So, I am looking for a place to be open about my questions about God? I grew up in a "christian" family, mother was a sunday school teacher, father was a deacon, both were abusive at home: sexual, physical, and spiritual. I got away from church at 14 yrs old until about 22 yrs old, then left again at 30 yrs old, and tried again to go back to church but found hurtful, hypocritical christians. The past 7 years I have been on my own reading the bible only the past year and started christian counseling about 4 months ago, which has brought up a lot of un-answered questions about God. I have read thru the bible now 6 times, and studied several books about God, but this relationship part? ? ? Do I really need community? Are there any real christians?
