't expecting an apology. But that doesn't mean that I'm not proud of its history. And if you weren't there and had nothing to do with it, you shouldn't have had to apologize at all. I have to do a research project at school. I have to create a superhero, for example, like Wonder Woman, but it doesn't have to be Wonder Woman I'm just using that as an example. And she or he has to have multiple different super powers, and she or he either changes or stops an event in history from 1873 to 2018. And it just has to be one event, like the civil rights movement or World War II. Or it could be 9/11 or anything that happened in history. I am doing my research project on the Civil Rights Movement. My fear is because I am African-American and race has actually become very controversial. And I am the only African-American in my history class, which I don't think matters but sometimes I am afraid that it does. I do not believe anyone is racist in my class, but I am just afraid of my project that it is going to cause some friction. I don't know. I guess my question is, do you think it is racist that an African American loves his own history? Do you think it's racist that an African-American loves his own history above all the other historical events?

Thank you everyone And thank you for the advice.

Thank you, everyone.

Yeah, I know I should never rejoice when anyone dies. Thank you for the reminder.

As I was browsing the internet, I came across the story of a 13 year old boy who was severely beaten and tortured because he was accused of stealing a bike, which turned out to not be true. He was beaten by four men, while another man video taped it and placed it on social media. This was in Bangladesh. There was a video of him getting beaten and tortured. I did not watch the video and I won't watch the video. But I could see his face, and he was in so much pain. This just breaks my heart. I know it is very girly for a grown man to say that this breaks my heart. But I don't care. It does. I cannot get the images out of my head. It hurts so much to think of what that boy went through. I keep to imagining that I am that little boy getting beaten like that. I also Imagine that I was that boy's parents. I don't think I could survive knowing that somebody cause so much pain to someone that I loved. It hurts so much and I didn't even know that kid. This happens to me all the time and I hate having so much empathy towards people. I cried for hours and hours when I think of the people suffering like this. Well, that's an over-exaggeration I don't cry for hours but I cry a lot. I can't get the images out of my head The face of pain and the face of suffering. The boy crying out. That boy probably cried out to his mother and she was not there. Imagine being that mother and knowing or thinking that your son is crying out for you while he is suffering and you were not there. Well, in my case of course, imagine being a father who was not there for his son. I hate having so much empathy towards people, it is a curse And sometimes it is very hard to talk to other Christians about these things, because then they go off on you and say well you are just as evil as they are. I know that scripture says that if we break one commandment we break them all. But that doesn't mean that I cannot be upset about this. That doesn't mean that I can't feel for that little kid. It doesn't mean that I can't pray for justice for that kid. And it also doesn't mean that I can't hurt for the family. It wasn't just that kid that suffered, it was his parents I'm sure. But Justice was served. Those men got the death penalty. But I am still saddened and hurt by this. How do I have less empathy towards people? How can I not let it destroy me?

Again, thank you very much.

Thanks everyone.

Is watching TV feeding the flesh? I think I know the answer to this question. But I'm not always sure. I watch a lot of TV to escape reality. I love my TV shows and movies. I spend hours upon hours watching TV. Well, actually I don't have cable but I watch a lot of Netflix and Hulu Plus, and even Amazon. But it's still television. I mean they are TV shows and movies from TV Networks. But watching TV helps me cope with a lot of things. I forget how cruel the world can be. Except I watch cruelty on TV, but of course it's TV, so there is always a happy ending.

Thank you everyone.

Thanks for sharing.

Huh interesting